Rain hums from the light socket
Tangerine
Are you coming with me?

Tangerine

Ah. I lost the last excerpt entirely because of a bug 
I deleted some comments because of thinking too spontaneously, and energetic refusing to externalize my desire but internalizing it when it needed to be properly starved. 
I had a bad rebellious energy waking up tonight 
But was reconciled

I wanted to prioritize my physical and spiritual health before I jumped into music, or promotional ideas 
or else
I’d finish a song and find leisure again 
—
I don’t know if God would have qualms with the absurd hints I had for the show joke 
But i assume that was the bad energy 
Maybe I’m wrong, it’s too dark and I haven’t read yet 
He’s encouraged me to break several boundaries in my music already, so the idea stems here, I’ll get personal with my imitated identity
Before the fall there was only “vegetation”
No killing, No death 
After the fall and the promise 
To these people who lived 
Every thing that lived and moved was food 
The world was theirs, in their time 
For one to love God with all his being at that time 
Is to ultimatum with God in obedience 
I sacrifice the merit, the spirit behind all these things 
To the sovereign God 
If “satanic” music plays, “satanic” events happen
I’ll make God infinitely more potent in the same portrayals 
I pose in the bloodbath  
For the food of the world is still always a sacrilege 
I imagine the purging 
I revel in their false evil instead 
Everything ultimately serves God 
And if he loves me so
It’s a catering
Perhaps in the garden 
I knew the manna was good 
And feared or despised, even sinned with almost everything else  
I grew in that sense 
If God tells me not to do something 
It should not be done 
And often it is his preferential submission he wants in the 10 commandments 
But now that Christ formed the perfect 2 
Physical reasoning is only for the visible reality 
The danger of indulging out of mindlessness 
That is what I’ve spent so long working on 
—
Dangerous permissive answers I was given that day 
Probably because I’ll always move safely at dark venues
I’d curb anyone who sneaks 
And deny anyone talking on the wrong foot 
Yet when I thought of ways I’d handle blind futures
The better things I thought I said after I left? 
God noted that it was for me alone to figure these things
—
I don’t mind my teeth 
My smile is fine especially at glance 
But I lost my retainer when I was younger 
In my dreams I was insecure about it with them.  
—-
But perhaps I checked the teeth of God in my passion
Taking into my voice the entirety 
Of that which is going to be undone 
And God taking the entirety 
Of my undoing 
Casually seeming
Saw how these things used to grind up the meal 
Were so orderless  
Comparative to the front 
Presenting itself visibly as spotless 
It is a brazen, curious translation 


And perhaps in the same room there was a shift in presence, 
and I looked at myself 
And thought that sharing a food like that 
And unveiling the origin of how my lust is functioning under my ideals 
Was very embarrassing 
But to have lust function over my ideals 
Has not been allowed to happen to me
Under the knowledge of the first 
I’d accept myself with reason 
Casually seeming 
And expose myself to a unity 
That is incorrect 
To take into myself with different cost 
My reputation 
Because what would theoretically be correct 
Is an exaction of death 
It is a haughty, self aware intaking
—-
“Turn these stones into bread” 
Everything from the mouth of God I will eat 
If I eat a stone, it is bread for me 
If I eat bread, it is bread for God.

Even before their existence was tandem 
God let me enjoy that mystery

To turn a man’s organs to the inside 
A writer would idealize what a woman would fantasize
The other should do the latter 
The identity causes androgyny
.
(The voice told me to like a Keith song. 4 days later he released an ep… the more impressive one is the Romeo EP because the truth was revealed through love and obedience)

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