every single of ur songs is so epic pls continue feeding US, yes, me and whoever is reading this, your music.

crazy how suffering draws out one’s artistic ability

I am a nineteen year old, nearly twenty year old male; yet, this song really speaks to me. "i just want our perfect future with our own beautiful daughter and you'll love her as her father" makes me want to cry. I want to have a daughter and tell her she is beautiful no matter what and make her life amazing whenever possible. I want to spoil her and tell her that I do not care what the world says: 'you are my perfect little princess.' I want the cycle of abuse to end and to have a girl who is proud to say that she is.

Pupsies what happened to your insta and TikTok??

empty [michaelwarren]

mix / master (me)
wujek mix their own vocal z
prod wujek

Wujek

Im Sad u died u know I cried
Called u last night tears in my eyes
x2

I tried to call u so many times last night
U said u'd be cool u said it was fine
I knew that it Weren't it wasn't right
U went anyway without saying goodbye

Stress

Called u last night this girl make me go n cry
I met this girl online she told me slit my wrist *GOODBYE*
And I'm sad u died u know I waste so many lives
Hoping that ur fine IK U'll never b Alright :(

Now I Jus sit n Cry : (

Im Sad u died u know I cried
Called u last night tears in my eyes
x2

im sad u died + wujek

prod meeeebitchessss
im so depressed lol i like to dance tho



i’m not needing any luck 
always having lots of fun 
chillin in the back of the club i’m boutta shoot it up 
idc bout anyone
all these pills they leave me dumbb
she really think i’m the one 
so addicted worse than drugs 
they all laughing at my grave 
laughing with them everyday 
when i’m bored i change my face 
i don’t ever run away 
i just wanna see them die 
i just wanna end their lives 
i don’t think it’s crazy i just do what makes me feel alive 

i wish life was better i’m a mess i’d do anything 
i need a new girl i wish she sent me a melody 
it’s a war in my head but idk what’s wrong 
this is not where i belong you’ll all miss me when i’m gone 
i wish life was better i’m on a race to get to the end
i’m still in the past i remember kissing wit my friends 
i’ll still hold ur hand idc if u smell like cigarettes 
i just wanna dance all night forget everything

hate my life 5 stars on me 
getting high everyday feeling like i’m in a dream 
it doesn’t matter everybody acting like they free
it doesn’t matter that’s why no one wanna talk to me
yea i see her all the time in my dreams every night  
yea it makes me feel alright till i wake up then i cry
all i wanna do is sleep i don’t wanna be alive 
everything too bright that’s why i don’t go outside 

always losing touch leave me on the floor 
told me that she hate me but ik she want more 
got my thoughts on repeat ik i said it before
take a pill to go to sleep then i’m taking 2 more 
now she cutting on me i’ve never seen that before 
it’s like she proving she a freak i don’t need anymore 
made me promise i won’t leave but ik she got bored 
had to lie to myself idc anymore

bruh im just tryna live

baby i remember #scenecore #hyperpop #digicore 

REMEMBER ☆ prod. takuori!

to be honest i 
pray that i won’t let go 
i’m not insane 
i just wanna love you 
every fucking time you say 
i love you 
u gotta say it again 
u gotta say it again 

to be honest i 
pray that i won’t let go 
i’m not insane 
i just wanna love you 
every fucking time you say 
i love you 
u gotta say it again 
u gotta say it again 

yuh 
i told you don’t fuck around and find out so u fucked around and found out 
it’s all good til they try to kill you 
noose wrapped around my throat telling you i feel you 
everytime everytime without a doubt ye
let me down going down like Earhart ye
make a wish pray to god that he hears you
ain’t nobody ever there to gaf yeah

to be honest i 
pray that i won’t let go 
i’m not insane 
i just wanna love you 
every fucking time you say 
i love you 
u gotta say it again 
u gotta say it again 

to be honest i 
pray that i won’t let go 
i’m not insane 
i just wanna love you 
every fucking time you say 
i love you 
u gotta say it again 
u gotta say it again 

m1v 

I wanna love you right
Do things that make you fly
Promise
Ill love you till our names on our graveyard
Pull me on rip 
Hold on me lift
My pain off my shoulder
I cant catch a shift 
Ill love you till our names on our graveyard
Cant catch the drift when i let go
I hold you dearer while we grow
Cant stand a pain on your behold
Rip it in pieces thousandfold
And it is all a cycle
we do it again


to be honest i 
pray that i won’t let go 
i’m not insane 
i just wanna love you 
every fucking time you say 
i love you 
u gotta say it again 
u gotta say it again 

to be honest i 
pray that i won’t let go 
i’m not insane 
i just wanna love you 
every fucking time you say 
i love you 
u gotta say it again 
u gotta say it again

I’m not insane, say you fucking love me! ft. m1v

cover art cred: fruitx2777
/// lyrics and updates ///
yea listen i got on my brothers pc and downloaded fl studio and nexus and serum and i made my first shitty beat ive made in a few months so erm yea here.

idk i feel like this is mid but i like some parts a lot lol doesnt live up to my vision tho

update: i deleted my insta btw cus creepers and im paranoid and stuff.. but again im on sc if u need to reach out. if ur a supa cool artist just dm me here i still am thinking of doing collabs later on after i settle in from moving out
---

you dont know the pain
you dont know the pain

curves and all my hair and brain
even if i held my weight
i know im a 
dumb girl who wont listen
its an average day, feeling sickness in my system

its an average day, feeling sickness in my system
its an average day, feeling sickness in my system
even if i bled out i know you still wouldnt listen
i know im a dumb girl
i know cus i miss him

its an average day, feeling sickness in my system
its an average day, feeling sickness in my system
even if i bled out i know you still wouldnt listen
i know im a dumb girl
i know cus i miss him

all you ever wanna do is tell me what i wanna hear
i know that you all get off on watching my tears disappear
soaking in the fabric of your shirt i lay my head against
you all love me in a trance
you all love to make me dance

i know im a dumb bitch and i prolly wouldnt be so hurt
if i put my foot down
if i buried myself in the dirt

do i have to kill myself
to keep me safe
from all of you

its always the same excuses
no matter the things i do

…
i know im a dumb girl
i know im a dumb bitch
i know im a dumb girl
i know im a dumb bitch
i know im a dumb girl
tell me im a dumb bitch
i know im a dumb girl
...

youre a sick freak all the way down from head and to your toes
slimy nasty tar and black
thats the shit that fills ur soul

i know that ur watching me
i see your shadow all the time
following behind my footsteps
tripping my feet 
dragged inside

beat my face in
dig your claws
i know that you like the blood
lick that shit right off my face
you just cant forget the taste

i will sit there pretty
cus i always wished to be a doll
you can call me angel
oh how purity falls down from God

youre a greedy glutton
and i hope i plant my seeds inside
i hope one day you all see the tiny flicker in my eye
i hope you remember the cost of your fun and entertainment
im so gullible and naive
but i know thats my mistake and

HHYYYAHHHHHHHH!!!!!

its an average day, feeling sickness in my system
its an average day, feeling sickness in my system
even if i bled out i know you still wouldnt listen
i know im a dumb girl
i know cus i miss him

i know im a dumb girl

i know im a dumb girl
i know cus i miss him

i know im a dumb girl
i know im a dumb girl
i knew you wouldnt listen.

dumb girl. (prod pupsies)

releases on all plats: 03/08/25

edit: IVE REUPLOADED THIS IWTH A DIFFERENT MIX LIKE 5 TIMES IM DONE WITH IT. NO MORE.

i say "emfl" a lot (end my femcel life) and i said it today and thought WOW! that would be a GREAT song! so i made this
also little story before the lyrics:

BUT GOOD FOR THEM I LOVE LVOE AND IM HAPPY WHEN PEOPEL ARE HAPPY TOGETHER!! :D it makes me feel hopeful!! :DD a little !! :D sometimes !!! :D also the term femcel is not that serious here pls don't come in my comments complaining if u do ur a pussy 

ああ

just another day in my FEMCEL life

(living in a lie)

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and slice
me to bits
cus i’ve never even held hands 
just said love you on a screen
are you a real human being?

got that captcha
could you capture
this moment permanently 

tell me that you’ll never leave
i can show you everything
i could be all you would need
and when you finally get tired
you can just leave me on seen 

they say i got daddy issues
need someone to hold me
wonder if you knew what i had been through
would you be kinder and see
that i don’t mean no harm
 
i’m sorry all i do’s fuck up
i’m a suicidal loser
and i don’t deserve your love

you can leak the things i say and show
and when i make my plan and end up 
inside of the hospital
break up with me cus it’s good for my own mental health
cus i need some fucking help
cus i cry and beg for you to stay
and promise that ill never make
your life more shit
promise ill fix
every mistake
ive ever made

no matter what it takes…
i just want our perfect future
with our own beautiful daughter 
and youll love her as her father
we can smile and ill make sure
that her life is happy
she won’t ever hurt

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

i know i have issues
but i forgive all of yours
i try to show that i love you
but i only end up worse

tried to help through every struggle
even when you broke my trust
told you “please don’t make that promise”
cus you broke it, my heart, crushed.

so it’s— 
just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

living in a lie…

my femcel life. (ilybeam)

cvr: gearsmaiden
yea idk the mix on the beat is mid ... but i did it awlll my self :p
**LYRICS**
is this real life?
am i still alive
can i feel alive
can i feel alive

am i still alive
can i feel alive
i’m so cold 
i’m still shivering
will i survive

am i still alive
can i feel alive
i’m so cold 
can’t stop shivering
will i survive

in my youth i felt exhausted
at the cost of concentration been complaining, never received consolation
what i’m waiting for -
it’s bigger than the hopes you have
that you keep at the door
it’s a violation: takin’ fiction,
yet still wanting more

all my misery, it came without any mercy, merci beaucoup!
you never did a thing for me
how will i live without you?

thought that i could love even though i been fuckin’ hurt 
but i know that isn’t true
 now i know that shit don’t work!

am i still alive
no one by my side
am i still alive
with no one by my side

can i feel alive
no one by my side
i’m so cold 
i’m still shivering
will i survive

can i feel alive
no one by my side
i’m so cold 
i’m still shivering
will i survive

am i still alive
am i dead yet…
can i die yet, 
whats the point,
when i know i’ve tried?

and i know that i cant end my life, cus i still owe so much
i’m in debt to everyone who loved me, i held onto as a crutch
in the end, though
couldn’t help it
i’m so sorry
all you’ve dealt with…
it’s a mess
i’m such a mess, yet…

can i feel alive
no one by my side
i’m so cold 
i’m still shivering
will i survive

and i knew id be like this forever
why cant i just get it together?
and just be happy? could never
‘least now i’m as light as a feather..

now i’m as light as a feather c:

feathers (prod pupsies)

prod me 
fsafagfgbgr4ewrwggrwwrgrwg





stupid doll ih8 u 
made this blade jus 2 cut u 
now ur cracks r leaking omg 
another way to break u xD 
n i swear tht im  not craz her head was on the staving 
another lifeless doll(Shes not worth saving) 

she steps into her room the whispers come alive
jus leave me alone dont wanna see the light :c 
a doll of massacre she hates and i concur 
a doll of what i want u never have 2 fault 
her words they cut deep u stick ur teeth in ice
she asked me all the things i want to think that i would pay the price 
she asked me all the things i want now loving her is suicide  

instagram

stupid doll **i h8 u** (massacre)

everything by me

lyrics :

mostly gone, just in some other place
and if my heart keeps beating, then time won't wait
you wanna drop your cards to save your face
oh, if i let it go to plan, then who's gonna stay?

all tied up in a knot,
she kept her hair in a bow
but everything breaks into shards,
like it used to
i'll tell you, you mean nothing at all
i'll give you just what you want
i'll fix you up if you let me use you

/

kiss me, like you love me still

need you to show me why this just ain't real

and if it's all bad, push me back in the mood

say you need this, get me back into you

if you go then, don't leave a draft in the door

can you help me, i won't make you hurt anymore

hands tied, break me down, cut me loose

give it to me, let me rip into you

/

taking what you want, i give you what you need
you carve your name inside, i make you gnash your teeth
kept gnawing at the heart, and took a little piece
repeat the cycle until there's no more of me

this can wait, like all good things
cos, all good things just abandon me
when i give you hate, you give me pleads
i take what's mine, then i make you leave

/

kiss me, like you love me still

need you to show me why this just ain't real

and if it's all bad, push me back in the mood

say you need this, get me back into you

if you go then, don't leave a draft in the door

can you help me, i won't make you hurt anymore

hands tied, break me down, cut me loose

give it to me, let me rip into you

Unforgiven

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