prod. stonedeluxe

oh you treat me like i'm a monster 
a monster an outcast all alone
alone
without you i am lost
i'm lost
oh you treat me like a monster
like a monster
oh you treat me like a monster

M0N$T3R

prod @hatchetsaww
self mixed
art by newdeath on ig

LYRICS:
https://genius.com/Nihilist-rapper-xmr-lyrics

XMR [HATCHET]

I wanna be reborn
I do not adore
What i used to be
Leaving the old me
I’m ready to leave
The sin inside of me
And walk away from everyone
That did wrong to me
I lost myself, but really it’s a good thing
Life was hell, and now I feel more like a king
When I threw away, everything in place
Finally I stand a peace, I have found my way


I cannot decide what you do in life
Tragedy in mind, that you dug inside
Everything inside had to leave behind
Tragety of my persona, suicide

I can’t survive with the burn
Spreading my wings it’s my turn
I no longer see in a blur
Imma leave behind my worst
I was blending with the dirt
Can’t overcome if I’m not put first
I’ve accepted I can’t with
Lost myself it’s a good thing

I dont want you to think I died
But part of me is left behind

lost myself, it's a good thing

Tragedy Of Persona (with Aftced)

(i don't know who made this beat i downloaded it in like 2022)

evvlotto is a bitch
used to cut up on his wrist

imma punch his sister in the face
he gon' let me do it

imma spray his mother with some mace
he gon' let me do it

i live rent free in his head 
tell me why you let me do it

you're lame pureshame

imma fuck your granny 
till she screamin out my name

imma touch her like the tranny 
that you used to cut your wrist for

she might but a lady 
but she look just like a guy

especially after i js nutted 
in her mothefuckin eye

your whole gang disowned you
irrelevance honed you
and now your mad 
i gotta ask do you have a dad

because there is no reason for you
to be this fragile
you stay the same 
in a never ending battle 
against yourself and your ego
i don't mean to sound evil
this is sympathy otto 
you need a tharapist otto
discord drama shouldn't get to you otto

i mean what the fuck are we doin now?

you can't grow if you don't how
why don't you ever learn
stuck in your ways is more then stern
you don't know how
it's sad to see 
modern day tragedy
you don't know how


why is evvlotto still dissing me lol

i only live in the night [prod. tiresss]

sinister santi + poisoned + s8nt + brady santana + pureshame + spooky - top floor (lottamercy)

hi, my lil bytez!! here is the long awaited birthday/year recap song! it's not great bc my voice is still damaged, however i hope this is at least somewhat listenable LMAO. it was meant to come out last night when it was still my birthday but ts refused to export, and it also just wasn't really finished but now it pretty much is, so yeah i hope yall enjoy! <3
i kinda hate this song but whatever.
(prod. GAXILLIC)
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lyrics:
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i woke up and i’m somehow 15 (wait, really?)
131 thousand years alive and yet i still ain’t clean
never be happy and i’ll never be sober
honestly, i’m fucking glad that this year’s almost over
‘cause 14 was one of the worst years of my life (la-la-la-la-la)
(go on, tell em why!)

january, febuary, got assaulted like 20 times
took a hundred thousand showers 
and yet i still feel the handprints in my mind
march 27th, a relationship failed 
and i broke up with a guy
who stalked me for months and months on end
and wouldn’t let me lie down

happy fucking birthday to me
surprised i even let myself turn 15
don’t know if i’ll be here next year
dopamine’s ran out and i’m still not set here
it’s my stupid birthday again
doubt i’ll make it up to 16, and let alone the end

so i became a whore on the internet starting from july
dated 4 people, got used by two, on my body, they relied
consent didn’t matter, didn’t care if i was happy
i was a prostitute and nothing more in their eyes
pretty sure my pics got leaked online
but whatever, i don’t care, man, i guess it’s fine
one of them pretty much threatened to rape me
so i threw up and cried, same shit as the daily
now i’m rolling around down the same old holes
haven’t taken my meds ‘cause they don’t help me cope

happy fucking birthday to me
surprised i even let myself turn 15
don’t know if i’ll be here next year
dopamine’s ran out and i’m still not set here
it’s my stupid birthday again
doubt i’ll make it up to 16, and let alone the end

my stupid birthday.

@astrmani reprod by screen on my chest on yt

playboi carti - let it go remix

lyrics:

yuh, when i see i a opp i let it go 
and ain’t no bitch das made for me, i can’t put love in no hoe
yuh, nigga said he ain’t on shit like i ain’t know 
i let the whole mag dump if you think i wouldn’t blow 

yuh, aye, i bet not catch u at dat show
we saw dat nigga inna street, he ain’t even send da lo 
damn the fam can’t believe it, all dem niggas seen me grow 
i put a tag onnat nigga i ain’t goin toe to toe 

dis a big body truck, inna back counting digits 
slime rollin dope up, wit yo bitch smoking midgets 
innis whip, high speed, how tf we ain’t get tickets 
ion even eat fancy, im wit gang eatin chicken 

yuh, yuh, im so gnarly, who tf gon harm me
yuh yuh, sip bacardi, smoke like bob marley 
yuh yuh, think he saw me, he go charlie charlie 
yuh yuh, red ferrari, we blast up dat party 

yuh, we blast up dat function, draco get to bussin 
yuh, evil niggas frontin, dem boys ain’t on nothin 
yuh, innat club im coming, bitch i brought my gun in 
yuh, 30 mag dumping, got them niggas running x2

let it go [remix]

prod @doublefourlorazepam44 @scarletpainter @si3xr
self mixed
art by @necrxprincess on ig

lyrics:
https://genius.com/Nihilist-rapper-reckless-endangerment-lyrics

RECKLESS ENDANGERMENT [DOUBLEFOUR X SCARLET PAINTER X SI3XR]

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M0N$T3R

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