Razor Bloom

Diamond Pressure

Better When I Cry” was born from a season where the singer tried to be stronger than her own heart. She had spent years learning how to hold everything together  the smile, the composure, the expectations, the image of someone who never breaks. But inside, she was carrying storms she never let anyone see.

Every time she felt pain, she swallowed it. Every time she felt betrayed, she buried it. Every time she wanted to scream, she chose silence. She thought that was strength. She thought that was survival.

But the more she held in, the more she cracked.

The pressure built until it started spilling out in ways she didn’t recognize snapping at people she loved, withdrawing from everyone, feeling anger toward things that never used to bother her. She wasn’t herself anymore. She felt like she was losing her softness, her compassion, her light.

One night, after hurting someone who didn’t deserve it, she finally broke. Not in a dramatic way — just quietly, honestly. She cried for the first time in a long time. And instead of falling apart, she felt something release. Something unclench. Something heal.

That moment became the seed of the song.

“Better When I Cry” is her confession:
that tears don’t make her weak,
that vulnerability is not failure,
that letting herself feel is the only way she can stop hurting others,
and that healing begins the moment she stops pretending she’s unbreakable.

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raida II