Danm man, this is actually really fucking good.

Written by Daniel Bernas, CMTEN, and flatroom !!
Additional production done by ssoh

Blood sugar (feat. CMTEN)

5 of 9
~
there's a light that I saw
somewhere in the sky
that was before I lost it
maybe it's just you
if I've wanted to die
so many times
why didn't it happen
and burn out like a star

can you see it?
I know you're scared
can you reach it?
I know you're scared
can you see it?
I know you're scared
can you reach it?
I know you're scared

think I saw it too, saw your eyes split open
at the sight of something, maybe it's just you
wanted something to save us, I lost in my own place
do you think I've always been this way, wonder if I'll start to sink

Can you see it?

3 of 9
@nishitht
~
[the nishith section]
i pinched myself, it's all too real
shattered the silence, no one noticed
echoing screams across the fields
was paralyzed and hyperfocused

accidental masochist
i’m not much of a strategist
i stood in place while watching you bleed
and after it had been evinced
ive sat and watched for hours since
and i don’t really cry but i might succeed this time

this light
did it paralyze you straight to your core?
have you ever felt that mesmerized before? (i’ll sit here and we can rot)
cause i don’t really cry but i might have to this time
so good night
it’ll go away if i just go to bed
and if it doesn’t they can take me instead (you didn’t deserve what you got)
and i don’t really cry but i might have to this time


[the quedronol section]
your body's implanted in the grass
and your shape is still engraved into my irises
I haven't been since you left, watered down all the lakes
and all that's left now when I look is your face

(you said that you wont go) the air's been
(youre the only one who knows) colder since you left
(I told you i miss you) I found you
(you toyed with me until i broke) in the snow, you said
(I cant be the person) don't want to
(id die a thousand times before) lose your tracks again
(but i always kill what i want most) but I won't run after you, not then

your body's implanted in the grass
I shot you in my sleep, you didn't notice it
I haven't opened my eyes
I watched you burn alongside
I thought i fell, guess it was a trick of the light

you could've fell into my open arms
you know I never wanted this to happen
I know ill pass it
and watch you fall, with open eyes, another time, with open eyes, another time

the air's been cold enough to breathe
I can't believe you're next to me
you always will be more than me

Fawn (with nishith)

8 of 9
~
the pasture's only down the block
it was so many miles away
used to be stuck at the fencepost
we couldn't get our hands away
I think that I saw something else
I couldn't get my eyes off it
but I think it's over for us now
cause soon I will be nothing more

it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me
it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me

I lost something, and I'm never finding it
am I supposed to move on? out of the woods that were beside me
and I don't think I could see you under the clouds that started moving
and the grass got all brown, I know that you'd just think it's stupid
and I don't think I could feel you, watching snow turn into water
all that I could do was watch, or maybe look for what I lost
but I know that was always useless, or maybe it was punishment
cause I never even heard you, until I fell into the lawn

I thought you were real for my entire life
but the things that I love are the ones I can't spite
cause they're gone before I know that I just can't live without them
is it too late to ask if I loved you at all?
ever since I was there I can't see anything
and you ask where I am, but all I hear is the scream
or the piece of my life that's stuck between my teeth
after 16 whole years, I finally can't breathe

sudbury (the pasture song)

9 of 9
~
is there something you've been trying to tell me?
still haven't gotten away from the feeling
it sticks in a memory like the flies that buzz around
the patio when you just want to go
I'm sorry that I never heard you
just 1 more second, then I'm gone
it's not like the pasture would be staying here forever
or even for another thousand years
I just thought that maybe I would

I'd rather just keep quiet, you always have something to tell me
even after I left, the truth is I just wanted you to listen to me
I know you couldn't, and it's always been my fault
I think we might live forever, but all I want is just to lie here
I can't get lost in the pasture, the only place where I lose track
is inside my own head, don't know if I can trust myself
did no one ever tell you not to rip grass from the soil?
it never finds its way back, even once you blanket it back down
I swear it never feels the same, I was there but now I'm not
are you just trying to play a game? this is the closest that we'll get
aren't these trees just tired? they've already been blowing
a hundred years at this point, surrounded by them

Forever and ever

7 of 9
@wonder-beats-791643228
~
my reflection is nothing like I thought
maybe if I hit hard enough, it might just stop
always forget until it's 6pm
I try to help but I can't stop being a wreck
you opened up my door, but I just put it shut
I just want to go with you along my favorite walk
you paved it all right after I left
maybe some of me got crushed by all the cement

leave if you want, it's not my problem
I love you but I don't think I care anymore
if you keep the lights on, nothing will change
I'm a burden on you, just keep your eyes off of me
stay for a month, maybe something will stop
for the rest of the summer I'll just keep my fingers crossed
you seep in my tongue, you're watching me bleed
you'd never have the guts to make a promise to me

I thought you were real
guess I was looking for the wrong clues, and I lost you
I'd take out a knife
if I just knew how to find one
I can't get up
you know what I would do
pull the splinter right out
then I'll feel brand new
finally turn the light out
you can't pick me from a crowd
you'd just say I wouldn't notice
hold a light up to my face
thank god you don't mistake me for yourself

Cross my fingers (with Wonder XO)

2 of 9
@wowcrimson
~
I can look in the mirror, the first time that I've done it
but my reflection never wants to look back once I am
see you again this winter, don't know if I'll be better
don't want to close this window, I'm getting scared, it's getting cold

I stayed outside the garage, don't think I'll let go this time
the quietness is the only thing I can seem to find
it's never been there before, I swear it came yesterday
if I really loved this place, I wouldn't feel it getting cold

Walden (with CRIM$ON)

acapellas used:
cops and robbers
locals (girls like us)
johnny johnny johnny
shoot to kill, kill your darlings
old money bitch
uncanny long arms

bonus:
count of three (you can eat shit!)
girls & boys
old money bitch banjo
seventyseven dog years guitar

Cross my fingers (with Wonder XO)

quedronol

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