this is........ so. fucking.... good......

this is so me when I make out with a girl for the first time

man I just spent ages searching for this, remember it from the lockdown 2020 nostalgic almost

This song start it all 4 me & no joke changed my life

my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

the vocals are mixed a bit weird sorry

emo girl she slits her wrists
says its my fault 
i dont give a shit

she ran away
from therapists
she wont come home
her parents pissed

when im around i'll make her frown
i'll lift her up and break her down
i'll tell her lies straight to her eyes
i'll watch the soul inside her die

emo girl

this is the worst thing ive ever made lol

lyrics:
It's time to jump up in the air
Jump up, don't be scared
Jump up and your cares will soar away
And if the dark clouds start to swirl
Don't fear, don't shed a tear 'cause
I'll be your 1-UP girl
So let's all jump up super high!
High up in the sky!
There's no power-up like dancing
You know that you're my Super Star
No one else can take me this far
I'm flipping the Switch
Get ready for this
Oh, let's do the Odyssey

1-up girl

i am an icon with pollution in my eyes
i am subjected to experimental life
my head is filled with all the things you advertise
the common filth, the lie, the mental hell online

the world is easier to give up all the time
no point in hedonism if you are deprived
live on in agony or go ahead and die
oh, happy apathy, i'm so desensitized

mental hell online (common filth)

junk

lyrics:

(merry christmas motherfuckers!!
yes!!! go on [REDACTED], send it bruv!! oh ma fuckin god
how did you not fall over?
what do you say to that?)

a private visit to the murder scene
is an essential step of the path of getting clean
inside head my im rolling over like what it means
to take a coping mechanism strawberry flavour vaccine

its giving me visions
turn off the television
living with conditions
mental diseased terrorism

whats the point of winning if youre not sinning
whats the point of winning if youre not sinning
feels so damn good hurting myself
but i guess its my fault turning down your help

you saw the worst of me wish you missed it 
i just wanna be another statistic
wish i hadn't come on so strong being fucking mystic
well thats a side effect of me being autistic

stinks of shit 
still choke on it  
stood on my feet
thats what i get
standing on yours

dont fucking touch me bitch im going insane
im gonna put a fucking bullet inside my fucking brain
cos ive got no love and ive
got no friends
and im out of control because of whats between my legs

she always says the wrong thing
and it leaves her in a flower world of her dreams
dont trust the boys with the spider eyes
cos it turns out all they seem to know is lies

Strawberry Flavour Cocaine

lyrics:
i got a text from you
it said meet me where the spirits do
at the graveyard with you

cause she likes goblins and witches couldnt stop us
from brewing potions of love 

but the creatures of the night unravel mystery
necromance her back to life so shes here with me

graveyard

Lyrics:

I feel like such a loser
I feel like such a fag
I feel like such a dipshit
Oh, I feel like such a drag

And I don't let you see it
Not in the way that counts
'Cause I know that you see it
You see my dirty lying mouth

I AM A LIAR WHO HIDES BEHIND A MASK
AND ALL OF YOU CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH
I AM A CHARACTER WHO DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ACT
SO THE ONLY THING LEFT FOR YOU IS TO SEE THE TRUTH

Girldog - Behind A Mask

Last Stand - Single

IM ON THE BRINK OF SUICIDE - Belowground reupload

i forgot to post this, dont use soundcloud that much anymore...

benice2me (bladee)

Chainsaw Suicide - based on a true story.

MY MIND IS FUCKED
CANT TELL WHATS REAL
VOICES IN MY HEAD
TELL ME I SHOULD BE DEAD
dont wanna take my meds
so i go to the shed
grab some wood and a chain saw
an ingenious way im gonna go today

Im sick of glowie fucking spies
dont wanna hear their fucking lies
Im done trying to hide
its time for a chainsaw suicide
A chainsaw suicide
A CHAINSAW SUICIDE

i dont care about them
but theyre outside my house
i see them everywhere
and i cant take it no more
so i bulid a contraption to take the pain away
ill make all them glowies rue the fucking day
rev up the chainsaw slide my head in
and cover my apartment in crimson and skin

Im sick of glowie fucking spies
dont wanna hear their fucking lies
Im done trying to hide
its time for a chainsaw suicide
A chainsaw suicide
A CHAINSAW SUICIDE

chainsaw suicide
chainsaw suicide
chainsaw suicide

Semi-Aquatic and Armed

Chainsaw Suicide - Penguinband

loser (shooter cover)

Decided to cover this masterpiece by the one and only Preripped (and even then it might be a cover but i can't find the original to save my life)
i figured out it's B, D#, G#, E at 145 BPM for those curious.

lyrics: 
You have to wake up early
Your tax dollars support me
Life's good when youre a neet
Dumb wagies can't compete

I'm never getting a job
Youre a slave and I'm not
Stay mad and keep on working
I'm at home doing nothing
---
Throwing my piss jugs out my window
Fucks given: zero
Cuddling my dakimura pillow
Keep on waging while I stay at home-
---
You have to wake up early
Your tax dollars support me
Life's good when youre a neet
Dumb wagies can't compete

You can rage but I don't care
I'm feeling smug cause life's not fair
but dont get tired trying to complain
Tomorrow is another day of work again
---
Throwing my piss jugs out my window
Fucks given: zero
Cuddling my dakimura pillow
Keep on waging while I stay at home
--
Living rent free inside your head	
Living rent free in my parents basement
--
Throwing my piss jugs out my window
Fucks given: zero
Cuddling my dakimura pillow
Keep on waging while I stay at home

S.leeping in M.ondays U.nemployed and G.loating (Preripped Cover)

Vomit Covered Denim Jeans, by Elijah Kealy.

this album was created in only a few weeks, with each song being made in one day. I set out to record, produce and master each song in less than 24 hours, some only being a 2-3 hour long session. I wanted to make a project that was more creatively fulfilling for me and this definitely did that and helped me to not be as much of a perfectionist and to just have fun.

All tracks were written, recorded, produced, and mixed by Elijah Kealy.
All instruments and vocals by Elijah Kealy.

Standin' Around

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LUVVV Dem GUN Sounds !!

Can’t get out of this mess
Always stuck in my head 
Never leaving my room
Fuck the world fuck you too

Just seems like common sense 
In the world that we’re in
I’m never going to try
I’m staying NEET til I die

Always feeling so blue 
What am I supposed to do?
Life is too hard for me
I’m so goddamn lazy

Just seems to be correct 
Modern life is worthless 
Why would I ever try?
I’m staying NEET til I die

LUVVV Dem GUN Sounds !!

QNASTY!

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