A track I made to express my feelings in a time of uncertainty.

Lyrics:

And I can feel this pain
Inside of my chest
And I won't pain my face in regrets
Unless I choose to hold this close
As you go to progress
Because I know that you left
If only I would've been the righteousness
That could reside inside the right of you chest
And yeah I know just how it feels
To be so young and get the chills
Butterflies are setting still
Within our lives
But still I feel you grab me
As the gravity of things has got my standing still
And no I've never been a Saint
But I can't stand to be your enemy
Remember me for centuries
Maybe it's the summer leaves
Or the spring
That you left me in
I never understood your words
But always understood your cadences
And the beautiful way
You'd wrap around my vertebrae
And what that represents
On the nights I lay awake
And so I'm praying for a wish
If I don't make it out of this
Then maybe I shouldn't push it
But nothing will ever cushion this blow
And I can't fucking stomach it

So as I reminisce
I know I'm not a saint
But if you've ever been through this
Just know it's not too late
Combat that fate with all the faith
You put into the hate you feel
Cuz all these seasons represent
The many ways I heal

So as I reminisce
I know I'm not a saint
But if you've ever been through this
Just know it's not too late
Combat that fate with all the faith
You put into the hate you feel
Cuz all these seasons represent
The many ways I heal

And loving you was solace
A couple broken promises I hid behind my pockets
But if you watch this
And you see as I advance
And you see what I have planned
Then you'll understand
That I can grow to be different
But there's still growth in our distance
So maybe I should just listen
And let you live a life of dismission
But still I die inside this collision
Living a life without you
Isn't something I could've predicted
Wishing that I didn't
Goddamn it's hard to admit it
Maybe I'm just tripping
But if you listen then switch it
To all things that've been through
And everything that I've seen
Yeah I've seen that shit without you
And all the things I wanted to take you to see
It fucking strangles me
So go ahead and dangle me
From that open field
And I can see the daffodils
I'm letting Jesus grab the wheel
Know that I can feel you still
So when I grab my Sword and Shield
Know it's you that's in my will
The many seasons that you need to heal

So as we reminisce
I know I'm not a saint
But if you've ever been through this
Just know it's not too late
Combat that fate with all the faith
You put into the hate you feel
Cuz all these seasons represent
The many ways I heal

So as we reminisce
I know I'm not a saint
But if you've ever been through this
Just know it's not too late
Combat that fate with all the faith
You put into the hate you feel
Cuz all these seasons represent
The many ways I heal

Saint

These songs represent layers of myself. 
Enjoy :)

House

My World

Waterfall

Things Ain't The Same

Where Do I Start

Sad Lofi Type Beat - Looking Through The Window

Hurt

"NOX ET Classical C." - January 11, 2001
A group of records designed to harmonize with the wounds of a fresh broken heart. Written and recorded through the last months of 2020, "NOX ET Classical C." adds new classics such as " LOVE ME LIKE YOU THINK YOU DO" and "FEAR NONE NXGGA !" to the Xanubis Discography.

Waterfall

RAMZIE