Suicide doors on the coupe, no fear
Whole life open, I’m finally here
If it end tonight, I’m clear
I done lived through worse, my dear
Suicide doors to the pain I knew
Everything dark got a different hue
Now I slide through rain like new
Ain’t runnin’ .. just passin’ through

Suicide Doors

In my midnight mansion, I can’t find rest
All these memories dressed in my Sunday best
I got ghosts wearin’ Cartier chains on their necks
And I still toast alone to the ones I forget
Yeah, I built my dream with broken hands
Now I’m king of what I can’t understand
In my midnight mansion, I can’t find rest
Just reflections of the man I left

Midnight Mansion

So I’m high again, way past gone Feelin’ like the world still do me wrong Got the city lights singin’ my song And I’m alright as long as it’s strong Yeah, I’m high again, out my zone Still ain’t learn to leave it alone They say I should change, maybe so But I only feel real when I’m gone

high again

I've been driving past your exit for the last six months
Tell myself I'm just going this way for work
But there's three other routes and we both know
I'm hoping that I'll see your car
Even though I know I shouldn't wanna see your car

'Cause what the fuck would I even say?
"Sorry I became a stranger in the middle of everything"?

I used to be the driver, now I'm just a passenger
Watching my own life like I'm not even here
Used to have opinions, now I just agree
Used to feel everything, now I don't feel anything
I used to be somebody, at least I think I was
Now I can't remember who I was before
Before I became whatever this is

My brother says I should start dating, get back out there
Like finding someone new would fix whatever's wrong in here
I can barely stand myself most days
How the fuck am I supposed to let someone else stay?
Plus I'd just compare them all to you anyway

And that's not fair to them or me
But nothing really is, so fuck it

I used to be the driver, now I'm just a passenger
Watching my own life like I'm not even here
Used to have opinions, now I just agree
Used to feel everything, now I don't feel anything
I used to be somebody, at least I think I was
Now I can't remember who I was before
Before I became whatever this is

And I'm not saying it's your fault
I'm just saying I don't recognize myself at all
Since you left, I've just been coasting
And I'm scared that I've been coasting so long
I forgot how to drive

I don't wanna be a passenger anymore
Watching my own life through some bulletproof door
I used to give a shit, I used to try
Now I'm just killing time until I die
I don't wanna be a passenger
I just wanna feel like myself again
Whoever that is

I drove past your exit again today
But this time I kept going
This time I kept going

Passenger

I was working double shifts at the factory floor
Living in a one-room with a broken door
Didn’t have much but I had my pride
Then you walked in and something changed inside
You didn’t care about the rust on my old truck
Or that I was broke and down on my luck
You saw straight through to the man I hide
Said “baby, let me in, don’t run this time”

So come find me when the world gets heavy
When I’m lost out in the dark already
Be the light that cuts through all my walls
Come find me, I’m ready to fall
Into your arms where I can finally breathe
Baby, come find me

You got a way of making silence feel like home
Your hand in mine means I’m not alone
Never knew I needed saving till you came around
Now I can’t imagine ever letting you down
Every scar I got, you kiss like gold
Every fear I have, you hold
Girl, you make the broken parts of me
Feel like they’re exactly where they’re supposed to be

I’ve been running all my life from feeling this way
But you stand there patient, baby you stay
And I don’t know what I did to deserve your grace
But I thank God every night you didn’t walk away
[Final Chorus - stripped]
Come find me when the world gets heavy
When I’m lost out in the dark already
Be the light, you’re all I’ll ever need
Baby, you found me

Come Find Me

Don’t call when I’m up, you ain’t there when I’m low
You just wanna flex off the shine I show
Don’t fake what you can’t reload
If it ain’t real love, I’d rather be solo
Yeah, I’m done chasin’ fake respect
Had to lose you just to get my breath
Don’t call when I’m up, don’t text
You ain’t earned what’s next

Don't Call Me When I'm Up

It's Sunday and I'm fine
Told myself I'd be productive, do the laundry, meal prep
Watched six hours of nothing, ordered Postmates instead
It's Sunday and I'm fine
Weekend's over, didn't leave the house once
Nothing's wrong, nothing's right
It's just Sunday

Sunday

Candy paint, but the rust still show
I just learned to make the cracks look cold
Yeah, I’m ridin’ clean through what I know
Whole lotta hurt under this glow
Candy paint, but I still bleed real
Can’t fake what the grind revealed
If it look too sweet, that’s steel
Candy paint don’t hide what I feel

Don't Call Me When I'm Up

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