12.Favorite

Push Button Press

The complete first album with bonus Joy Division cover.

Push/Button/Press -  Push/Button/Press

Waves 8: Cold/Dark/New/Minimal

Here to waste the passing hours
In a haze but separate from myself
To dream of what is still undone
Dream of what is yet to come 
Then close my eyes to what I embrace
How can I find what shines despite 
an emptiness that seems alive?
Here to take the silence downward
In the wake of whats eternally denied
The thoughts that smolder as long as numbers
Thoughts that betray us ever onward
Like the one eyed leading the blind
How can I still deny when I cannot make myself shine?
How can I find the way to control
When each moment decides the pain inside?
Foretold.


Foretold

No light shines from these eyes
To illuminate the tragedies and crimes
It's marks left so I'm told
Not so very long ago
But it's never the same
No fortunes left for those who wait
To taste the bitter fruit of our fate
So why stand so patiently 
To lose your humanity
But it's never the same
No words of solace today
No words to make the real recede 
But that's all I have to give
These tempests never yield
But it's never the same
Tears of sadness for you
With honest eyes I'll look to you
But when you turn away
I feel my heart give way
But it's never the same

Never The Same

The mask that lies behind 
revealing a snide smile
Like the pageantry I discarded before
I awakened a static mind
Scorns thats left and waylaid thoughts 
Now abandoned by design
Then crept back to the holes still torn 
By emotions tempered brides
I never woke to the road ahead their destination's was blind
Forever virtue come to bliss upon our fragile kind

But, wheres the foresight?
It's radiating in your eyes
When all I see is aquamarine

My heart still holds this empty place 
It's hollow from time to time
But never the ruin it's meant to be
Pray come my true undine

Aquamarine

Wasted On Disco

First single from "Le Théâtre" EP, to be released soon on VISAGE MUSIQUE. Buy it here: http://visagemusique.storenvy.com/products/14306829-violence-le-theatre-ep-12

VIOLENCE / L'invention du divertissement

Instincts that can still betray us,
A journey that leads to the sun,
Soulless and bent on destruction,
A struggle between right and wrong.
You take my place in the showdown,
I'll observe with a pitiful eye,
I'd humbly ask for forgiveness,
A request well beyond you and I.
Heart and soul, one will burn.
An abyss that laughs at creation,
A circus complete with all fools,
Foundations that lasted the ages,
Then ripped apart at their roots.
Beyond all this good is the terror,
The grip of a mercenary hand,
When savagery turns all good reason,
There's no turning back, no last stand.
Heart and soul, one will burn.
Existence well what does it matter?
I exist on the best terms I can.
The past is now part of my future,
The present is well out of hand.
Heart and soul, one will burn.

Heart and Soul - Joy Division (RIP 5/18/80)

Falling over barstools gather my thoughts again
Pretending to check my messages will this shit never end
I'm piecing together memories I'm stitching together lies
Like tired reruns like loveless eyes
But have you ever seen the faces of your long lost friends
In places where you know that they don't go?
But their never gone for long because it's always my fault
I just want to forget them again
Erase the last one with a drink that drank me dry
Erase the last one it's the last I'll have before I die
You can take a pain killer but you will never kill the pain
of the memories you carry like weights for all these years
Thought that I'd find shelter I thought that I'd have time
but I guess I'm wrong, time never takes sides.
But have you ever heard the voices of your long lost friends
In place where you know that they don't go
But now it's too far torn and my stories nearly done
let's go so I can forget them again.
Erase the last one with a drink that drank me dry
Erase the last one it's the last I'll have before I die
Erase the last one It's the hardest thing that I can say
Erase the last one I know I'll never change.

Erase

The days wash over silently 
I know the quiet well
It's sound is that of a memory 
Kept hidden from this world
Drained of all our differences 
We stare at each others wall
The din whose haze is suffering 
The disintegration of us all
I want to change it all back
To the way it was before
I found it all so temporal 
I found you all again
The strangest story ever told 
And its end my only friend
If you ask me to relate 
I'll ask you who you are
An answer far too serious 
For a smile such as yours
I want to change it all back 
To the way it was before

Shut It Off

Suffer

In The Fog

Other Life

Dreams...
Digital expressionism
Two mutants
2017

Broken dreams, abstract dreams, lucid dreaming
Blue dreams, acid dreams, human dreams
Dream you my love, aliens dreams, romantic dreams
Astral dreams, rabbit dreams

I am a dreamer musical. i not have a cure, the people will never understand i not have a cure...

Expressionism dreams, eat dreams, sweet dreams,
Astral dreams, rabbit dreams
Sky dreams, metaphysical dreams, chemical dreams
Ocher dream, I dream you
Dreams of peaces
Sirrealistic dreams, war dreams, 
dreams of dreams
Sounds of dreams.

I am a dreamer musical. i not have a cure, the people will never understand i not have a cure...

Digital expressionism

Dreams

I HAVE SLEPT WITH ALL THE GIRLS IN BERLIN – Unreleased Sisters of Mercy 

Shake me down again 
I can wake up in this zoo 
I've been used and abused 
I've been chased and I've been bruised
I can take what I've been through  
I’ve been naked on the news 
I've been debased and disabused 
Just leave me downtown when you're through  

Turn me over 
Turn me in 
I have slept with all the girls in Berlin 

Girls who weep and girls who strip
Girls in bars and girls on tips  
Girls on journeys, girls on trips 
Girls on gurneys, girls on drips 
Girls like you with poison tips 
Girls like you like pistol whips
Girls in overzealous green with a third degree in jealousy 

Turn me over 
Turn me in 
I have slept with all the girls in Berlin 

Girls who smoke and girls on weed
Girls on coke and girls on speed 
Girls who choke and girls that smile 
Girls who swallow in denial 
Girls in crisis, ultra hip
Eyes like Isis, wide as Egypt 
The girl you found with pale blue lips so you can shake me down again 

Turn me over 
Turn me in 
I have slept with all the girls in Berlin

I Have Slept With All The Girls In Berlin (Sisters of Mercy Cover)

I Have Slept With All The Girls In Berlin - The Sisters Of Mercy

Burning skies iron lungs 
Extinctions have begun
Deadlines pass no choices left
Inhaled in every breath
Wildfires rage endlessly
 Diamonds falling into the sea
Silence is deafening 
When no one hears the screams
 
All you hold close
Won’t be for long
Like secret fears and exiles  
Flooding at your door
The stadiums are hospitals
The empty boarded stores
Atrocities come easily
When nothings on the shelves

 Now is the time for goodbyes 
  
The rest of us the best of us 
Made ignorant by force  
Divided by sciences 
Muted from discourse
The maligned hide from reality 
The benign by narrow inquiry
Turning a blind eye
Turning a blind eye

All we’ve learned
Soon will be gone
When waters rise and flow
The fields no longer grow
And no one to remember those
Who brought this upon themselves  
They sold the world for a pittance
Of what she was really worth

Now is the time for goodbyes 

If only one remains, no one digs their grave
If only one remains, no one digs their grave
When only one remains, no one digs their grave
When only one remains, no one digs their grave

Now is the time for goodbyes

5˚C

Warming times and dimming light
A suffocating haze
Fills my breath with an emptiness
One last dirge to sing

Vapors beneath the earth will rise
The fury and the rage
Holds the heavens steals the wind
So let’s end the charade
   
I cannot escape the truth
There is no point of view
On my hands and knees I will crawl
Waiting for the thaw

The blood of nature falls from my hands
The sorrow the waste
Washes away the guilt I bear
The cancer the shame 

Of existence left behind
Blighted soil and poisoned skies
Answers have no comfort at all
Waiting for the thaw

Controverts prevail
Uncertainties for sale 

But, no one will see this through
A curse we laid upon our youth
So, shed a tear for what we have done
Waiting for the thaw

The providence we held
Just aspirations failed

Thaw

Transfiguration

Do what is meant to be done
Then leave it as it is
Open wounds have not closed
Since I remember when
Transfiguration settled
Nothing left to say
Words are meaningless
First casualty of fate

Because it’s over now
Everyone has left
Got here just in time
To see the party end

It’s impossible to know when it changed
No one seemed notice how many remained
Transfiguration settled
What is left say
Call out to emptiness
Call out in vain

My time is short
This stories done
Look deep within a mirror to find what was lost

Spectacle 1

Transfiguration

I can carry the weight for one more night
I can bear the horror one more time
My clothes lay on the bed in preparation
But the water doesn’t clean me anymore
Reflections disassociate, It’s time go again
Grab the keys and head out of the door

Lights fill my eyes, smoke is thick tonight
Faces a blur, movements turn
The moon and the bourbon
Gossip resolves
Five drinks on a napkin
And I am gone

Take a walk with me
See the bricks beneath our feet
It’s not too far to go by now

Night Out

A Dream of Fire

Here what’s left behind
The stillness
And a memory or two
Misfortune’s call
The necessity of will

Change of scene a new day
Don’t shiver, I know what to do
Breath in deep a dream of fire
Then let it go

But take it in slowly
Take it in alive

They put the dream in my arm?
Who would take it that far?
Then never ask if it’s wrong
Or know who they are
They put the dream in my arm?

Here is what we can find
The answers
For a question or two
A chance to start again
When wind is falling soon

But, watch for pins and needles
Watch them every time

They put the dream in my arm?
Who would take it that far?
Then never ask if it’s wrong
Or know who they are
They put the dream in my arm?

Dream of Fire

BUY ME

Dream Of Fire

Oxytocin

Clever disguise
Fear a tempests stay alive
Empty hands melt rage like ice
Danger arrives
Passions frigid wells run dry, 
lachrymal burn stinging eyes
Nowhere to hide
Takes its toll then takes its time
A void where reflections reflections reveal their eyes
Cry in the rain
Cry Carol Anne
End it with a wave of a hand
It's over then 
Cry in the rain
Cry Carol Anne
Let the water clean your face


Sloven and tired
Weight upon the shoulders bind
Stones roll down back behind
Sympathy denied
Look to find how it began
Aligning stars return again
Cry in the rain
Cry Carol Anne
End it with whisper of 
forgotten words 
Cry in the rain
Cry Carol Anne
Another soul can never define 
The loneliness to 
Cry in the rain
Cry Carol Anne
Let the water clean your face

Carol Anne

Push/Button/Press performing live in studio on 88.5FM WMNF over the radio on 10/2/2019

Transfiguration (Live on WMNF)

Transfiguration (Live on WMNF 88.5FM)

Music & lyrics by Disorientations
Recorded in Aartselaar by Xavier De Clercq
Mixed by Xavier De Clercq at Poolside Studio, Antwerp.
Mastered by Gert Van Hoof at Cochlea Mastering.
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