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@rivilin

Lyrics

I feel like an idiot
Like every single word that out coming out my mouth is shit, lately

I ain't talking its a bitch
Cuz every single word I'm just depressing all my friends, shaky

I ain't wanna face this
Demons in me got a lot of faces
Oh no no

Mental state is straight shit
Some days I aint really think I'll make it
Oh no no

I know they wanna see me on a stage
But know that I am terrified when eyes are on my face

They say my music saved the day
But every single day I struggle with anxiety

I used to want my shoes yeah
But now I'm standing here and fuck my head is still same

Thought it would've changed shit
But now I realize that happiness needs pain

Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess im nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know im nothing, so you drain me out to be reused

You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you 
Till he comes back around and you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
Im sick of screaming awake here's a big fuck to you

Cus I am done with being on the low why you gotta hide me so
like are you just embarrassed of me, I feel like I am nothing
I hear your ex-best friend talk about how much your happier
That's fucking unfair when you left everyone in the gutter

I guess it's time I moved on and just learned to fucking grow
I know I hurt a lot of people on this path you sowed 
For me and my best friend, didn't know what love really was
I can't just blame you for everything but the drugs were your fault

I felt like I was euthanized laying on the cough half alive
Stuck in a tunnel vision overthinking trapped in my mind
Makes me feel like im redundant never wanna be by my side
You woke me up at 2 am to watch your veins just collide

How do you think it makes me feel watching a suicide attempt
You know it fucked my mental state you watching me with contempt
Like was this my fucking fault I always tried my fucking best
I knew I wasn't enough I took my chances and I left

Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess im nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know im nothing, so you drain me out to be reused

You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you 
Till he comes back around and you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
Im sick of screaming awake here's a big fuck to you

I Guess I'm Nothing

⸸ spotify ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - I Guess I'm Nothing

Spotify/Apple🟢🔴

No Racks! (Prod. Suysuce)

I’m here contemplating, am I worth saving,
no, I don’t think so
Your stuck here debating, if your gonna ask me 
what I’ve really been through

the past few years I’ve almost died 4 times
look into my eyes, say that you’re gonna be just fine
it’s not like I don’t believe you
I’ve just been here a few times; I hope I don’t deceive you

I know you listen to this song
I know you feel my pain yeah; it’s fucking all wrong
Cus Your cutting me in two cutting me in three
Let the doctors come and take all a part of me

Cus your gonna be the death of me
I know your watching crawling here slowly
I couldn’t get out, I tried to leave
But you keep coming back yeah you fucking haunt me

Hang me by the noose, let me fucking fall
I’m dangling by my legs yeah, I don’t care at all
One day I’m not gonna be that strong 
Let the noose take my breath and end my last song

I’m here contemplating, am I worth saving,
no, I don’t think so
Your stuck here debating, if your gonna ask me 
what I’ve really been through


I’m here contemplating, am I worth saving,
no, I don’t think so
yeah, I’m stuck here debating 
I don’t know if I hate you, but I think where through

I think I’m going insane lately,
Ups and down make me go crazy
I don’t know how to control me
Sinking into self-pity

Again, again, it’s always just me
Fighting on two sides never really winning
I’m trying to figure out who I am
Generic fucking story, yeah, I don’t really care

I’m just doing me Try to understand man
Cus no one really understands what you’re going through
Except you
you listen to these songs hoping you’ll be saved to

alone

I got places, i draw faces, i leave the canvas black 
for all cases, divine judgement is not racist 

I see ghosts right beside of me, 
Day by day they just take away the life from me, 

No vision, but cold vision, they try to take my wave with nose digging,
EMPTY KID WITH NO FIGURES, I GOT MY OWN CODE, WITH GOLD SCRIPTURES,
THEY DONT UNDERSTAND ME CAUSE I JOKE DIFFERENT,

(Chorus)
Ima die lonely, i see the light slowly, take your time on me, they got an eye on me x4



Dead choices, and dead voices, i hear none
Fake emotions, and fake love, just get lost
Light Yagami,with dead bodies, I let none 
I became a villain in short time, i hate lust 






I claimed a vision, and never thought, that I'd see the start
Now i'm the one that the devil wants to come tear apart, 
Live a life alone, a broken kid, with a broken heart,
Never thought, that the pain would play such a major part 

I'm sick and twisted, fuck it I'm conflicted
Aint a person round me that can fuckin tell me different. 
 

Ima die lonely x 4

Die Lønley (prod. Purple Hex)

Cold, I don't feel a thing, I know it's troubling.

So, what do I do now? I've got to go find myself. 

x2





It's cold in my socks, when I walk, I freeze in my place
I need an escape,


They tell me they love me, I wanna be free from the hate. 
no it won't be of this way. 

I spoke to a demon today,


He told me they wouldn't believe what I'm saying.
So what is the use if I speak of my brain.
I wish I could just flee into space, without even leaving a trace,




I should proceed, and just move on with silence,
Cause no one can find about the things i did 



Call me itachi, I only embody the evil,
I need to save all these people.


All of my trust, all of it's gone

 I shoot for the moon, I shoot for the stars,
I shoot for the dead, I shoot for my cause. 
I shoot at your eyes, I shoot at your heart. 







I SCREAM AT THE GODS, WHO IS IN CHARGE,
i WAS BORN INSIDE OF PANDORA'S BOX 





till this day i watch society rot,
kill everything till it finally stops. 
wish the day comes when im finally gone

WHY AM I THE ONE THAT'S DYING SO YOUNG X 3 


see all the shit that i live with
very young odd kid living  - x4

Antihero (prod. silentnight)

Lyrics
All The Trees Are Dying As I Speak
Winter Is Coming 
Winter Is Coming

All The Trees Are Dying As I Speak
Winter Is Coming 

I Can't Feel My Fingers Cause I'm Freezing To Death
Standing By The Fire But There's No Spark Left
I've Been Tryna Reignite
I've Been Tryna Reignite

I Keep Doing Stupid Shit Cause It's The Only Thing That Makes Me Feel
People Think I Fake But They Don't Know That It's Real
People Go Away Cause They Don't Know How To Feel
I Just Lay Back Let My Feelings Take The Wheel

Trying To Ignite The Passion That I Once Had
Feeling Pretty Lonely , I'm Not Talking To My Dad
Young Days In The City Were The Best Days That I Had
Buying Yu-gi Cards After Eating A Dessert 

I Can't Feel My Fingers Cause I'm Freezing To Death
Standing By The Fire But There's No Spark Left
I've Been Tryna Reignite
I've Been Tryna Reignite

I Can't Feel My Fingers Cause I'm Freezing To Death
Standing By The Fire But There's No Spark Left
I've Been Tryna Reignite
I've Been Tryna Reignite

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Reignite (Prod.Metlast)

Lyrics
Crying In Your Basement You Can't Replace Me
Crying In Your Room Because I Refuse To Spoon
Tearing You Apart , We Really Fell Apart
Knew It From The Start Guess I'ma Break Your Heart

Crying In Your Basement You Can't Replace Me
Crying In Your Room Because I Refuse To Spoon
Tearing You Apart , We Really Fell Apart
Knew It From The Start Guess I'ma Break Your Heart

Ah Ah Ah Ahh
Ah Ah Ah Ahh

Crying In Your Basement You Can't Replace Me
Crying In Your Room Because I Refuse To Spoon
Tearing You Apart , We Really Fell Apart
Knew It From The Start Guess I'ma Break Your Heart

Crying In Your Basement You Can't Replace Me
Crying In Your Room Because I Refuse To Spoon
Tearing You Apart , We Really Fell Apart
Knew It From The Start Guess I'ma Break Your Heart

Crying In Your Basement (Prod.Tundrabeats)

Lyrics
You Know That Shit Hurts When You Lie To me
My Head Is Full Of Anxiety
Can't Go Out Cause I Know That They'll Judge Me
No One Likes Me , I Swear That No One Likes Me

You Know That Shit Hurts When You Lie To me
My Head Is Full Of Anxiety
Can't Go Out Cause I Know That They'll Judge Me
No One Likes Me

So I'll Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

It's Been A Rough
Couple Of Months
Stayed Inside
For Most Of The Time
That's Where I Hide
That's Where I Stay
I Won't Be Remembered When I'm In The Grave
That's What's On My Mind
That's What's On My Mind

Barred Out Mind
I Can't Think
That's Why I Like Taking Pills
Xanax Bars, Alprazolam 
I Can't Think When I'm On Xans

Barred Out Mind
I Can't Think
That's Why I Like Taking Pills
Xanax Bars, Xanax Bars
I Can't THink When I'm On Bars

So I'll Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

Stay Inside
Just One Last Time
I'll Stay Inside
Smoking Weed , Getting High
To Cope With Life
Just One More Night
Gotta Stay Alive
Gotta Stay Alive

Anxiety (Prod.Playdead)

Goth Girl (feat. Paradoxx & XzarchiX)

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Lyrics:

RIVILIN:

Cast aside, paint me on the wall
Living in my dreams false sense of hope, I think im gonna fall
Mess collides anxious on the floor
Watching you sink into me, I feel like I have been here before.

Water dripping down my throat, I choke, you gloat
At depression, you say its always been your friend
But you pretend with the side effects, triple vision all bent 
I never got the messages that you say you sent

Large debt, small head, you say, I left 
Repetition, cant see for everything you blame me
What’s this, more lies, my love, your theft 
You wanna bring up the facts of something that I couldn’t be


There’s a swell building up inside my chest
They say its just an illness, they say it’s for the best
Living a lie, no I didn’t try
My mental state is a joke

It’s just a condition, I can’t make decisions
Say my life’s not fact just fiction
You know its these issues you know that I miss you
I don’t wanna live that life man

Panic attacks, can’t breathe just shaking
Tunnel vision, this is how I live on the daily 
Manic, maybe, suicide, hate me
What do you know about me when im breaking

Playing with hearts didn’t mean to get that far
Trying to drown in sex, but im tripping over bars
Xanax yah, losing uh
All I do now is dissociate.

Make me up from something worth saving
Break me till im just worth hating
Chemical overdose
Drowning under losing all hope

A spiral that never dies prescription ghost
You take control and I’ve lost the choice
Of where I could have been
Without you.


$LOTHBOI:

Sink down
We drown
From pain in sorrow, breakdown

Sink down
We drown
Full panic, feel manic, calmdown

I’m spiraling
From Quarantine
I’m drinking red
Mixed wit a bean

Hit a 80 g
Cuz Ima fiend
Had that oxy on me you ain’t know b

And I met your parents when I was high as fuck
Then you played with death and I had enough

Fuck your suicide
You cut me up
And I know you wanna see me hit the buck

I ain’t bout that shit
But I got a fix
But I’m tryna quit
Cuz I ain’t bouta kick 

I ain’t bouta bitch
That’s a fucking mess
Cuz I been thru trauma
And that’s a fucking bet

So hit a lick
Then I hit a sip
Then I hit a bitch
But I ain’t hurt her bet

I been locked inside
For a couple weeks
And my phone been ringing
Its the devil b

Sink down
We drown
From pain in sorrow, breakdown

Sink down
We drown
Full panic, feel manic, calmdown

Prescription Ghost Ft. $LOTHBOI

RiverKinn
"Medicine"
Produced by RiverKinn

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It's raining in my head again
It's the feeling that I chase
I need to take my medicine
But I can't stand the taste
So my chest gets heavy
And my face goes numb
And my heart begins to race
What a waste

I feel my throat begin to swell and close
As if I didn't tell myself to open up at all to you
It's hard enough for me to act composed
When you're around me
Let alone know how to deal with anything
I'm going through

It's raining in my head again
It's the feeling that I chase
I need to take my medicine
But I can't stand the taste
So my chest gets heavy
And my face goes numb
And my heart begins to race
What a waste
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@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXX

Medicine

NY Cap , Nike Pants

Vibe supplier

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