a letter to myself, with @lo3rd
do you know how much time i spend
in my head yeah i think a lot
about what could've been
i feel the air and it's getting thin
i sit in the dark writing letters to my past
so much shit i'd change
so much shit that i'd do differently now
but i've changed and i've grown (x2)
i saw the past again in my dreams
theres nothing i would change
this feeling creeping in my back
will take me to my end
i saw u far from me (why would i change)
i wanna be like that again
im crying my mistakes (why would i change)
i wanna tell u, that im not ready to go again
(fly) fly away from me this time
(heal) heal the pain that u have caused
(cry) cry for me once again (its the only way)
the only way that you can pay
(the only way that u can pay... for the past)
why would i change the past?
why would i change my mind?
why would i change us?
why would i change my life?

instrumental by grayskies & me

streaming

a letter to myself, lo3rd

februaryfirst, twentytwentythree.
produced by anvii.
cover art by yeongseo.

[verse]
you were 
right next to me
under the trees
you hide from the shade
to not burn

[chorus]
and i'd feel 
so alive
if your heart was next to mine
so i'll swim 
to our safe place
so what?
so what?
(in and out)

[verse]
i shiver awake
at last
can you see me?
with your hair in your face
do you feel 
what you're missing?

i dont reside
i dont reside

[chorus]
and i'd feel 
so alive
if your heart was next to mine
so i'll swim 
to our safe place
so what?
so what?
(in and out)

in your moment of ecstasy

stream

maytwentythird, twentytwentythree.
produced by anvii.
drums by anvii.
guitar by anvii.
bass by anvii & @gaberamirez1.
synths by anvii.
cover art by yeongseo.

[verse]
the sun gave us warmth
as you open your eyes
your hands on mine
as our vision starts to blur

your thoughts
mixed with mine
broken hearts
i'm all in my head

[chorus]
it's thin
i sobered up quick
as long as i live
i'd rather walk out

[verse]
i'm drowning alone
and i hear muffled voices again
with a gun in the dresser
i feel really stressed
and i crumble for a while

your smile
and your eyes
broken hearts
i'm all in my head

[chorus]
it's thin
i sobered up quick
as long as i live
i'd rather walk out

(y)our ephemeral nature

thin

julynineteenth, twentytwentythree.
produced by anvii.
drums by anvii.
guitar by anvii.
guitar solo by @gaberamirez1.
bass by anvii.
synths by anvii.
cover art by yeongseo.

[verse]
taking turns
dry my eyes
with your hands
we're alright
lose my mind
and lose my soul
all again
all again

pretty performance
in my head
flaring up on top
my skin
all again
all again

[chorus]
just show me how
it was before 
alive and well
long ago
burnt up in ash
this isn't us
well, it is now

tell me again
again, again, again

to open up my eyes
for you
open up my heart
for you

all again

buried

quannnic - buried

(p. remghost, wstdyth)

I like to get hurt
And you just make it worse
I like finding needs
At least I'm fixing things
I like you and I
Only for a while
I like you and me
I like feeling things

I like to get hurt
And you just make it worse
I like finding needs
At least I'm fixing things
I like you and I
Only for a while
I like you and me
At least I'm feeling things
(I like feeling things)

I like to get hurt
And you just make it worse
I like finding needs
At least I'm fixing things
I like you and I
Only for a while
I like you and me
At least I'm feeling things
(I like feeling things)

needs (i like)

Milk

first studio/band release
mix by exossi 
mastered by @yexasrealm
written by exossi

lyrics:

hey there what happened ?
im sorry i missed your call

embedded by all of your loss 
and then now its my fault 

i wish i could hold you and save us 
but your so far gone 

the tempting sensation i feel because i still hold on




to that you want
to that you fought for 
why? 
oh why? 

to that i fall 
to that i fall for you 
oh how stupid am i
how stupid am i 



all that you want
all that you want
all that you wanted that you wanted it gone 
gone x2


i feel so pretty with you 
but do you feel the same 
metamorphosis of our soul in a change

my skin is bleeding
and i yearn 
and i yearn 


tell me what all you want!


all that you want
all that you want
all that you wanted that you wanted it gone 
gone x2

i know you wanted it all
i know you wanted x2 


guitar solo + sample 


tell me why 
i even care for you 
why did you do me like that 
why 
why 
no 

i know you wanted it all
i know you wanted x2

GLOOM

Trauma Bond prod. Irisv

Lyrics: 

Oh, oh, oh
Heartbreak club
Taking me out of all your control
But was it worth it you knew that i was doing more 
i don't want you to feel like you can't do much more
There ain't a reason for me to walk out that
door

But you keep giving reasons I
Culminate them late at night
Trauma bonding every time
Telling me what's wrong what's right
You know 
I know
i'd never let
You lose
You lose
You lose

So
So
Where do we go when i need you most
Where do we go when it starts to snow

Oh 
Oh
Where do we go
Tell me where do we go
From here

Do this shit for fun
You had me waking up let's talk it out
I got you tossing n turning in your dreams
Baby let's fuck it out
I don't need to know what you been doing on the low
I just want to know
That's it's me when you're alone
Alone 
Alone
Alone
Is it me
Is it me
Is it me
You know
I’m a fiend
I’m a fiend
Just give in baby
Just give in
Just give in
Baby just give in
Give in
Give into me

trauma bond [irisv]

Wrenches

Joe Lene (TheEliasRework) Joe Lene Dolly Parton Jolene Cover Rework

needs (i like)

Rachel Prancer