23/08/2019 </3

a lotta things I messed up, that bitch so extra, 
my bitch so fed up….
And all the shit that I know bout you, I ain’t really fucking know bout you, 
baby please let me hold on you…. 
All the shit I said, all the shit I did,
All the shit you read…. 
If I was given a choice, would’ve been me dead, 
bitch I’m sick of this noise…. 
I really wish I could hold on you, 
3 years without knowing you, 
How long can I hold it through? 
I wasn’t ever mad, just sorta sad, 
look at all the shit we had, 
I’ve seen better times, no need to lie, 
Tried to end a million times….

I can understand why your family hate me but in better terms they were part of the problem, 
real shit I ain’t ever changed, bitch the love the same this the shit I ain’t wanted, 
he talking shit ima rob him, look at the shit he be flaunting, 
is this the way you be walking? everyday this shit leave me haunted, 
I can’t really do this on my own, it’s okay though, 
why you gotta leave me here alone? I ain’t okay though, 
thinking bout you always fuck me up, it’s okay though, 
I wish I really did it different you ain’t here, I ain’t okay though.

I'm sorry I didn't see what was going on earlier (sret sirk)

Lil Guthi - Pollen Remix (prod. vueko)

& my bitch she said im fucked up, she blowing up my phone,
& these jeans they undercover i got blood up on my clothes, 
She can’t stand me, I can’t help it she stepping on my toes, 
all these cuts up on my wrist been snorting shit up in my nose, 
I been making these mistakes, I swear these hoes they ain’t in love, 
she keep changing up the story contemplating giving up, 
I can’t sit here with these values and say that this enough, 
I ain’t really feeling love….
I keep asking where it fell through, I really thought i felt you, 
I keep reading all her messages, I really wish I helped you,
I keep saying that I failed you, and I really wish they helped too
I keep moving this shit forward but I cant change if I can’t help you, 
Cuz it’s the same, I swear it’s the same, 
I really wish I helped you, I keep thinking that I changed, 
But I keep acting the same….
It really ain’t the same…..
cuz i changed, I swear that I changed,
I really tried to help you, this shit it ain’t the same, 
But it’s really all the same…
I can’t stand to hear your name…

for madi ❤️

and I'm sorry I didn't figure out a way (ivvys & gxmini)

I still find it hard to control how I feel about everything (butchey + luke2k)

horses (ziday)

iris +iraqksdinar

talk like that + lyj (melos + kilstillin)

I got some brothers that ain’t coming home; 
I get all mad and cry alone, 
I gotta baggies in my draw 
they all so empty need a cone, 
she wanna see me I told that bitch go, 
I do not need her she ruin my hope, 
I put a gun to my head sad it choked,

What’s the picture? What’s the motive? 
cunts they on my line they see the motion wanna token, 
cunts been acting weird they really hate that I been growing, 
money on my feet I’m so addicted to the motion, 
hands been working hard i swear to god I need to some lotion, 
Something different in the cut I’m cooking up cause a commotion,  
something different on my body with ksm fuck I’m goated, 
fuck this billys gross i need a stick to fucking stoke it, 
look at all this shit I hosted, 
cunts they on my line they wanna apart but fuck they hopeless, 
cunt they wanna talk but really I been fucking posted, 
posted at the station with my brothers we were hopeless, 
But now I really do my own shit, 
cunts they got it tatted on their body got me boasting, 
cunts they really repping what I did I really own it, 
how I feel if I took my life that shit I really wasn’t focused, 
If I ever said some shit came from my mouth you know I owned it, 
cunts they cannot stand on what they say it got me choking, 
I can’t deal with myself I swear to god i wanna be focused, 
… my mum ain’t even notice, 
all this stress on my plate and my body I wake up fucking hopeless, 
how you cry bout what you did? You sat down thought and fucking chose it, 
how they gon say that I’m this and I’m that all cuz of different choices. 
5 years battling with voices,
look at all I did I’m fucking crying whilst rejoicing, 
I don’t drink no lean I swear that shit is fucking poison,

tho I'm hopeful that one day things will go back to normal without you *rough* (imnotrydxr + boof)

My bro just hit my phone he said he miss me I been pushing weight, 
All these cunts they on my dick they talking shit I gotta demonstrate, 
first they were my bros but they were quick to boot me any way, 
fuck you ain’t my bro you quick to diss turn on the interface, 
I got people in my room saying they love me but I don’t feel that way, 
there’s been way too many times I had these thoughts and nearly blew my brains,
I’m with my brother Charlie kicking up a mix we been through every stage, 
please stop talking about me if you ain’t seen the way I’m living hey, 
all these cunts are straight up tweaked how you be hating for the love of it? 
really it’s enough of it, Your brother weird ain’t touching shit, 
I’ll really straight up bug his shit, I been stomping opposites, 
please get out my way I’ll take a spit on you while bossing shit, 
I seen half these cunts they start and end it’s funny I can’t flog that shit, 
really you just tossing it, fake ass cunts ain’t popping shit, 
3 likes on Soundcloud on a track that shit really be obvious, 
on all plats you really botting shit, you still at the bottom shit,

and everyone around me seems so unfamiliar (1mint)

@smokingskul @jshxwty @hiitstyrone @butcheylucki @sourmiist