untitled (im an alien)

K

this time im gonna do it 
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it 
slit my wrist drop on the floor

and i dont understand 
how youd move on so fast
i fucked up real bad
and now youre gone and now im sad
and all the times we had
are gone and in the trash
i wish we couldve last
but now your with another man

this time im gonna do it 
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it 
slit my wrist drop on the floor

this time i'm gonna do it.

https://soundcloud.com/1heelflip

staying up all night in my room 
i don’t get out much because i don’t want to
everyone fucking sucks except you 
i don’t wanna live unless you want me to 
but do you care about me like i care about you?
i’d let you watch me bleed if you asked me to 
all i could ever want is to talk to you
but i’m in the techclub hoping i see you soon 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 

you’re all that i want and you’re all that i need
when i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
guess i’m just destined to hurt and see shit through  
i’m in the tech club thinking of you 
destined to hurt
destined to bleed 
destined to break is my destiny 
i’m breaking down and falling at the seam
whether i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
i feel i’m too far gone to see my hopes and dreams 
i wanna fucking scream 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 
and i’m really hurt 
you’re hurting me
yeah you’re in my head 
yeah you’re hurting me

bleeding out in front of you (ft. heelflip)

ready/problems

My song for the Domestic Terrorism tape

Nobody likes you
Cause you don't know how to write good songs
And nobody wants to
Be friends with
Someone who is always wrong

Nobodies laughing
Except at you, when you turn your back
And the time is passing
It's not ok to cut yourself some slack

I think I'm out of time
Suicide by wasted time

I never learnt how to sing
The reality still stings
Oh God, I've fallen back into sin
Please free me from these things

I haven't learnt anything
I'm stuck just as I've been
Maybe my problems aren't that big
You're still a fucking prick

I don't care about compliments
Cause they never feel genuine
The depth is always paper thin
And nothing ever breaks the skin

So give up, maybe try again
Say something that'll stick in my head
I don't really have anyone
That I'd consider as a friend

Embarrassing myself

Zoning Out Ruined My Life

check out my music video for i dont care at all (somewhere) on yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOXRGDBfjUM&ab_channel=adew

3 more videos and spotify album with my soundcloud tracks in progress

Shut My Mouth

Thanks to mgchi for hopping on this with me
https://soundcloud.com/mgchi-722801972

For The Hell Of It (Anhero Cover) w/Mgchi

Metamorphosis is an unflinching chronicle of transformation — the shedding of an old self, the breaking of chains, and the raw rebirth that follows. It’s an album forged in the tension between ruin and renewal, capturing the violent beauty of change through soaring anthems, haunting ballads, and unrelenting riffs.

Every track is a step in the evolution — from the first tear in the skin of the past to the breath of new air in a body finally made its own. The lyrics cut deep, tracing scars as maps of survival, while the music swells with both the weight of what was lost and the urgency of what’s to come.

The sound is visceral and atmospheric, blending grit with vulnerability — rust and ash giving way to light and heat. It is the sound of old worlds collapsing underfoot, of mirrors shattering, of truths finally worn without disguise.

This is not just an album about change. It is the soundtrack of becoming — the death of the past, the rebirth of the heart, and the fearless step into an unknown self.

Metamorphosis isn’t about who you were.
It’s about who you fight to become.

Invisible

im a fucking joke
im lonely, sinking
i just dont know it
and when i close my eyes
i only dream of dying

i just wanna put myself to sleep
i just wanna put myself to sleep
sick of staring at these fucking screens 
i just wanna fucking scream

im a fucking joke
im just slowly sinking
and i cant float, it's
closing my throat up
i dream to die
yet im too scared, im terrified

i just wanna put myself to sleep
i just wanna put myself to sleep
sick of staring at these fucking screens 
i just wanna scream
i just wanna scream
i just wanna scream
i just wanna die

but i know (i know)
it'll come eventually

Put Myself To Sleep

Remains
Im tired of life
Im tired of my wife
I know your lies
I have a suprise

You’re cheating on your love
Is he what you think of
I want him dead
Im going to blow his head

Oh I know baby what your doing to me
Do you think I’m blind to not see 
Im tired of you and your stupid you
Breaking your skulls will bring me so much joy

My dear, my heart
Im gonna take you apart
I walk into your room
I’ll take you both to your doom

I grab my gun
I thought I was your one
I blow his face
He wanted to see the grace

I blow out your it brains
I chop up your remains
That’s what you get
For making me upset

I bury your corpse
Im sorry it took this course
The next day
I’ll leave this fucking place

Remains

ratseatingmyinsides xp
amateur crappy cover musician

ready/problems

ipukeblood!