listdn to this NOW

prod me

no i wont take this shit no more
don't u know i hate the way dat this go
thought i could run until my legs wouldn't hurt no more, no more
and if i just take one wrong step, ima end up gone
gave u one shot, was that not enough?
guess you're tryna test your luck
i've been on my lonesome lately, goin fuckin nuts
wish that u would change, but u don't got the guts

act like this shit don't even matter
made it feel like my whole world shattered
seems like you don't know what's imperative to us
and i just don't know where to take this with ya

ain't ask for help, but i'll take it regardless
this an uphill battle, ain't making no progress
ain't ask for help, but i'll take it regardless
this an uphill battle, ain't making no progress

Spotify

uphill battle

01.22.24
with @sennaidesu
@dishonors
i cant tell the real from the fake
i only got one shot and i better make it great
they say ray u such a dumbass but my bands dont say the same
say the same
taking lexapro until i cannot feel a thing 
f-feel a thing
and im lying for fun
(again) 
i dont need your love cuz ik that friends will be friends
and i still come back to you
(again)
i cant tell the real from the fake 
real from the fake
r-real from the fake x2

@sennaidesu
i can tell the real from the fake
different money comin different ways
holdin shit down doin what i say
when the times right know i'll do whatever u want
money in the safe, i ain't never been one to flaunt
i aint playing games, never catch me lying for fun
ain't a secret, i already know what u done
but u still cant see the problem
i can tell the real from the fake 
real from the fake
r-real from the fake x2
i can tell the real from the fake

real from the fake @sennai @10soul

back to my roots
@rhekdens for the pic 
stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low
put it all upon you
bby u my home
js leave me alone
leave me alone x2

close ur eyes and i'll try to make it better
go outside
find a way to get hurt
dre told me that sometimes im introverted
just kno some ppl dont deserve ur full attention
lately i've been having fun starving myself
but ik it'll be game over when my hands start to swell
and when my wrist pop pop
(ik that i did well)
i wish my father asked me if im ever doing well

stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low
i remember when u thought i was a joke
smoking apple sunrise till i start to choke
ik the ones that talking hate themselves the most
(stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low)

stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low
put it all upon you
bby u my home
js leave me alone
leave me alone

(js leave me-me)

stoop so low @01ashes

lryics later hi gujys song war people cover art by me prod me flip you

scrambl

i dont care abt the side effects
are you stupid why you asking if im leaving yet
you dont know how fukcing bad it gets
i know we aint talk for ages sorry i forget

ho i know you you just duck when youre called out
u know u far away u talking on my phone now
he know what he done he aint even try n clear his name
they try to say i changed

did i do enough
rlly thought i healed but i still want me gone
i could never pick that up
i cant pick it up
i dont want your drugs

i got headaches and it gets too much
im not trying to earn back your trust
i cant name a time i dont know when to start
you can sit back while i tear myself apart

daikyu

i think thats just how it goes
everyone's a poser
i dont know where but im going there
i think that im awful
i think i got set up
but would you come back if you had the choice

no i dont have the choice
i been stuck in one place for a year now
there's nothing more to talk about
dont know why im fucking up so i just keep on fucking round

you could take my life
i'd kill myself to be something
i know that shit will never get better
handful of pills tell me "take it or suffer"
cant rely on shit like that i can't be altered

i see people looking for a way to break the clock and wind it back to change the things that they regret and fix the problems that they left but i could never tell
if that's something that i would do
if its something that i could do

scrambl

and theres nothing i could do
tell me why would i want to
dont go saying "zy you aint call back"
what you said that aint nothing you can take back

dunno why they hate us when they taking what we built up
tried to talk to you i swear that shit was rlly torture
get off their dicks you aint nothing to them
mfs rlly would just kill u in a second w no second thoughts

quite a handful + daikyu

not worth listening.
was in my desk since february.


Based on a true story

your skin        february 2025 unreleased

18, russia 
cord @questionnq
forestkeeper



he him