ambiguous watermelon

the awkward silence after ive had something to say
shitty personality and ugly face
tryna change my habits but im still the same
confidence is creepy

im too fucking stupid to get a job
im too autistic to be a thug
when you cant really function so you just give up
confidence is creepy

used to have friends but who really needs them
i dont know anything or what the fuck im doing
you can blame it all on me cause im a filthy subhuman
confidence is creepy

if she was interested in you
then she'd come up and talk to you
its the current year plus 2
its over

why bother i dont wanna try
just let me lay down give up and die

confidence

Art by $lave
Fell in love with a girl who dosnt even exist
the fact that she's mine is the only thing that matters
im obsessed with something ill never even have
so slit my wrists again and cut through the scabs

these sloots can stay mad cause they know this love is priceless
im jumping out of this 3d plane of existence
with a dakimura pillowcase tied around my neck
holding me tightly as i kill myself

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

every night i go to sleep and only dream about her
see her face everyday as the background on my computer
liking girls is gay but my waifu is forever
once i hang myself then we'll be together

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

my waifu

Mind Spiders cover
cool video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUY_xXrjJWc

You Are Dead

Hardchrist cover
https://soundcloud.com/hard4christ

Miscarriage

Phlodge cover
https://soundcloud.com/cameronphlodgearchive
music video @https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9zc5hseJlw

Bill Elliot

Scabzone cover
https://soundcloud.com/scabzone

D.N.R

another shooty cover for the shooty album
I couldnt figure out the lyrics so I made half of them  up

Doot do dooo dooo doot do dooo doo Doot do dooo doot doot do dooo dooo Dooot doo doo doot doooot doooo Dooot doo doo doot doooot doooo

Goodbye and so long i hope you choke on the words i wrote for you in this song you'll hear me sing when you pass away can't say that i blame you for having bad taste 
You know i still think about how you kinda treated me badly and you still do i wonder if you ever tried to change you're so full of shit and you're still the same

Im looking forward to the day I get to dance on your grave even though your already dead inside dontcha know I hate you for being alive 
Every breath you take is a waste of space every move you make is a total disgrace when you know you're living on borrowed time you're dirt you're already dead inside

oooOOOOoooooooooOOOooooooo

And it was funny and it was sad the stupid shit that always made her mad there was literally nothing that I could fucking say can't say that I blame her for being that way 
Our lives were shameful and a waste of time, regrets that she can still make me cry I whish that you could somehow take me back, closest thing to love that I ever had

Epitaph

my parents always called me kind of slow                              
there’s a lot of things I should that I just 
don’t know 
I can hear you say the words 
I can see you move your mouth 
I still don’t know anything ur talking about

i’m a fucking dumbass 
can’t think too fast  
its too hard for me 
can’t understand anything 

I didn’t know points could fly that high over my head 
keeping up with basic concepts always leaves me exhausted  
I wish I knew how to be smart but I guess I can’t  
ill bootstrap my intelligence with a total brain transplant  

i’m a fucking dumbass
can’t think too fast  
its too hard for me 
can’t understand anything

slow brain

Did you know there's only a limited amount
of happiness on earth to even go around
and it would be nice to get my hands on some
other people always turn out to be
the problem

if you don't mind could you please stop
you're always smiling at me
if i was you
id be gloating too
i hate it when you're happy

ill max out all my credit cards and never worry again
cause im a rich greedy banker winning this zero sum game
and fuck having friends they just get in the way
im a crab in a bucket pulling you down
the drain

if you don't mind could you please stop
you're always smiling at me
if i was you
id be gloating too
i hate it when you're happy

Emotional Autarky

OOOOOooOOOO

"If you dont put in more effort, you may as well kill your self"
well I started pulling the trigger, as soon as you opened your mouth
I'll end my life forever just to hope I'll ruin your day
I hope you choke and gag on my grey
matter cause by now its not gonna matter to me
i shot myself in the head i was never gonna be happy
but at least I can die laughing with a smile on my face
hoping fragments of my skull
impale into your eyeballs
and that the last thing that you see
is the end of my suffering

now that its all over theres a lesson to be learned
to anybody who cared you got what you fucking deserved
and i can't start having second thoughts about what happens next
because suicide is the only thing you can't regret

Spite!

cool video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OupWvlN9ZFE

take a bit out of me today
take a bit out of me tomorrow
take a bit out of me forever
take a bit out of me its over
grind me down to dust
until theres nothing left
nothing left to see
other people erode me

erode me

Scabzone cover https://soundcloud.com/scabzone

Hi-Point

cool video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNqDD_OuhlA

hey dad I made new friends 
follow me on instagram
do you have some cash to spend
check out my onlyfans
getting good at sucking dick
selling off some feet pics
in an open ended relationship
when youre simping way too much
addicted to being in love
and youre sad and youve had enough
you gotta stop and chad up
or pretend youre something youre not 
its something that you do alot
spend all your money on ethots

im one of those stupid girls
infiltrating your subculture
i dont have any self esteem
you can shut up and pay attention to me

when you dont have anything to loose
dont ever try to think it through
she finally wants you
like she was supposed to
this is how you deal with it 
even though you feel like shit
a self delusional pay pig

Resist Succubi

if God doesn't smite you, i will

despite everything it's still you!

i really hated how you said goodbye
you fucking left me and without a reason why
you cut all contact and abandoned me
when all i wanted was some female company

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i dont want you anymore

i lie awake at night cuz i cant sleep
i think of you and i cant help but feel weak
its so sadistic how you showed your love
i wanted you but you didnt want me

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i hate you go fuck yourself

Worthless

Beamer Boy

GWEN (Ground Wave Emergency Network) transmitters placed 200 miles apart across the USA allow specific frequencies to be tailored to the geomagnetic-field strength in each area, allowing the magnetic field to be altered. They operate in the LF range, with transmissions between LF 150 and 175 KHz. They also emit waves from the upper VHF to the lower UHF range of 225 – 400 MHz. The LF signals travel by waves that hug the ground rather than radiating into the atmosphere. A GWEN station transmits in a 360 degree circle up to 300 miles, the signal dropping off sharply with distance. The entire GWEN system consists of, (depending on source of data), from 58 to an intended 300 transmitters spread across the USA, each with a tower 299-500 ft high. 300 ft copper wires in spoke-like fashion fan out from the base of the system underground, interacting with the earth, like a thin shelled conductor, radiating radio wave energy for very long distances through the ground.

The United States is bathed in this magnetic field which can rise from ground up to 500 ft, but goes down into basements, so everyone can be affected and mind-controlled. The entire artificial ground-wave spreads out over the whole of the USA like a web. It is easier to mind-control and hypnotize people who are bathed in an artificial electromagnetic-wave.

GWEN transmitters have many different functions including:

1. controlling the weather,

2. mind control,

3. behavior and mood control, and

4. sending synthetic-telepathy as infrasound to victims with US government mind-control implants.

GWEN works in conjunction with HAARP and the Russian Woodpecker transmitter, which is similar to HAARP. The Russians openly market a small version of their weather-engineering system called Elate, which can fine-tune weather patterns over a 200 mile area and have the same range as the GWEN unit. An Elate system operates at Moscow airport. The GWEN towers shoot enormous bursts of energy into the atmosphere in conjuction with HAARP. The website http://www.cuttingedge.org  wrote an expose of how the major floods of the Mid-West USA occurred in 1993.

Atmospheric Vapor Rivers

Enormous, invisible rivers of water, consisting of vapors that flow, move towards the poles in the lower atmosphere. They rival the flow of the Amazon River and are 420 to 480 miles wide and up to 4,800 miles long. They are 1.9 miles above the earth and contain a volume of water equivalent to 340 lbs of water per second. There are 5 atmospheric rivers in each Hemisphere. A massive flood can be created by damming up one of these massive vapor rivers, causing huge amounts of rainfall to be dumped. The GWEN Towers positioned along the areas north of the Missouri and Mississippi Rivers were turned on for 40 days and 40 nights, probably mocking the Flood of Genesis. (This was in conjunction with HAARP, that creates a river of electricity flowing thousands of miles through the sky and down to the polar ice-cap, manipulating the jet-stream , like the Russian Woodpecker.) These rivers flooded, causing agricultural losses of $12-15 billion. HAARP produces earthquakes by focusing energy along fault lines. GWEN Towers are located on the fault lines and volcanic areas of the Pacific Northeast.

In 1963, Dr Robert Beck explored effects of external magnetic-fields on brainwaves showing a relationship between psychiatric admissions and solar magnetic storms. He exposed volunteers to pulsed magnetic-fields similar to magnetic-storms, and found a similar response. US 60 Hz electric power ELF waves vibrate at the same frequency as the human brain. UK 50 Hz electricity emissions depress the thyroid gland.

Human Vulnerability

G.round W.ave E.mergency N.etwork (GWEN)

giving up and getting stoned again
it’s too much effort to crawl out of bed
I’ll do it tomorrow or not at all
why’s everything gotta be so fucking hard

I can’t stand being alone
but I hate other people even more
showing my dick off to girls online
nobody gives a shit and then you die

this thug life is too fast for me

straight edgy

drinking by myself in the dark
its easy to see, im pretty fucked
wishing i could be happy but i guess i forgot
to snort up the good times and blow out the snot

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

relationships always come down to simple economics
when you figure out why youre not wanted
nothing will even matter cause reality is fake 
a 2d projection on a 3d holographic display

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

idontdodrugs

https://sikhsamridhi.com/id/read/shabad/REJI/1

ambiguous watermelon

Rahmut Sikh Shulju