What if I stayed? What if I fight? What if I show up at your door tonight? What if you want me? What if it's not too late? What if I'm wasting time being too afraid? What if, what if, what if? I can't keep living in the what ifs What if this is my last chance? What if, what if, what if? I gotta know

What If

Matte black whip and my heart's a match Both look clean but they're scratched Wrapped it up so you can't see through Matte black me, matte black you No reflection, that's the point Flat finish on a broken joint Matte black everything I own Painted over but it still shows

Matte Black

Black on black everything fading to the dark Black on black can't find the light to restart Living in the shadows where nobody sees Black on black that's all that's left of me (Black on black black on black) Everything turning to black on black (Black on black black on black) Can't find my way back from black on black

black on black

I lose control Every time you're close, I lose control Can't think, can't breathe when you're this close You own my heart and soul, I lose control I lose control, lose control And I don't even mind I lose control, lose control With you every time I lose control

all the things I didn't say

These are my sober thoughts at 3 AM Wide awake and feeling everything again The truth hits different when I'm lying here alone These are my sober thoughts, and they all lead back to you Yeah, these are my sober thoughts, the ones I can't undo And they all lead back, they all lead back They all lead back to you

Sober Thoughts

If I’m falling, I’m falling forward, Through the dark, toward the border. Every scar’s a map I’ve drawn, Every loss just led me on. If I’m breaking, I’m breaking open, Still in love with the motion. I don’t need to find the way If I’m falling, I’m falling forward anyway.

FALLING FORWARD

We built it high so we wouldn’t feel small,
But the higher it gets, the harder we fall.
Every truth we tried to bury
Just echoes off the walls.
It’s pretty ’til it cuts too deep,
We shine, we break, we bleed.
And I see what no one sees 
The cracks beneath this glass city.

Glass City

You loved the highs, you held the lows, When I forgot what I was worth, you still hoped. Even when I disappeared, You were the reason I’m still here. You never asked who I should be, You just loved every version of me.

Every Version of Me

Midnight coated, everything painted in the shade Walkin’ through a world that I built but it feels homemade I’ve been runnin’ from the quiet when the quiet hits back Midnight coated, everything slipping into black (Midnight coated, midnight coated) Wish I knew how to detach (Midnight coated, midnight coated) Tryna climb out but it pulls me back

MIDNIGHT COATED

Jet black pressure when I move through the night Walkin’ through the city like the rules ain’t right Every single step feel covered in demand Jet black pressure, everything in my hands (Jet black pressure, jet black pressure) If they want smoke, I’m the standard they measure (Jet black pressure, jet black pressure) Every line hit sharper than a ledger

Jet Black Pressure

Overcast mind, can’t outrun the weather Stuck in a storm I designed together Everybody think I’m fine on sight Overcast mind, tryna live through night (Overcast mind, overcast mind) Pressure in the air that I can’t define (Overcast mind, overcast mind) But I keep walkin’ like it’s by design

Overcast Mind

Houston Texas but the pain made me. I do it for the love the game.

What If

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