music for sitting in a vial of green goop

devi mccallion & katie dey - u don't know me

Refuge

Mystery Emporium - Animal Jam OST

Unbound

7" tri-single vinyl out on Heaven's Lathe in May. Mixed and master by Katie Dey. Vinyl art by marie a / @808gum

Lyrics
I want things to be beautiful
I forgot things could be beautiful
I forgot it was a option
I had given up hope

I want things to be beautiful
I forgot that things were beautiful
I forgot it was a option
I had given up hope
I'm giving up hope
 
That maybe it could change 
That maybe there are options
It could take a different shape
It might not survive the change

But it could survive the change
Will we survive to stay the same?
1000th prison in my eyes
I've seen these lonely deaths be died
I'm no stranger to the sight 

It doesn't even move me.
I'm the type to keep it pushing 
I wouldn't be here if I wasn't 
I'll walk to work past wasted bodies
I hardly even mind

Change is in my hand 
Money changes in my hand 
..'s in my hand 
Money, change is in my hand 
I want things to be beautiful

I Want Things to Be Beautiful

Part of the Naviar Records Haiku-Challenge:
https://www.naviarrecords.com/naviarhaiku595-under-the-twilight-sky/

swallows in autumn-naviarhaiku595

Living by my pragmatism:
Integrated warfare system.
I can carry signals with your finger on my head.
God could never not explain it.
Block him out with radiation.
Mother of our DNA should
Just eat shit instead.

Body out
Nobody nobody nobody
body out
no body no body no body

I can only
get it hard for
dreams I cant remember.
I think I love the things I care about
but I cant afford the price
Couldn't really even tell if your seeing me
But adult life gets so
tired and busy.
No one knows to message me so
I'm scolded by your ghost.

(...)
no body no body no body
body out
nobody nobody nobody
body out
no body no body no body
body out
nobody nobody nobody

Crying in the
Garden terrace.
I cannot play mom for planets.
I'm barely like an older sister,
oh, I-cover up
my head. I
miss our little laughing bubble
shared realities blur out to nothing.
If you saw my failures then
I think you’d understand.

Body out
nobody nobody nobody
body out
(...)

Pragmatism

The 2nd last single leading up to the release of "I'm It!'
Art source Color_LES's Mage & Demon Queen
www.webtoons.com/en/comedy/mage-and-demon-queen/list?title_no=1438

"When I was a kid that was a soccer field, and it's already a recycling center"

I live thru wrong decisions
I built my world around them
Lets play the cards we're given
Let’s break the rules around how it goes
How it goes
If you watch you can kinda still see how it goes

Lets try harder in the future maybe we could do better
Put in a little effort, are we only living if they let us?
Lets break the spell around it, lets spell it out in shining letters
Theres living fountains spouting
Theres resounding laughter when they see us

Let me get inside it I can prove that this is worth the price-uh--
I tried to make it right and all my options s*******l
I tried to speak my mind but it came out so all one-sided
If I only stayed behind there might be things to keep an eye on
Let it get inside me I can prove I'm worth the price-uh-
You're why so serious and acting like it's do or dire
I feel a bit stressed out but then I think that I really like it
I can't stand anything bout my life but then I'm really lying

What I had to in the moment
I did what I had to in the moment
Guess our lives are made up of little moments
You could make the wrong choice on every single one of them

Lets try harder in the future maybe we could do better
Put in a little effort, are we only living if they let us?
Lets break the spell around it, lets spell it out in shining letters
Theres crimson fountains spouting, just resounding laughter when they see it

They're looking at me and I'm looking their way
I know you're hungry, look you're licking your plate
NAZ✓ng nothing so I step off the stage
Not saying nothing kinda crazy these days
They're looking at me like I'm pulling a face
I'm not authentic yea we all make mistakes
We're sending signals like we're playing charades
I'm looking at you and you're looking my way

I guess I’ll let it happen
I think I’d keep my head down
Think I’ll let it happen

They're Looking At Me

(devi) 

i'm ringing like an empty bell 
like i'm about to kill myself 
i'm at your door i ring the bell 
i'd like to do it all myself 

maybe i should do something else 
or i could go in for the kill? 
i'm at your door i ring the bell 
i'd like to do it all myself 

please don't pick up 
pick up 
i know your phone is ringing 
i want to tell you something 
but maybe it'd be better if i didnt 
if i didn't 
if i didn't 
if i didn't 
if i didn't 
if i didn't 

i'm ringing like an empty bell 
like i'm about to kill myself 
i'm at your door i ring the bell 
i'd like to do it all myself 

maybe i should do something else 
maybe i should do something else 
or i could go in for the kill? 
or i could just go for the kill? 
at your door i ring the bell 
i'm at your door i ring the bell 
i'd like to do it all myself 
i'd like to do it all myself 

i know your phone is ringing 

i know your phone is ringing 

(rook) 

you're hanging over me 
you're everything i know 
you're always talking to me 
you won't leave me alone 
i know your name now 
it doesn't help at all 
everyone thinks you're harmless 
just a little weird, that's all 
i can't describe the damage 
that you inflict on me 
it makes everyone nervous 
they think i'm exaggerating 
i can't do anything 
without you screaming at me 
YOU MAKE ME WANNA DIE 
YOU'VE ALREADY KILLED MY AGENCY 

i cannot escape 
because you're part of me 
fatal indecision 
will i ever be free? 
i cannot escape 
because you're part of me 
fatal indecision 
will i ever be free?! 

you make me feel so helpless 
you make me feel so all alone 
you make me feel like i don't deserve to be anything 
no one can ever know... 
no one can ever know 

NO ONE CAN EVER KNOW 
NO ONE CAN EVER KNOW 
no one can ever know 
no one CAN EVER KNOW 

AAAAAAAAAAAA 
OH GOD NO 
PLEASE GOD NO!!!

THANK YOU

HARMLESS

EAT BABIES - the tender surrender

Fountain

Witness

I Can't Do This By Myself I'm Scared - Mom

Girls Rituals - Hole/The Used

destroyer of teh internetz

letting go of what people see as cringe and just embracing who you are is the truest way to live and will keep you going when nothing else can

cottoncandy biohazard
out-of-retirement sparkledog 
"retroslop irl"
everything i like conveniently becomes popular a year or two later
i primarily listen 2 speedcore, happy hardcore, extratone with the occaisonal ambience + nintendocore

freaks welcome FOREVER d(^-^)



music for sitting in a vial of green goop

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