this is lowkey my favourite red letter diary song

all by me
april 2025

i fell asleep into the next week
you couldn’t stitch me together, i lost my teeth
it makes my throat hurt when i say nothing
i miss when the silence didn’t sound like me

leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
this key doesn’t fit anymore and the door looks wrong
leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
your voice sounds so much worse when it’s in my phone

i wanna fall in love again even if it kills me like the last time did
i wanna fall in love again even if it drains me ‘til there’s nothing left

just call me again if it ever gets that bad
but i forget how to talk when you tell me not to laugh
i lose so much sleep when i try to trace those cracks
like maybe it’ll spell out everything i wish i had

Like the last time

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/65gWW5syaM2h3Zb1LfYoYP?si=YIWNap8uSDiuc4yx0F49dg

artwork by me, @camdenn and @aellzis
s//o @trustt and @hiisero for big inspo

lyrics:
i sacrificed every moment to be, just like you
and ive been way too dishonest to seem, just like you
i know i wont last long but i want to change
watch how the meaning gets lost, when i say ''okay''

(pre-drop)
oh, but i know, its true
i could never be like you
well i fell for you
biting more than i can chew
but i know, its true
i can never be like you
what a shattered view
tell me we wont split in 2

its been far too long
and fat too late
i like to stay alone
its okay, its okay
if more hours pass
imma go insane
just wanna fade away, its okay, its okay

cuz ive been acting too toxic
ive been way too annoying
tell me now its the time i say goodbye
ive been begging for something
in the end i got nothing
walk away with the fact i couldve died

how to become somebody else

prod me this beat is from twenty twenty four
@omgisai
https://soundcloud.com/forgentoad/pressure
https://soundcloud.com/distrancee/weekends

@lynyou
u wont ever get it watch the way im steppin
mfs desperate get tf up out my mentions
try to copy me im in a whole nother dimension
i was making money u was busy playing genshin
labels in my dms i didnt even pay attention
lucky that im still here man its such a blessing
take too many risks i got blood up on my linen
sorry that yo bros lost u couldnt prevent it

woke up tired asf im still getting paid
i dont even like u it was just a phase
bitch i burned the book wasnt tryna turn the page
tried to shut me out now u begging me to stay

@omgisai
yeah they begging me to stay
i could never switch up on my bros
i will never change
my pockets full w percs & adderall i cannot be tamed
when i hop on the stage they all know my name
they all know my name
theres some kids that i knew way back yeah they still acting the same
if it's a problem w you
whos it right to blame
i aint never sane we put a bullet to your brain

@lynyou
its not what it seems when u see it 😲😲
i got enough money u can keep it
i dont trust u cant tell u my secrets
u dont wanna be my friend u want my preset

u wont ever get it watch the way im steppin
mfs desperate get tf up out my mentions
try to copy me im in a whole nother dimension
i was making money u was busy playing genshin
labels in my dms i didnt even pay attention
lucky that im still here man its such a blessing
take too many risks i got blood up on my linen
sorry that yo bros lost u couldnt prevent it

dimension +isai

prod kay @3eight9 , qlein @qlein <3 「デモ」

you know that it's all out of love
pressure in my chest 'cause i'm dumb
and the picture's out of frame 'cause i broke it
you know me too well just to go, yeah

last time when was it the last time
i could have been the person for you
my mind i thought i had messed up
'cause i'm the worst person you know
oo-ooh
you know x5

you know it's not ok but you're still alright
'cause there's not much left to go
i know we don't have time to say goodbye
but i still want to know (oo-ooh)
was it worth it i don't know (oo-ooh)
promise i'll think of you some more

you know that it's all out of love
pressure in my chest 'cause i'm dumb
and the picture's out of frame 'cause i broke it
you know me too well just to go, yeah

last time when was it the last time
i could have been the person for you
my mind i thought i had messed up
'cause i'm the worst person you know
oo-ooh
you know x5

u know

image title-ai is definitely the king rn

this a lil throw away
prod2xcond

plz catch me

prod @vihefoie
additional production @v2nthan

lyrics:
tell me what you're thinking
bring you to a place you never been to
I know we got issue
baby, fuck the past lets start new (x4)

I hear your words going around and around
I can't fix you, all in my head again
I see you showing off yourself in downtown
I need tissues, in my bed where I can't

I can't feel myself, tell that bitch to go to hell
I'm just chilling with my bros, we ain't need no help yeah
Do this for myself, decisions show or tell
hope this message finds you well, cause I never even cared yeah

poppin pills till I can't see a thing, feel my arms just started weakening
RIP thats what my shooters sing (x2)

I'm passed that girl i'm on another
always knew I'm so much better (than you)
I still carry thoughts of you in summer
left to dry out in the gutter

StartNew

prod @deepinparis & @rhekdens

feat @7akkiro

@deepinparis :

when i see the bands i hit my dance
went and cut down all the weeds so i could grow up my plants
im with akkiro he the money making man
got a bag for the cash thats the cash making bag
think of this shit man it all makes me sad yeah
if you switch up for a bitch that gets you tagged yeah
flowin up on every single beat cuz thats the pattern
bitch im thinking bout the times when i had her
im just thinking bout the times when i lost it
yeah i hate myself and its worrying me often
i cant wish em well cuz i know my heart is knotted
i just heard your new song and its not it

@7akkiro :
idk idk anything at all
not a problem
anything u do u run em off
know i made more 
more than what u made in a month
i get payed more
ik u gon struggle w ur funds like

we got funds right
my bro crubling the weed we gon spark right
he try pushing up on me he get shot right
we gon spin back we gon get that 
bro go get ur lick back

i got racks all on me 
he try gon try to push up on my team like yea
wake up everyday im counting cheese
see him thru the lens get hit with beams like yea

do my dance ft akkiro prod me & rhek

**soundcloud turned this tf down bc i master my music correctly so turn it back up yourself pls <3**

this is my longest song so far, ive been trying a lot of new things this year like songs over one minute so count this as like 4 and a half songs


spend my time away from the screen
last time that i die in a dream
glaciers rolling off of my wrist
they dont turn back
spend my time away from the screen
last time that i die in a dream
glaciers rolling off of my wrist
they dont turn back time

say you love me while youre pulling me home
sculpt me softly while youre crushing my bones
say you love me while youre pulling me home
say you love me while you x2
say you love me while youre pulling me home
sculpt me softly while youre crushing my bones

sculpt me softly

help from @young_particular and @ronensmelodie
ib: @coreylingo

Lyrics:

The first time
You said it wasn't nothing
I clinged onto hope and the trusting
And then I tried to find a way (oh no)

And now the second time I'm waiting
And then my mind is losing patience
Yeah, your heart is being dangerous
And I can't stand here to take it

So I said I had enough
The things ain't adding up
You want me dead in here
It's just the two of us
And it's constantly
Why aren't you taking me

And then I question myself
Asking why am I here
I take the answer and find
That it's not even clear

Leave it, doll
Leave me there
Leave it all
Leave me square
Can't run now
Can't run fair
Leave me there
Oh, leave me there

I said I had enough
The things ain't adding up
You want me dead in here
It's just the two of us
And it's constantly
Why aren't you taking me

Like the last time

red letter diary

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