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"teenage emotions"

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Credits:

(prod. nullisdead)

CIMAHI

teenage emotions prod. nullisdead

i still see blue

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/user-411557229
prod: saint mike
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

writing out these letters
lately i can't help
but pray that i get better 
i'm stuck in my own hell
talk to me slow,
don't let me go 

we were so happy,
what happened?
stuck on the past tense
sometimes i miss it 
it's hard to forget it 
blue,
(i still see blue)
i still think of you
(i still think of you)

lay by the lake,
i was never the same 

baby ima masochist at best
got a lot of scars on my chest 
i was your porcelain puppet 
cracks line over my stomach
even with my body going numb
i still wished to feel the cuts 
and after everything was done
i still wanna be your one

(residential:)
am i bothering at all?
kinda wish you stayed 
is it someone else's palms
or the portraits that i framed

is it killing you at all?
cause i can't say the same 
the hazel in your eyes
is embalmed into my brain 

i cant sleep at night 
it's better with time
but i'll

pull it together
keep my dignity tethered
guess it's better than never
your words here forever

(skele:)
fucking wasted my time
still on the back of my mind
fucking wasted my life 
oh trust me, i tried
(trust me i, trust me i tried)



after everything (w/ residential)

lyrics


mucus and blood drip down the walls
none this feel the same at all
i had seen you way you were
way you were
THE WAY YOU WERE

biting in
see the walls around me start to spin
i think its the way i
i think its the way i process 
shit im better eating you

i cant
focus
you gone now
its bogus 

shooting myself in the foot
isnt it just what you want
isnt it just what you asked of me
i feel like somebodies after me

feel it take over my head
and my brain
and my body
im sick
and im vomiting
blood
look inside am i someone you love
someone u trust
im better off dust

biting in
see the walls around me start to spin
i think its the way i
i think its the way i process 
shit im better eating you

focus (p. hollowprpl)

i hate the color of red
wish that i wouldn’t of guessed
when you were stressed 
cuz i went to bed
but doesnt matter no more
luckily i got picked right off the floor
cuz i got my trust in the lord
i got my trust in the lord

devil let me go
one more glance til were wrapped in gold
one last dance while im laughin a fool
and i want it but i cant cuz i know i wont control

yea gotta get my mind straight
gotta get it out the gutter gotta migrate

i dont know why all my homies wanna frustrate
me when they already see that i got a full plate

wonder why everyone lookin at me
i already said that in a couple of songs
but i gotta get that fact outta my brain
so ill spill it out til im feelin different 

walkin along im feelin distant
what to unlock, a better position
i had felt better when i couldnt leave
now when i go out i stand there and freeze

oh no brodie deceased
hope hes heaven lookin down at me
wishin and beggin youd come back to see
cuz we were eleven scrapin our knees

cant let those memories fade
we were out every night fishin the lake
they were all snakes
but you stayed the same
cant let contradictary feelings change

all of the pain that still up in my brain
hope it away before i go insane
cuz i got some problems and they kinda stained
so im feeling horrible out in the rain


i hate the color of red
wish that i wouldn’t of guessed
when you were stressed 
cuz i went to bed
never impressed so thats why u left
and i used to drink til i blacked out 
then id wonder why i act out
i was depressed and stuck in my head
im sorry for everything rude that i said


but now theres a difference cuz ill take the blame
all of my energy shiftin my frame
in consious reality i see that im only ever really givin pain
i promise you nobody likes gettin shade
its a game when you walk ina room and they change
all the time i feel like i need a break
but ill still be livin as long as im paid

red (nate2timez x yunnygoldz)

abyss, part two: soulsplitter

brokenlights

brokenlights (p. ryan kelly)

forgetme (p. ryankelly + nihil2free)

prod Michael Harrison :)

i promise, i had on the tip of my tongue
these things never really work, thats just my luck
why are all my friendships just falling apart 
cant ignore i know the reason, its just not what i want

im so frustrated 
lost all my patience 
we dont talk alot im sorry 
know that i dont say this enough
just know ur in my thoughts
promise to keep in touch
maybe i
maybe i think too much

in touch

lyrics 

i never wanted to be your savior 
looking back 
im jus an entertainer for you
centered on you
centered on you
need to matter to u
are you happy now 
happy now 
im bleeding out in front of u
if i could id rip that smile off ur face

if i had a chance id kill u
and id eat ur skin
if i had a choice
id back out
back inside my ritt
i just punched the wall so hard 
i damn near broke my wrist
it gets harder breathing out
with a broken rib

and i claw out my eyes
so i cant see what i’ve done 
and i rip out my throat 
so i cant speak to anyone 
oh im starved
oh im starved
oh im starved
oh im
oh im
oh im

what would it take 
for u to listen when i warn you
im in the party bleeding out
in the corner
is it me 
or are the lights shutting off
pls check my wrist so that im truly gone

i never wanted to be your savior 
looking back 
im jus an entertainer for you
centered on you
centered on you
need to matter to u
are you happy now 
happy now 
im bleeding out in front of u
if i could id rip that smile off ur face

if i had a chance id kill u
and id eat ur skin
if i had a choice
id back out
back inside my ritt
i just punched the wall so hard 
i damn near broke my wrist
it gets harder breathing out
with a broken rib

wipe that stupid smile off your face (p. wraithontheporch)

SaveYou

This track blends the raw emotion of emo rap and sadtrap with dreamy cloud rap vibes and melodic pop rap elements. Inspired by artists like Lil Peep, Lil Tracy, Brennan Savage, Killstation, and Smokeasac, this song channels themes of depression and heartbreak through the lens of emo hip hop. It's a sound that fans of GothBoiClique (GBC), Horse Head, and Shrimp will resonate with — deeply personal lyrics layered over melancholic melodies. If you're into the alternative edge of alt rock fused with trap beats, or if you connect with the emotional landscapes crafted by MysticPhonk, this one’s for you. A track for the depressed, the dreamers, and anyone who finds solace in sad songs.

Lyrics:
all alone
on my own
can't find home
where to go

I am all alone
Always on my own
Never could find home
Don't know where to go

I know the reason you're here
I'm afraid can't help you dear
That's the problem with me I just can't feel
I can't feel

I've freezed just so much
Don't know how to love
My heart is is frozen now

Like alice in the wonderland
Falling into madness again
How much more can my mind take
can my mind take?

Often I wonder again
Have I lost myself again
Was I really ever here?
ever here?

freezed so much (prod. lxst ghxul x brent beats)

Schizophoria - WrittenInTheStars (UV6X7 s0ftskelet0ns)

emo rap
artist / mixing and mastering engineer

Microphone:		Audio-Technica AT2035
Headphones:		Audio-Technica ATH-M20x
Interface:		Focusrite Scarlett 2i2
DAW:			FL Studio 24 / Presonus Studio One 7

freezed so much (prod. lxst ghxul x brent beats)

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