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live in a fairy tale,
find an archetype, i will do it right
to the world i left behind
i'll be jester right, i'll be just alright

live in a fairy tale,
still i snap back just to pay respect back
to the world i left behind
i'll be just alright, i want your surrender

this could be the last you hear from me,
till i fail, till i fail, till I fail
i'll be okay
can you count on that?
as i'm trying to breathe in the cold
i'll be okay
can you count that?

i was falling back on the match
i was falling back undetached

wallow in your room, seeking someone
i know you so
so well, well

live in a fairy tale,
find an archetype, i will do it right
to the world i left behind
i'll be jester right, i'll be just alright

live in a fairy tale,
still i step back just to pay respect back
to the world i left behind
i'll be just alright, i want your surrender

jesterr

ill find them someday

6 of 9
~
the train, I made it just for you
one year later, I still don't think that I can do it

turn the light out in the hall
it's been 3 weeks but I'm not sure if I can catch my breath
I think that it's been long enough
only waiting for the woods to stab me in the chest
but how do I walk thru the world without shame
but how do I walk thru the world without shame

I think I hate you
you don't expect me to let go of you
you wanted too much
guess I never wanted anything from you

if you really loved me, you'd want me dead
you wouldn't miss me, you thought I said
I love you too much to do all that
but I'm not the person you think I am
don't think I want a sudden death
but i'd never show you who I am
if you really knew me, put it to rest
if you really knew me, you'd want me dead

Sudden death

1 of 9
~
I can look in the mirror, the first time that I've done it
but my reflection never wants to look back once I am
see you again this winter, don't know if I'll be better
don't want to close this window, I'm getting scared, it's getting cold

I stayed outside the garage, don't think I'll let go this time
the quietness is the only thing I can seem to find
it's never been there before, I swear it came yesterday
if I really loved this place, I wouldn't feel it getting cold

astigmatic

4 of 9
~
don't do this again
and I won't run away
can I be a friend?
since you want me to stay
go down to the pasture
and get what you need
could you go any faster?
you're all I can see
all I want is you
don't know about it anymore
maybe it's just the shadow of being with you that I really want
but all I know is you
all I know is you
all I know is you
all I know is you

a walk to the pasture is my only friend
and I know I can never be with you again
a walk to the pasture is my only friend
and I know I can never be with you again


where is the end? where is the line?
I get it now I think I do
if it's just a dream then I'm a contortion
I get it now I think I do
where is the end? where is the line?
I get it now I think I do
if it's just a dream then I'm a contortion
I get it now I think I do

gggggrrrraaaaaahhhhhhh

Contortion dream (album version)

5 of 9
~
there's a light that I saw
somewhere in the sky
that was before I lost it
maybe it's just you
if I've wanted to die
so many times
why didn't it happen
and burn out like a star

can you see it?
I know you're scared
can you reach it?
I know you're scared
can you see it?
I know you're scared
can you reach it?
I know you're scared

think I saw it too, saw your eyes split open
at the sight of something, maybe it's just you
wanted something to save us, I lost in my own place
do you think I've always been this way, wonder if I'll start to sink

Can you see it?

3 of 9
@nishitht
~
[the nishith section]
i pinched myself, it's all too real
shattered the silence, no one noticed
echoing screams across the fields
was paralyzed and hyperfocused

accidental masochist
i’m not much of a strategist
i stood in place while watching you bleed
and after it had been evinced
ive sat and watched for hours since
and i don’t really cry but i might succeed this time

this light
did it paralyze you straight to your core?
have you ever felt that mesmerized before? (i’ll sit here and we can rot)
cause i don’t really cry but i might have to this time
so good night
it’ll go away if i just go to bed
and if it doesn’t they can take me instead (you didn’t deserve what you got)
and i don’t really cry but i might have to this time


[the quedronol section]
your body's implanted in the grass
and your shape is still engraved into my irises
I haven't been since you left, watered down all the lakes
and all that's left now when I look is your face

(you said that you wont go) the air's been
(youre the only one who knows) colder since you left
(I told you i miss you) I found you
(you toyed with me until i broke) in the snow, you said
(I cant be the person) don't want to
(id die a thousand times before) lose your tracks again
(but i always kill what i want most) but I won't run after you, not then

your body's implanted in the grass
I shot you in my sleep, you didn't notice it
I haven't opened my eyes
I watched you burn alongside
I thought i fell, guess it was a trick of the light

you could've fell into my open arms
you know I never wanted this to happen
I know ill pass it
and watch you fall, with open eyes, another time, with open eyes, another time

the air's been cold enough to breathe
I can't believe you're next to me
you always will be more than me

Fawn (with nishith)

8 of 9
~
the pasture's only down the block
it was so many miles away
used to be stuck at the fencepost
we couldn't get our hands away
I think that I saw something else
I couldn't get my eyes off it
but I think it's over for us now
cause soon I will be nothing more

it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me
it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me

I lost something, and I'm never finding it
am I supposed to move on? out of the woods that were beside me
and I don't think I could see you under the clouds that started moving
and the grass got all brown, I know that you'd just think it's stupid
and I don't think I could feel you, watching snow turn into water
all that I could do was watch, or maybe look for what I lost
but I know that was always useless, or maybe it was punishment
cause I never even heard you, until I fell into the lawn

I thought you were real for my entire life
but the things that I love are the ones I can't spite
cause they're gone before I know that I just can't live without them
is it too late to ask if I loved you at all?
ever since I was there I can't see anything
and you ask where I am, but all I hear is the scream
or the piece of my life that's stuck between my teeth
after 16 whole years, I finally can't breathe

sudbury (the pasture song)

7 of 9
@wonder-beats-791643228
~
my reflection is nothing like I thought
maybe if I hit hard enough, it might just stop
always forget until it's 6pm
I try to help but I can't stop being a wreck
you opened up my door, but I just put it shut
I just want to go with you along my favorite walk
you paved it all right after I left
maybe some of me got crushed by all the cement

leave if you want, it's not my problem
I love you but I don't think I care anymore
if you keep the lights on, nothing will change
I'm a burden on you, just keep your eyes off of me
stay for a month, maybe something will stop
for the rest of the summer I'll just keep my fingers crossed
you seep in my tongue, you're watching me bleed
you'd never have the guts to make a promise to me

I thought you were real
guess I was looking for the wrong clues, and I lost you
I'd take out a knife
if I just knew how to find one
I can't get up
you know what I would do
pull the splinter right out
then I'll feel brand new
finally turn the light out
you can't pick me from a crowd
you'd just say I wouldn't notice
hold a light up to my face
thank god you don't mistake me for yourself

Cross my fingers (with Wonder XO)

2 of 9
@wowcrimson
~
I can look in the mirror, the first time that I've done it
but my reflection never wants to look back once I am
see you again this winter, don't know if I'll be better
don't want to close this window, I'm getting scared, it's getting cold

I stayed outside the garage, don't think I'll let go this time
the quietness is the only thing I can seem to find
it's never been there before, I swear it came yesterday
if I really loved this place, I wouldn't feel it getting cold

sudbury (the pasture song)

quedronol

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