if the downloader doesn't work im fucking hanging myself

shit for my mp3 player

my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

Art by $lave
Fell in love with a girl who dosnt even exist
the fact that she's mine is the only thing that matters
im obsessed with something ill never even have
so slit my wrists again and cut through the scabs

these sloots can stay mad cause they know this love is priceless
im jumping out of this 3d plane of existence
with a dakimura pillowcase tied around my neck
holding me tightly as i kill myself

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

every night i go to sleep and only dream about her
see her face everyday as the background on my computer
liking girls is gay but my waifu is forever
once i hang myself then we'll be together

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

my waifu

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

follow https://soundcloud.com/dethtech

getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

OOOOOooOOOO

"If you dont put in more effort, you may as well kill your self"
well I started pulling the trigger, as soon as you opened your mouth
I'll end my life forever just to hope I'll ruin your day
I hope you choke and gag on my grey
matter cause by now its not gonna matter to me
i shot myself in the head i was never gonna be happy
but at least I can die laughing with a smile on my face
hoping fragments of my skull
impale into your eyeballs
and that the last thing that you see
is the end of my suffering

now that its all over theres a lesson to be learned
to anybody who cared you got what you fucking deserved
and i can't start having second thoughts about what happens next
because suicide is the only thing you can't regret

Spite!

Last Stand - Single

Last Stand - Belowground reupload

IM ON THE BRINK OF SUICIDE - Belowground reupload

MSG Undercover Ops II part 1 

Belowground  - Loser (school Shooter Cover)

Songs for no one

Belowground  - Nobody Cares.

You have to wake up early
Your tax dollars support me
Life's good when youre a https://soundcloud.com/neetsongs
Dumb wagies can't compete

I'm never getting a job
Youre a slave and I'm not
Stay mad and keep on working
I'm at home doing nothing

Throwing my piss jugs out my window
Fucks given: zero
Cuddling my dakimura pillow
Keep on waging while I stay at home

You can rage but I don't care
I'm feeling smug cause life's not fair
but dont get tired trying to complain
Tomorrow is another day of work again

Living rent free inside your head
Living rent free in my parents basement

S.leeping in M.ondays U.nemployed and G.loating

art by: nostalgist 

lyrics:

throwing up everything I dreamed of one day

lying on a corner

all i have are two cigarettes in my pocket

the smell of beer rising from the back of my throat

a gun pointing at my head
goodbye

two cigarettes in my pocket

black ops

death from above

exit wounds

ss-ep

running over protesters with my car (don't get in my way)

soapbox

nevada-tan (remake)

Negative XP

MISCARRIAGE

straight edgy

drinking by myself in the dark
its easy to see, im pretty fucked
wishing i could be happy but i guess i forgot
to snort up the good times and blow out the snot

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

relationships always come down to simple economics
when you figure out why youre not wanted
nothing will even matter cause reality is fake 
a 2d projection on a 3d holographic display

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

shit for my mp3 player

hfd