Songs written about—or that remind me of—my little multiverse.

Birch Hollow Jams

One is reborn over and over, while the other—immortal—waits for her. Always.

Lyrics:

You have a place right in the center of my heart (Always),
Even when we have to hit restart (Always).
No matter however long we're apart (Always),
Your gravity leads to the center of my heart.

Gravity

UNDER THE WOLF MOON, Chapter 26 - The Wolf Moon.

Lyrics:

As I hold you close, you say goodbye;
The same tears in both our eyes.
Why did you save me?
Why couldn't I be the one to leave?

Don't go,
Stay here.
Without you,
I might disappear.

Your eyes close a final time.
The war around me goes silent.
A fire rages inside;
Your blood on my hands will never dry.

You left,
And you're not here.
Without you,
I might disappear.

As the grief takes my place,
Into something else I change;
Set my sights on revenge,
Then she reminds me this is not who I am.

You're gone,
But I'm still here.
Without you I'll try my best,
Not to disappear.

Disappear

The spoken word parts are from chapter five of INTO THE FORGOTTEN FOREST.


Lyrics:

(Treading water.)
Am I dreaming?
(Sinking further.)
Riding on the back of a demon?
(Dreaming that I'm...)
The water horse, careening...
(Going under.)
As it pulls me further down.
(Treading water.)
Into the darkness.
(Sinking further.)
I can't breathe in.
(Dreaming that I'm...)
My lungs are screaming.
(Going under.)
Am I dreaming?
(Going under.)

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Mechaheart

The Water Horse

Lyrics:

Once upon a—
Once upon a time...
Once upon a—
Once upon a—
Once upon a—
Once upon a time...
Once upon a—

There was a little girl,
Who had a little curl,
Right in the middle of her forehead.
When she was good,
She was very, very good,
And when she was bad, she was horrid.

Just a bird, spreading her wings;
I was so afraid to fly.
Just a bird with no song to sing,
To the endless, open skies.
Then, a bird with a broken wing,
Had to learn how to survive.
Not just a bird with a broken wing,
I can become anything.

Fever Dream

Broken Wing

Time, oh, time passes.
Behind eyes, turns to ashes.
One step forward.
Three steps back.
I can’t remember what it feels to be glad...

Ashes

Every January,
When the moon is full,
All the Weres prepare,
For the night of the wolf.
It’s a right of passage,
For the young and the old,
Are you prepared for 
The night of the wolf? (X2)

Underneath the cold,
Winter skies,
In the forest, 
A secret lies.
The Pack gathers,
In the night,
To protect their land,
From the Shadow’s blight.

Every January,
When the moon is full,
All the Weres prepare,
For the night of the wolf.
It’s a right of passage,
For the young and the old,
Are you prepared for 
The night of the wolf? (X2)

All your bones,
Will shatter then mend.
Your form will change,
Again and again.
If we all,
Survive this night,
We’ll let out a howl,
That’ll echo through time.

Every January,
When the moon is full,
All the Weres prepare,
For the night of the wolf.
It’s a right of passage,
For the young and the old,
Are you prepared for 
The night of the wolf? (X2)

Gather near,
Listen here;
Bare your teeth,
Show no fear.
The time is now,
This is war.
Shadows creep in,
Like through open sores...

The Night of the Wolf

Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Do you need me?
Can you free me?

Ghost around ever bend,
Reaching out, creeping in.
Haunted halls, whispered secrets—
Nobody I know believes it.
Woman with a white dress on
Dripping wet, says, “Child, come.”
Man in red stands at the door
Turning right, walks off the porch

Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Do you need me?
Can you free me?

Grandma sitting all alone,
Tells me she’s been gone too long.
Demon crouching in the corner,
Grins as I scream bloody murder.
The attic door is nailed shut,
But footsteps fall up above.
Voice behind you speaks your name,
No one’s there. Are you sane?

Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Do you need me?
Can you free me?

Are they all just voices in your head,
Or have you been speaking to the dead?
And does this mean until the end,
Your life will always be filled with dread?

I felt someone looking at me,
One night when I was trying to sleep.
Cracked one eye, then looked up;
A man of Shadow in the dark.
Eyes were red as burning coals.
I prayed he wouldn’t eat my soul.
Reptilian wings scrape the ceiling.
Close my eyes. “Maybe I’m dreaming…”

Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Do you need me?
Can you free me?

Haunted

Baby, won’t you take this quest from me?
I wanna be an NPC!
Giving out loot when the job’s complete.
I wanna be an NPC!
Darkmoon Faire is the place to be.
I wanna be an NPC!
Old Heroics on Tattooine.
I wanna be an NPC!

No gold for you today…
(Non-player Character)
Unless you go and slay...
(Non-player Character)
I will refuse to pay...
(Non-player Character)
Turn it in or go away!
(Non-player Character)

Baby, won’t you take this quest from me?
I wanna be an NPC!
Giving out loot when the job’s complete.
I wanna be an NPC!
Really feelin' that Hearthstone heat.
I wanna be an NPC!
Red Hulls captain, on the streets.
I wanna be an NPC!

No gold for you today…
(Non-player Character)
Unless you go and slay...
(Non-player Character)
I will refuse to pay...
(Non-player Character)
Turn it in or go away!
(Non-player Character)

Baby, won’t you take this quest from me?
I wanna be an NPC!
Giving out loot when the job’s complete.
I wanna be an NPC!
“PUGs give me anxiety...”
I wanna be an NPC!
“Altaholic, LFG...”
I wanna be an NPC!

No gold for you today…
(Non-player Character)
Unless you go and slay...
(Non-player Character)
I will refuse to pay...
(Non-player Character)
Turn it in or go away!
(Non-player Character)

I Wanna Be an NPC

All of these words,
Trapped inside my mouth,
Maybe one day,
They’ll find their way back out.
Collecting like sand,
At the bottom of the sea.
If you have a better plan,
Just whisper it to me.

No one understands,
Anything I say.
It’s like what they hear,
Is bad autotranslate.
And I feel like maybe,
I’m just not the same;
That there’s something disconnected,
Deep inside my brain.

I don’t have the spoons,
To explain myself again.
So maybe I’ll just,
Nod and pretend.
In through one ear,
And right out through the eyes.
Like they heard what they wanted,
And believe their own lies.

No one understands
No one understands,
Anything I say.
It’s like what they hear,
Is bad autotranslate.
And I feel like maybe,
I’m just not the same;
That there’s something disconnected,
Deep inside my brain.

Bad Autotranslate

The Silver Bells

Wake up, darling, you’ve slept too long,
Your life is wasting away.
While the world spins round like a top,
You’re stuck inside of your own head all day.
Are you there? You’ve stopped replying.
We’re worried, are you OK?
We miss you, please don’t forget us.
We really hope that you choose to stay.

The days go by,
I’m fading fast.
Perpetuated,
By my own past.
It hurts to breathe.
It hurts to wake.
Don’t know how much,
More I can take.

Talk to us like you once did when,
You felt like you were still alive.
Don’t let the sadness take over,
Don’t let it eat away at your insides.
Remember that we all love you,
And all that you have survived.
If you give up now, you’ll miss out,
On everything you wanted in life.

I wish I could Eternal Sunshine,
The hurt right out of your mind.
Maybe then you wouldn’t feel like,
You’re struggling for air all of the time.
I wish I could erase it wholly,
From the depths of your heart.
Maybe then you wouldn’t always feel,
Like you are unraveling apart.

The days go by,
I’m fading fast.
Perpetuated,
By my own past.
It hurts to breathe.
It hurts to wake.
Don’t know how much,
More I can take.

The days go by,
It’s almost gone.
I can’t explain,
But I won’t give up.
It hurts to breathe,
A little less.
Don’t know how long,
Til it comes back.

But I’m still here,
I swear I am.
Promise I’ll stay,
Long as I can.
Life is cruel,
And life is sweet.
I’m holding on,
To everything...

The Conversation

It’s been a season since my light went away.
I’m trying to hold onto any reason to stay.
But the darkness has taken a hold;
It’s left a blemish on my soul.

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?
Can you reignite the spark?
Is redemption that hard?
Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

The soul’s the driver of my body-mobile.
My heart’s an engine, but now it’s standing still.
Can I remember how to take the wheel?
Banish the darkness, or I’ll never heal

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?
Can you reignite the spark?
Is redemption that hard?
Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

I can’t tell where my true self went to.
Maybe it fell. Maybe I’m meant to,
Slither ‘round searching, grasping with my hands.
Like writing my secrets on the shoreline in the sand.

Where did the light go?
Where did my light go?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?
Can you reignite the spark?
Is redemption that hard?
Can you see? Can you see in the dark?
Can you see? Can you see in the dark?
Can you reignite the spark?
Is redemption that hard?
Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Dark

My heart is cold as ice, ice, baby.
It lives in a cave of my own making.
But I don’t need no one to save me—
Just a few more months of hibernating.
I’m sorry if I missed a memo,
The first half of my life was a demo.
Maybe this time around I’ll get things right,
Or maybe I’ll fade away into the night.

I kinda know when something’s bad for me right from the start.
I just gotta listen a little closer to my heart.
Cos sometimes I drown it out so I can’t hear, oh,
When the pain of grief is the only thing I fear.

I’ve been living in an endless time loop;
Every day’s another chance to reboot.
But still, I’m covered up in cobwebs.
How long have I been here without friends?
Pain and circumstance devoured up my youth,
Now I feel this urgency to just move,
Away from all this endless nothing.
Maybe I need to believe in something.

I kinda know when something’s bad for me right from the start.
I just gotta listen a little closer to my heart.
Cos sometimes I drown it out so I can’t hear, oh,
When the pain of grief is the only thing I fear.

I keep holding on to past transgressions.
Maybe this is my confession.
I didn’t always know what I was doing.
I don’t know who I thought I was fooling.
It’s hard to own up to your own fuck-ups.
I think it’s high time I have had enough,
Of leaving behind a trail of chaos.
Maybe what I need is still out there, waiting.

I kinda know when something’s bad for me right from the start.
I just gotta listen a little closer to my heart.
Cos sometimes I drown it out so I can’t hear, oh,
When the pain of grief is the only thing I fear.

Cold

This song is sort of like a trailer to book two of THE OUTCROSSED SERIES.

Lyrics:

(Spoken - "Sorry, sir, but I think you've mistaken me for someone else.")

Full wolf moon,
Rising in the sky.
Its a ghost town,
But can you hear the battle cries?
Through the forest,
Into the darkest night;
Everything you thought you knew,
Was predesigned.

Breathe in,
(Breathe in)
Breathe out.
(Breathe out)
Howl loud;
(Howl loud)
Tear it down.
(Tear it down)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.

Prophecy is something,
You should think about.
Are you sure,
Beyond a Shadow of a doubt?
The Queen unleashes,
Her unholy crowd.
If a wolf falls in the woods,
Do they make a sound?

Breathe in,
(Breathe in)
Breathe out.
(Breathe out)
Howl loud;
(Howl loud)
Tear it down.
(Tear it down)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.

Silver scales,
And silver eyes.
Is her broken heart,
Compromised?
Darkness falling,
Castles in the sky.
Dragon’s fire,
Burning in the night.

Breathe in,
(Breathe in)
Breathe out.
(Breathe out)
Howl loud;
(Howl loud)
Tear it down.
(Tear it down)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.

All that blood spilled,
On the winter’s ground.
The battle’s won,
But at what cost to us now?
War is still to come,
The walls are breaking down;
All the worlds will die,
If we can’t work this out.

Breathe in,
(Breathe in)
Breathe out.
(Breathe out)
Howl loud;
(Howl loud)
Tear it down.
(Tear it down)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.
(Run faster)
Run faster.

Run Faster

Lyrics:

Chaos waiting on the sidelines,
Hiding from the storm.
On the edges of reality,
Something old’s reborn.
 
Creeping, seeping, infecting, leaking;
Pulling everything towards it like a black hole.
Oozing, burning, the Shadow's churning,
And it’ll swallow you whole.

Can’t you hear it, can’t you feel it,
The darkness taking hold?
You’re all shakes and shivers,
But it’s not the cold.

Lurking, leeching, incepting, scheming;
Pulling everything towards it like a black hole.
Freezing, aching, her eyes are vacant,
And she’ll swallow you whole.

Shadow

Roar

.ɿoʇ ⑁ƨiw uoγ ɟɒ⑁w luʇɘɿɒɔ ɘᗺ

The Water Horse

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