Hurted

Hqmilton 🖤

June 2022

i feel like death after she left

Spacey

❤️

Bloodline [prod. metlast x 5head]

Black Sun ft. Diverse [prod. nothingtodo]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JY1nc3pBOxA

act out *video in description* (prod salvi)

Soft boys crying in the dark

i hope you think of me 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/trplgmni
master: https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

striaght through the bottle 
blacked out
it's nice to not remember
straight through tomorrow 
tapped out 
i think i'll feel it forever
i know i'll do it again 
escape till it ends
i wanna leave it all behind 
i wanna make you proud 
safe and sound 
pray i'll be alright

i just can't take anymore 
i've said that before
there's nothing left of me 
i watched you walk out the door 
va mon amour 
i hope you think of me
(i hope you think of me forever)

i can't do this sober 
(i'm leaking blood all over)
i can't do it at all
come on,
pull me closer
(i'm leaking blood all over)

hear me out 
i'm breaking down 
lost control and i need you now
this is what i've been waiting for,
prove to me that i loved you more
i'm so used to all the bandages 
but i know you couldn't manage it i,
hope you find heaven in him

there's nothing left of me

there's nothing left of me (prod. triple gemini)

ran all my memories thru a blueprint
my life was never planned so i screwed it
i was always dead but you aint notice
i was always dead but you aint notice
i fell back but i dont care
i lit this party up with pink blonde hair
pink blonde hair
pls dont stare
pink blonde hair
pls dont stare
(dont make assumptions)
the world hates me, but,
(hate crime)
imma live with it 
have you ever been held at gunpoint just for bein urself
ever layed late at night wantin to be someone else
when you feel like you lost your body
lifes so exuahsting
go ahead
tear off ur own skin
it wont make u pretty
and it wont make u win
go ahead
take ur own life
livin aint much better
when ur starving at night!

blueprint (vervxin)

@FantasyCamp
@arixjahonson
@prod.roxa (instagram)


artwork by @chrysocoma 
art direction by arix jahonson

Fantasy Camp - Frozen in Love (prod. Arix Jahonson & Roxa)*STREAMING SERVICES AVAILABLE*****

@crowboyfly - who invited crowboy? *prodbycrowboyfly*

2 the side (feat. hamilton) [prod. remghost + internet joe]

Thank You For Everything

How do I relive a life again
I dont know if I'll redeem my sins
We lasted like diamonds in the rough
Dark days, nearly lost my head
Hey you have begun to escape this
Pain thats seeping through
With no eyes at my witness
I could end it too

What if I begin to lose
And I'm slowly giving up
When I know its not enough

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

I'm losing it all for you
I've never felt so consumed
The life that we had secure
Was our chance
To be so much more
Hey baby I don't feel so good
Keep saying gave it all I could
If 10 years is before I die
I'd still give you all my time

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

Days Gone ft. Riverkinn

'shredder' produced by heylog

lyrics:
at night i wanna end it all
in bed as tears begin to fall
water seeps through my pillow
i had to let it out
why won't u let me be
is it revenge you seek
too bad i cared for u
more than u could ever care for me

right now my only focus is on you
but if i die, i promise that i will warn you
but i cannot guarantee if i'll make it or not
so i'll cherish every moment with u
stay here, i gotta go i'll be right back
i head to war when voices causing this impact
but i cannot guarantee i'll make it out alive
so i'll try my best to stay intact
oh we out here alone with no one there by my side
i keep on hearing these screams and hearing people cry
but i don't know if it's real, don't know if it's a sign
i just know that i'm frightened and horrified
say where is log, i don't know where they went
i vanish into thin air and wait until i'm in
love for who i am
and love for within
u took that away now there's a shredder on my skin
if i were you i would hide
cus u don't know what u caused
u put on quite a show
let's give a round of applause
so are u done hurting me
and are u done w my head?
keep using it like a toy
you must forgot i'm human

don't wait for me now, i don't know how long i'll be
i'm too busy in the ground eating dirt u threw at me
oh u had your chance to let me go so i could breathe
now ur the one who's eating dust that i'm collecting on my feet
so how does it feel now that the roles finally swapped
i've been living too long feeling disgust inside this swamp
people love to talk but never wanna say a thing
when i be standing right there, c'mon and say it to my face
don't piss on my back and say it's raining from outside
i don't need no skin & bones for me to conjure every lie
i know i forgave but honestly i change my mind
cus i could not forgive a person who has stabbed me many times
say where is log, i don't know where i have been
i just stay as far as possible and locking every hinge
love for who i am and love for what i hold within
thanks for ruining what i had, this is where i shred my skin

you hurt..
you hurt
you hurt..
you hurt oh

don't look at me now, i feel so guilty in my chest
reflecting off the mirror is just a boy bout to collapse
i said i wanted peace, instead i got a giant war
and now i feel it slipping through as if this chapters gonna end
better start the next one bringing in new characters
maybe they'll respect me and everything will register
cus i don't need nobody who just screws behind my back
so tell me was it worth it throwing everything we had

spotify

shredder

'next to u' produced by heylog

lyrics:
𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘪 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘪 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵

𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶?

u make it so hard to live
i feel like i'm in hell
my parents ain't raise no kid
who'll just end up killing himself
i could shut down
and no one will ever find me
i could lie down
and see u there next to me

i need u to focus
i'm crying, i'm broken
but no one really cares how i'm feeling so hopeless
i hate ur guts
and i hate ur friends
i realized u all suck
so i'll just cut u instead
now i think of u less
cus i thought highly of you
so i distanced away
to try something new
i'm steady being myself
something you'd never do
but i still wish u the best
even though i still hate you

YOU TEXTED ME
I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO SAY
I'LL RESPOND IN A WEEK
MAYBE 2, MAYBE 3
AVOIDING US AND MOVE ON
THOUGH I STILL WRITE YOU IN SONGS
IT'S THE EMOTIONS YOU HOLD
THAT NEVER FEELS WRONG
GOD I'M SO DISAPPOINTED AT EVERYTHING THAT I DO
I'LL PLAY SOME GUITAR, RECORD A COUPLE OF LOOPS
BUT IT AIN'T MET WITH MY STANDARDS
SO I START SOMETHING NEW
AT LEAST I PUT IN SOME WORK
WHICH YOU'LL NEVER DO
TAKIN PICS OF THE WALL
ADD A PLANT AND A BOOK
WRITE A VERSE AND A BRIDGE
CUS I AIN'T GOOD WITH NO HOOK
I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF
AM I SPEAKING TOO MUCH?
I'M NOT A PERSON WHO TALKS
SO I'LL JUST CHILL IN THE BACK AND WATCH

next to u

Lyrics:

Hey there you
Baby make me sane
The way these drugs do
Flowin through my veins
When I think bout you
Shouldn’t have told you
That I love you
Shouldn’t have told you
That I trust you
Shouldn’t have told you
That I miss you
Baby do you miss me too
I really hope you do
The shit I’m goin through
The shit you put me through

Hey there you 
Baby girl wassup
Codeine in my cup 
Baby I be swerving baby 
Sometimes I don’t give a fuck 
I don’t give a fuck 
I just wanna be numb 
Baby tell me what u want I can get that shit in a heartbeat 
Just don’t harm me
Feel my heart beat 
This how I be 
Hey there you walking there do you love me
Hey there you stand in there are you above me?
Hey there you

HeyThereU w/cigs Prod. Dead - Rou

frown (prod. dirty sosa)

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
Looking back
How could I be so clueless
We all die in the end
Know it's useless
Wake up every morning
Why do I do this

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

Call your name in the flames
Wanna hear you
Reach out for my hand
I won't help you
I'll just drag you down
To my hell too
Once you're like me
Nobody can save you

Once you're like me
Nobody can save you
Once you're like me
Everyone will hate you
Might wanna fucking take some drugs to numb the pain too
Become an addict
With some habit's that will hurt you
In the night
Memories will haunt you
There's no telling to the damage that they might do

Ain't no telling to the damage that they might do
How you think I got these issues

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
Looking back
How could I be clueless
We all die in the end
Know it's useless
Wake up every morning
Why do I do this

Why do I do this
Torture my own brain

Why do I do this
Drive myself insane

Pile up the stress
I can't take it I'm a mess
Try my best
Just to end up feeling
Permanently depressed

Ever since I lost my soul
Nothing been the same
The weather's getting colder
And I hope it doesn't change
I hope that it rain's
The whole entire day
So I can stay inside
And never see another face

Never see another face

I already know my fate
I'm not meant for living long
Imma burn through life
Till I'm fucking gone
This shit is boring
Feel like moving on

Feel like moving on

Feel like moving on

love dies fast (prod. spacedtime)

machine elves999

machine elves999 *prod. Yusei*

When I think about the past
That shit just stress me
Depress me
Make my wrist messy
Why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

I just wanna ball with you baby
Glo up in the mall
With me maybe?
And I would spend it all for you
Yeah I know you know it's true

Like my jeans
Yeah they be religion
Pockets full of grams
I keep on sinning
All this pain
It's fucking never ending
I've been going through it
Need a minute
Laying in my bed
I know I'm not shit
Think about my life
I wanna off it
All these fake friends
Acting toxic
Blowing up my phone
Can you stop it?

Just stop it

And I would give my all for you
Just to stop this heart abuse

When I think about the past
That shit just stress me
Depress me
Make my wrist messy
Why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

Meet me in hell
I'll be waiting
Please be here soon
Cause I'm decaying
Look you in the eyes
I start breaking
Bitch you ain't the same
You keep changing
Why you say you love me?
Know you faking
This the type of shit
That keep me isolating
Myself from everyone
I miss the days when I was young

I keep folding
Under pressure
I keep fighting
Just to feel worse
Not getting better
I hope the drugs work
They never do they just leave me
And my soul hurt

When I think about the past
That shit just stress me
Depress me
Make my wrist messy
Why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby
Baby
Be with you baby
Yeah

messy (prod. spacedtime)

KILLSADIST & YUNG SOLD - IMGOINGCRAZY (PROD. SPYDER)

destiny

myworld

mine

heart abuse

fading away

lil skele - fall for you (never last) ft. kais [prod. irby x dead spyro)

brevik - @ungothafucka
IG - @brevikclark
TWITTER - @brevikc10

far from over it <///3
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(brevik)

get it poppin like new years bitch
i been thumbin thru the money at my crib
get it poppin like new years bitch
i been thumbin thru the money at my crib
i was playin wit my life like i always do
bad bitch asked me what im gunna do
i said im gunna end it
she said fuckin send it
i was at the counter waitin for u
all black nails with the red shoes
all black nails and the cigarettes
pressed on me against the bed
there i lay until the end
until the end
but i think i need a new bitch
and i think i need a new script
cuz this addy got me restless
and im far from over it

(emo fruits)

far from over it 
im far from over it
im far from over it
im far from over it
far from over it
im far from over it
im far from over it
im far from over it

baby wanna fuck so i get her rich
fuck gettin rich
i wanna end my shit
bitch on my dick cuz i look like this
gettin so numb 
now i look like this 
baby wanna fuck so i get her rich
fuck gettin rich
i wanna end my shit
bitch on my dick cuz i look like this
gettin so numb 
now i look like this

lookin so right yeah
gettin so high yeah
needa get higher
i needa feel the fire
baby it hurts too much to see ur face right now
baby it hurts too much with all this space right now
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far from over it w/ brevik (prod. kcaaz x christian)

[verse]
What if I still miss you
Would you come back?
I will give you my everything
Will you give it back to me (to me)
All the night long
Spending it together
Go along with my life
Would you make it even better? (even better)

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind 
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now 
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

[Verse]
Lonely nights 
Talking to myself
Every time
Lying on my bed
I think about you
I think about us
Held to each other
We don't give a fuck about
What people think
What's going on

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

STREAM

Hopeless [prod. micco]

prod. Morin x Miracle

Lyrics:
[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

[verse]
Till the day you die
You will be alone
With the hug of the drugs
Making you feel loved
Making you feel something
But you know that's nothing
Cause those feelings have no meaning
Bottle up the screams in a heartache
Nobody helps they only care about their own sake
You're a prey in a world of vultures
Feeling hopeless and seeing no future

[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

MUSIC VIDEO

Last Day [prod. Morin x Miracle]

Lyrics:

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries 
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

[verse]
I've been so stupid trusting you
I knew nobody is ever honest
I think I'll keep on avoiding you
I'm just a lone wolf inside this forest
Living my life like I've always done and
Living my life all alone 
I swear that I'm so sorry mother
But your son now is gone

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

Dark Place [prod. Young Kxge]

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New year
Same dreams
Old faces
I'm tired
I can't take it
So sick of this bullshit
I might fill my brain with a full clip

I might fill my brain with a full clip

They wanna see me dead
Voices in my head
Falling off the edge
I can't stop it

It's hard to love again
I don't have no friends
I just got a hole where my heart is

Yeah I got some scars
Don't get me started
Gave my all for you
I tried my hardest
We're nothing in the end
We die regardless
I just wish my head
Wasn't like this

I isolate myself I can't help it
Cause nowadays I'm always fucking anxious
Waking up at night still faded
I don't even know what the day is

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing

problems (prod. jody)

rahk gee
i feel so empty
ggrahkavelli@gmail.com

2 the side (feat. hamilton) [prod. remghost + internet joe]

Gg rahkavelli