thanks jacko for the beat and verse @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

nope your too late i died w/ jacko

suburban daredevil is out soon guys

party

dont you wanna see me soon

el sonata (an interlude for the parasitic)

ware me out like old clothes

whore

i dont think we'll ever find him

@aeter
scaredy cat november or december :D
no matter what ;)

ringtone w/ aeter

from october 3rd prod @six-days-after-christmas

im just trying to enjoy this shitty life of mine
i cant sit and cry its all just wasted time
i could spend it working hard but i just cant write
the way i treated u was really fucking wrong this time
and when u told me its forever i was nodding out
but the way youre always watchin its not hard to doubt
i would spot you at a show even if 10 meters down
i dont think id say a word cuz it would just make you frown

staring at the corner of my room
the lamps not real but still feels real to you
just break me down until i split in two
its all for you

merry christmas you stupid bitch

why can't we live forever instead prod @six-days-after-christmas

stop reminding me im human

with @wheresangie
I can’t get these words right
Maybe I should listen one more time

They’re all gonna hear this one
And you can’t take it back once it’s online

And I’m so scared of what they’ll say when they hear me
I just wish that I could delete my whole being

It’s so hot here but in hell it always rains, there’s always pain
And everybodys faces blend together they all look the same
And they all dance and speak in tongues the only game they plays charades
I wanna be a person someday but I’d probably break my brain

I don’t wanna die in USA
I’m bipolar so I feel insane
I know you hate it when I start to change
Maybe we just shouldn’t talk today

Everybody wants company
I’d feel better at the blood parade
They’re all crying and its not okay
I'd feel better at the blood parade

We've all wasted time, it'll take me a while
And you cant change my mind, I'll avert my eyes

I would give my life to go back a day
I think I'll be fine at the black parade

Wish I could read your mind no longer afraid of what I'd find
And I wont break the ice before I drown in fear of what I left behind
Misunderstandings turn into mistakes

Memories I try to erase
Cant help but hate who I am today
But I don't wanna die before I see ur face

I don’t wanna die in USA
I’m bipolar so I feel insane
I know you hate it when I start to change
Maybe we just shouldn’t talk today

Everybody wants company
I’d feel better at the blood parade
They’re all crying and its not okay
I'd feel better at the blood parade

helen - be nice with stacy

Oh wait I thought I caught her, and now I’ve really gotta
In love with Mary wanna
Tell her the same thing

Oh wait I thought I caught her, and now I’ve really gotta
In love with Mary wanna
Tell her the same damn thing

I’m just so scared of
Of what could come up
She’s looking for me and she’s seeing things I never did

helen - god i love mary

My medication got me crying out
Its just another girl I think about

I wanna find a place to situate
But I can’t even get my story straight

I guess hold your horses
Of course move in forces
Take those pills and forget
That’s what your doctor meant

helen - medicate my self

I can’t feel my head, its somewhere inbetween her legs
Not in the basement was making music in the shed
My brains on the walls of my room and my bed
Helen

But maybe I’m just psycho
It’s getting worser I know
I need you for survival
I hope your suicidal
Because I’ll kill you soon

helen - im such drunkkkk fuckkkkk -_-

Butterflies were so irate just to see their beauty is what you take
Even though my heart was fake I tried to love you everyday
I should be dying and I should keep trying until I’m no longer aware
I’ll keep on calling and crying my eyes out until I can see that your there

helen - um i guess im helen

I can’t stare in his reflection
I know he’s doing bad I know he’s doing the wrong things 
Hit her up I’m sorry Helen
Because I know what you think, but you don’t know that it’s not me
I’m too stuck in my mind
And I've got tabs in my spine

helen - im not the man in the mirror

I guess its put up or shut up
Your on your own two feet
I finally found myself a girl that’s really just like me

Your just so pretty like a diary
It really feels like its	 all a setup
It’s that she’s really just so sweet to me
It really feels like its a setup

helen - yep now shes after me

prod ruth
Praying that I make it out alive
Heather’s running circles in my mind
You just wanna see me die and that’s not alright
I just wanna scrape your insides with my outsides
Heather I can make you cry, i know what you like

Have a rose, its for you
Was chasing her down somewhere
You find yourself so hopeless since your lost and your so scared
A hero
I found you
Am I familiar baby?
I’m so stoned in my mind I’m only just half crazy

Heather’s running circles in my mind
You just wanna see me die and that’s not alright
I just wanna scrape your insides with my outsides
Heather I can make you cry, i know what you like

helen - i am going to kill heather

prod @bowsa_music
candyflipping once a month when the suns down
got a couple plays but i cant make my mom proud
maybe moms proud i cant tell cuz the self doubt
tried to hit her up but i can’t when im strung out
maybe ill be fine hit her up in the morning
morning never comes i was thinking bout touring
i cant sober up cuz my mind would be boring
know i talk  a lot but maybe you should support me
why do all my friends always choose to ignore me
calling every day but no one ever gets it
say i wanna die but im already finished
why i wake up i dont what else to do
its like nothing ever matters and i wanna text you
and i wanna feel you but i cant through a phone, its like usually
the distance makes me feel much more alone and i wish that i could walk myself
from here right to your home
and i wish i had the money just to fly you to my shows but im too broke

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raver