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original instrumentals from these tracks, by these artists, in this order | James Blake, Travis Scott & Metro Boomin "Mile High", Isaiah Rashad "Heavenly Father", Kendrick Lamar "The Heart Part 4", Ryan Trey & Bryson Tiller "Nowhere To Run", Drake "Jaded"

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the void on empty avenue (bootleg version)

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used James Blake, Travis Scott & Metro Boomin "Mile High"

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she said i was emotionally unavailable

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i feel a little unsound
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emotionally unavailable, right?
i feel a little ungrounded (emotionally...unavailable)
unsound
sound
sound

empty, echo
empty, echoes (paradisal echoes)
where am i?
am i in black hole? (i'm in a black hole!)
i am the black wholeness (in the dark womb)
i am the black wholeness, oh yes
monster in the ground, in the sky - it's the ground
no, it's the ocean, it's the side of the sea (lochness)
i am in the walls in between, in between
i can feel myself opening, peeling
i am unshedding, shedding, shedding (shed it all)
(coming up and out to meet you)
unbecoming, unbecome beheaded, i'm beheaded
i am just a snake, snake shedding, i'm shedding
i am just a wolf in sheeps skin, skin
i am nothing, in between your head and in your head is i
in between your eyes, i am the 444

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i feel a little unsound
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(who am i? who am i?? who am i?!)

she said that i'm emotionally unavailable
emotionally unavailable? okay, i'll take that
i am void and empty, that's a fact
depressed and obsessed, not with you, but myself
depressed and obsessed, not with you, but myself
depressed? cessed? pressed?
nah nah, just need to decompress like '17
'18, somewhere in between
when i made that alkhemexxxtape
no, i didn't mean to forget who i was
who am i now?

the void
on empty avenue

the void on empty avenue

the pines whispering over the acres at sunset

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used Isaiah Rashad "Heavenly Father"

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this beat captures the way i feel so much
i don't even have to say anything
i just wanna let the beat ride, you feel me
you know what i'm saying

i'm so numb
it's like
it's like i feel so much that i'm numb, you know what i'm saying
so much pain, that i'm numb, you know what i mean
(said i feel like crying but i can't)
so much hurt, i can't even feel a thing
said i'm numb from my cranium to my toes
to the soles of my feet
i said the pain, it hurt so deep
i said, the way it shattered all my reality and my dreams
am i sleepwalking?
am i in another world? (i'm so void)
am i not me?
who am i?
who am i even?

you know, like... a spiritual awakening
like, a "little death" or whatever, like you know what i'm sayin
i feel like i gotta rip myself open
shed my skin, just to like, be born again
or just be born period, like "who the fuck am i?"
you know what i'm sayin, like, i be thinking like
who the fuck am i?
like "who the fuck am i?"
like "who the, who the, who the fuck am i?!"
who the... fuck am i?
who the, who the fuck am i?
who the, who the fuck am i?
who the... fuck am i?
who the, who the fuck am i?

said i, i said i, said i

i'd rather be sleeping, in my astral travels dreaming
i would rather be in my bed, head on the pillow
cold side, fluff it up
put my blanket over my head
wrap up like i'm in cocoon, so i bloom
in the other world
the 5d, the 6d, 7d, 8d, i'm tryna go deep
i'm tryna go 9 deep deep deep
i'm talking 'bout 6 feet feet feet
i'm talking 'bout on the other side of the
on the other side, upside down, i mean
i wanna turn all the way around, i mean
flip in and out like
fish outta water

the mountain towards the trail if you're lost

the mountain towards the trail if you’re lost

sound engineering, vocals, freestyle____RA YUKAWA

used Kendrick Lamar "The Heart Part 4"

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the void on empty avenue
the void

aw yeah
said she's really all i got
said she's really all i got
don't know why i treat her like she ain't
i really need to stop

really all i got
yeah, she's really all i got
don't know why i treat her like she ain't
i really need to

really all i got
yeah, she's really all i got
don't know why i treat her like she ain't
i really need to stop

really all i got
yeah, she's really all i got
don't know why i treat her like she ain't
i really need to stop
stop
stop
drop
and roll
i'm on fire, my heart, my soul
i desire something more
for you and me, out that door
i gotta go
go
(go easy on me baby)
but i give you my hope (hoping)
my hope (hoping)
(every last drop til i'm hopeless)
that's my parting gift
my house warming gift (so cold)
you know i mean the best
but i can't settle for less no more

really all i got
you're really all i got, can't lie
you're really all i got, you're really all i got
no, no, no
said, you're really all i got
said, you're really all i got
don't know why i treat you like you ain't
i need to stop
really all i got, you're really all i got
don't know why i treat you like you ain't

the sands are a ledge, not a hill to drive in circles

sound engineering, vocals, freestyle____RA YUKAWA

used Ryan Trey & Bryson Tiller "Nowhere To Run"

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don't be mad at me
don't be mad at me, mad at me
don't be mad at me, mad at me, baby
yeah, yeah
i'ma tell you right now, yeah, yeah
this is how i
yeah, yeah
said, this is how i purge
said this is how i purge
cause i'mma say something, i'mma say something raw
i'mma keep it real and spill the feels in my heart like uh
uh
said uh

said uh

said uh

said uh

said uh

uh
i wanna see you right now, baby, right now
wanna love you down, baby, so down
wanna show you how, baby, show you how much i do adore you
adore you
i do tings for you
for you
that he never do for you
for you
baby, i deeply adore you
adore you
and i told you from time, what it was
how i felt in my heart and my mind
you walk away? fine (that's okay)
you gon' walk away, fine (you'll be back)
aw yeah, yeah, yeah, you'll be back
back, back
back through
and you, hit me up like tattoos
uh
ink me up on my
that mean forever
forever, ever (forever, ever?)
and ever, ever
ever, ever
clever, clever
you so clever
love the way you put yourself together
together, gether
how you carry your crown
how you carry your crown
i kiss the ground that you walk on, i swear

it's okay though, i'm here (i'm here)
by myself (by myself)

empty
empty empty
empty
empty

empty empty empty empty
empty empty empty empty

empty avenue
said empty avenue, avenue, avenue

it's the void in my heart
yeah yeah yeah
said that shit tore apart
void in my, void in my, void in my heart
yeah it tore apart
said yeah it tore apart
but i
swoop down on ya
girl i'm gonna fly you out to california
put it all on ya, put it down ya
the birds will pray for you

the birds prey for u and bring u to

the birds prey for u and bring u back to

sound engineering, vocals, freestyle____RA YUKAWA

used Drake "Jaded"

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blaze it, blaze it, blaze it
light it up!

aye, aye
yuh, yuh

numb is only a feeling
yes, i'm faded, faded, faded (numb is only a feeling) (dangerous, oh)
kinda jaded, jaded, jaded
light it up, blaze it, blaze it, blaze it (numb is only a feeling)

and i feel like i'm tired, leaning like a tower (numb is only a feeling)
eiffel like i'm tower, leaning like i'm tired (numb is only a feeling)
i feel like a tower (dangerous, oh) i feel like i'm tired
i feel, like i'm leaning, like i'm tired
i feel like i'm tired, leaning like a tower
(numb is only a feeling)
i feel like a tower, leaning like a tower
(numb is only a feeling, yuh)
leaning like i'm tired
eiffeel like a tower, leaning like i'm tired (numb is only a feeling, yeah)
leaning like i'm, leaning like i'm, leaning like i'm
(swervin on em, swervin on em, swervin on em)
i said, i'm falling asleep behind the wheel (numb is only a feeling)
said i'm falling asleep behind the wheel
i feel like i'm tired (numb is only a feeling) (dangerous, dangerous)
leaning like a tower
it stop, it stop, it stop, it stop (numb is only a feeling) (light it up!)
screeching, screeching, screeching, screeching (light it up!)
tires, tires, tires, tires (numb is only a feeling) (light it up!)
bleeding, bleeding, bleeding, bleeding (light it up!)
i'm screeching like some tires (light it up, yeah!)
screeching like some tires (light it up, yeah!) (leaning like a tower)
(i feel like i'm) screeching like some tires (light it up, blaze it, blaze it, blaze it, fire up, blaze it, blaze it, blaze it!) when it stop, it stop, it stop, it stop (aw, numb is only a feeling!)
screeching like some tires, when stopped, stopped, stopped, stopped
bleeding like attire when shot, shot, shot, shot (numb is only a feeling!)
(bleeding like a tire) falling asleep behind the wheel
(bleeding like a tire) said, i'm falling asleep behind the wheel
bl-bl-bleeding like attire, when it shot, it shot, it shot, it shot (falling asleep behind the wheel)
my mania got insomnia (screeching like some tires) (dangerou-ou-ous)
my mania is insomnia (dangerou-ou-ous)
my mania is insomnia (screeching like some tires, when stopped, stopped, stopped, stopped) (numb is only a)
my mania is insomnia
(numb, numb, numb is only a) screeching like some tires, when it stop, it stop, it stop, it stop
screeching like some tires, when it stop, it stop, it stop, it stop
my mania is insomnia (dangerou-ou-ous)
yeah my mania is insomnia (dangerou-ou-ous)
my mania is insomnia (dangerou-ou-ous)
my mania is insomnia
and i'm falling asleep behind the wheel (numb is only a feeling)
said, i'm falling asleep behind the wheel (yeah!)
said, i'm falling asleep behind the wheel (numb is only a feeling)
i'm falling asleep behind the wheel
say, numb is only a feeling (leaning like i'm tired, eiffeel like a tower)
numb is only a feeling (leaning like i'm tired)
eiffeel like a tower (i'm swervin on the road)
leaning like i'm tired (falling asleep behind the wheel) (look inside!)
feeling like a tower (my brain is insomnia) (look inside!)
i'm bleeding like attire (i don't know how to even feel) (look inside!)
bleeding like attire (but numb is only a feeling)
i feel like i'm tired
leaning like a tower (guess i'm... feeling)
leaning like a, leaning like a, leaning like a
i'm falling asleep

numb is only a feeling

numb is only a feeling

come fall, she nice again cause numb is only a feeling

surrender ft. perfectly dismantled

i thought i was over it.wav FT. MATTHIAS

part one, of ‘still love.’ — a sonic documentary about the journey and effects of marriage, infidelity, separation, and divorce. through my mind’s eye and my heart’s bottom.

“everybody knows about you, Ra. my family. i talk about you all the time. am i crazy?”

mmmmmm

wedlock got ü tongue tied
up, tossed, tangled and tussling with mine
parting your thighs like comb to scalp
glossing between
the comb my gat
lemme braid your hair, gurl
le le legally u his
but regally we know
the stars aligned for this
again
i knew u before
i said, i, i, i, i, i knew u before
this love feels like we repeating it
like u was my wife in another life
and i wonder if on me you’d cheated then
don’t matter
let me braid your hair, woman
you my moon
eclipse me
cause i do, i love you

now the skies could fall, fall, f a l l

open to discussions about what this piece brings up for you. share thoughts and feelings in the comments. let’s dig deeper and open up wider for collective healing ✍🏾✨

filmed by NineKai
directed, edited, sound engineered, written, vocalised, and performed by me, RA YUKAWA

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and i thank you.

still love.

sanaa of essex forest

sanaa of essex forest (no convo)

part one, of ‘still love.’ — a sonic documentary about the journey and effects of marriage, infidelity, separation, and divorce. through my mind’s eye and my heart’s bottom.

“everybody knows about you, Ra. my family. i talk about you all the time. am i crazy?”

mmmmmm

wedlock got ü tongue tied
up, tossed, tangled and tussling with mine
parting your thighs like comb to scalp
glossing between
the comb my gat
lemme braid your hair, gurl
le le legally u his
but regally we know
the stars aligned for this
again
i knew u before
i said, i, i, i, i, i knew u before
this love feels like we repeating it
like u was my wife in another life
and i wonder if on me you’d cheated then
don’t matter
let me braid your hair, woman
you my moon
eclipse me
cause i do, i love you

now the skies could fall, fall, f a l l

open to discussions about what this piece brings up for you. share thoughts and feelings in the comments. let’s dig deeper and open up wider for collective healing ✍🏾✨

filmed by NineKai
directed, edited, sound engineered, written, vocalised, and performed by me, RA YUKAWA

theyukawa.com — for more about this project.

@ nothingforeign — to share on Instagram.

@ LordRasquiat — to share on Twitter.

@ rayukawa — to share on TikTok.

and i thank you.

sanaa of essex forest (with convo)

Looking In (Mastered)

A summertime fling being obsessively led into autumn cuffs, “You too? Even you? (2020 Brut de Noirs)” is a palpable temptation of sexy, spicy danger. A mysterious match of passion struck. Masked intensity steaming from above devilish flames. An unspoken need-to-know and a rebellion of the unknown known. All of this, with deeply underlying distrust and the impending doom of betrayal. Distrust due to related trauma. Betrayal because of a deep need for communication within the romantic connection. It’s a muleta of emotions that make you wanna dance the matador of your heart to bloody death.

Part of my inspiration was Bachata, The Bay, and LA. Recently, I got into Anthony Santos and was moved by “Corazón Culpable”. It set my heart ablaze. I had the instrumental for “You too? Even you?” since 2020, unsure what to do with it, until I heard Anthony. I realised a need for expression of cloaked, brewing passion.

Lyrics / Letras:

Mami! (Ay, morena)
Simplicidad proporciona una fina línea entre elocuencia y llanura, ah?
I'ma need for you to say something, baby (Cuéntame)
I'ma need for, I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to (Cuéntame)
I'ma need for you to tell me all your secrets, for real (Háblame, dámelo)
I'ma need for you to
Yeah, I'ma need for you to

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
Y tú (Y tú, y tú, y tú)

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
No tú (No tú, no)
No tú, no tú, no tú

It's two ways, road paved, like so
Two-faced, masked up, could you take them masks off?
Two plays, double C's, too cool for the both
Eyes shady, blocking me like UV, but it snow
And it rain, cold water, ice suede
Too smooth for my love, so I see, so why change?
On the rocks, easy over, I don't know why I stay
You the avocado toast brunch to my OJ with champagne
But this ain't sunny California and mimosas give me aches
Like my heart when I think too much about the love we've made
In poetic tandem
You a very bad one
Sneaky, sneaky, love then leave me - what I do for that, huh?
Greedy, greedy, want to eat me like a meal or snack, huh?
Then spit me out for being too much of what you really want
Ain't that crazy? Or am I crazy?
Cause none of this done happened, but I'm thinking maybe, maybe

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
No tú (No tú, no tú, no tú, no tú)

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
Y tú
Y tú, y tú, y tú

I'ma need for you to say something, baby
I'ma need for, I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to tell me all your secrets, for real
I'ma need for you to
I'ma need for you to

Tell me what you feeling when you feeling bout me
Tell me what you wanting, if you wanting something at all
And you could
Tell me what you thinking when you thinking bout me
Tell me what you fiending, if you needing nothing at all
I mean I
I popped a bottle, just to have a conversation
Opened up the glass, to open up your heart, for a start
Then I might
Swim in your soul, take a dip through your aura
Learn the shores of from which your true waves depart
Work of art, I said I
Love everything about your diamond mind
I find that I should show you how I feel with my hands
Understand, if we could
Release the inhibitions, I'll paint this world
Where you're my lady, and I'm fully your man
Pero perdóname

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome, yeah)
Y tú (Mm, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no)

Sea lo que hagas (No sé)
Me mata el alma (Te escondes)
No, no me hablas (Traicionándome)
Y tú, y tú, y tú, y tú, y

I'ma need for you to say something, baby (I'ma need to)
Tell me what you wanting, if you wanting something at all (I'ma need for you to)
And I'ma need for you to tell me all your secrets, for real
Tell me what you fiending, if you needing nothing at all, I mean I!
Mami!
Rasquiat, you know it

You too? Even you? (2020 Brut de Noirs)

You Too? Even You? (2020 Brut De Noirs)

Home

Looking In

Peace.
Uh...
It’s me.
I know it’s not cute to be a martyr...
So… I won’t be…

Smelling like this old house, until we’re moving.
Apple and maple bourbon mixed into it.
Patchouli and amber undertones.
DampRid can’t kill the time alone,
so I’ll burn this candle and an incense.
Cashmere essence on my clothes.
Crack windows and put my oils on.
Myrrh my pores, pulling all day long
until the nighttime comes…

Like sun to dawn,
kissing my cheeks.
This mirror’s blue.
Bubbles we blew —
yours grey, mines green.

Broken bulbs symbolise the darkness.
Cracks in walls, dirt on the frames.
These doors don’t close here like they used to.
Hell, some won’t lock or move all the way.

That deck out back! It’s falling apart.
Step out with caution, the wood is shaky.
Them damn termites and water bugs!
Nesting so sweetly, eating our foundation.

We got no shutters anymore.
The shed feels haunted.
And you wanna take a tour?!
Unofficial remodels —
clutching dust bunnies, giving wallets core…
And getting nothing, but we

smelling like this old house, until we’re moving.
Apple and maple bourbon mixed into it.
Patchouli and amber undertones.
DampRid can’t kill the time alone,
so I’ll burn this candle and an incense.
Cashmere essence on my clothes.
Crack windows and put my oils on.
Myrrh my pores, pulling all day long…

When the nighttime comes,
I hope I smell like you
and your home so built from the ground and new.
When the nighttime comes,
I hope I smell like you
and your car so clean and twenty twenty-two.
When the nighttime falls,
just put it all on me!
My house is old and my car is too!
When the good times roll,
just give me everything,
and I’ll pretend to live in sweet dreams with you…

I know you gotta go…

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Production — idly blare
Sound Engineering — RA YUKAWA
Vocals — RA YUKAWA
Songwriting — RA YUKAWA

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