this is lowkey my favourite red letter diary song

Originally was a @katiekross song titled 'assisted suicide' then I realized how corny that sounds

When the time comes around
Will you still want me for who I am
When the day gets cold and boring
Will you still want me for who I am

A fantasy where I went missing
I daydream about it
Thank you God for abandoning me
I got what I wanted

I forget how old I really am
And I use that as an excuse to be stupid

Daydream

prod/vox/mix: me

you spend your days
punching through tv screens
screaming at other
men in a boxing ring
and you could get out
if you really wanted to
buy a new house
cut out this part of you

i’m holding on
soaked in resentment
claw at the past
anything but the present
i’ll lie on my back
stare at the ceiling
just tell me you love me
or know how i'm feeling

you spend your days
punching through tv screens
screaming at other
men in a boxing ring
and you could get out
if you really wanted to
buy a new house
cut out this part of you

if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens?

i bet you thought
that you talked to god
on that night that i met you
and said you're the one
drunk off attention my
guard wasn't drawn
when you weren't who you are now
just falling for someone

if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens? (i could get up)
if you can see the future what happens? (if i really wanted to)
if you can see the future what happens? (buy a new body, erase every part of you)

tv / taroter

prod @lyn_u
cover art @trustt

@lyn_u
i got 2 racks on my body i got 2 racks for my twin
i cant switch up on nobody thats a mf sin
i feel like im chosen bitch all i do is win
dropped a bag on these jeans then i do that shit again
i just walked right out the bank boy i dont gotta play pretend
i got money coming fast bitch i cant even count to 10
i just walked right out the bank boy i dont gotta play pretend
bitch dont hit me up again boy im not ur fucking friend

@trustt
if i cut you off throw you out and you still complain
this is why i dropped you little bitch  don't taint my name
showing my true colors i hope god decide my fate
breaking through the canvas when i spray em i see paint
i got jewels on my body and especially my waist
that percent of hating i got all of in my bank
all that time you wasting i can tell you got no play
im so done with winning i got nothing left to say 

@deepinparis
if you cant catch all this shit im saying you not listening
how am i supposed to count these racks when i cant count to 10
i just took a break to come back better than ive ever been
ive been going too damn hard i need to ease it up a bit
i got so damn rich remember the day it clicked
you said you think its out of reach i know it never is
maybe you wouldnt sound so bad if you put effort in
when i get up on the mic im leaving an impression bitch

project file https://payhip.com/b/oK2GL

prod @lyn_u @2rel
featuring @cruseyyyy

lyrics
[@me]
ima keep on runnin
yea my bank is filled wit hunnids
new friends ya they keep on frontin
i take drugs becuz i love it
cut that btc off i aint cuffin
i dont rlly do that love shi
ima need another substance 
shoot shi like im andre drummond

yuh
rolling a wood, taking that shi to the face
cloning me boy you is copy n paste
i got a pole n its tucked in my waist
cartier spent a rack on these frames
old friends keep saying i changed
fuck that i just cut off the fakes
whole lotta guap and its coming my way
free my twin out the cell
unlimited money don't tell
she wann a tell me she love me (love me)
i said btc, oh well
i cant kiss and tell
wipe my tears w half a mill
i got lean i crack the seal
shoutout twin we in the field

free lil mikey out the slam
you want a feat thats gon cost you a band
8 figs ya we counting up m's
broke boys tryna get on the trend
posted w twin in the benz
fuckin that btc and she bringin her friends
do what i want, and you do what you can
hitting a lick than im hopping the fence

[@cruseyyyy]
i just made a bag im goin state 2 state
me n trin up on the block we ballin in the paint
i wont do yo verse boy dat shit just a waste
yea im goin mia they all know my fucking face
yea no complaints no i can not relate
ur stuck up in my brain u still act like ur a saint
i try to runaway shoulda know i cant escape
i want a cleaner slate dont know how much more i can take

[@me]
free lil mikey out the slam
you want a feat thats gon cost you a band
8 figs ya we counting up m's
broke boys tryna get on the trend
posted w twin in the benz
fuckin that btc and she bringin her friends
do what i want, and you do what you can
hitting a lick than im hopping the fence x 2

love it ft crusey (lyn_u & 2rel)

all by me
april 2025

i fell asleep into the next week
you couldn’t stitch me together, i lost my teeth
it makes my throat hurt when i say nothing
i miss when the silence didn’t sound like me

leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
this key doesn’t fit anymore and the door looks wrong
leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
your voice sounds so much worse when it’s in my phone

i wanna fall in love again even if it kills me like the last time did
i wanna fall in love again even if it drains me ‘til there’s nothing left

just call me again if it ever gets that bad
but i forget how to talk when you tell me not to laugh
i lose so much sleep when i try to trace those cracks
like maybe it’ll spell out everything i wish i had

Like the last time

prod me
s/o advxrse the goat and alt0 the goat

lyrics:
ball up takin pics with a zip
i ain never goin switch up for a bih unless we click
vetement on my cover yeah ill see you on my kicks
shootin like im Curry in the paint, I never miss 

oh im missing out
your words, your stupid sounds
my heart just filled with doubt
no i can make it out (x2)

keep the music going, i aint tryna hear myself tonight
askin when we starting, tryna get there early for the night
im just hoping all pieces fall right down
im jst hoping that we could work this out

girl you threw away the keys to my heart
your words hit the spot just like a bullseye to the dart
if you wanna restart we could always fall apart again

makeitout

fun song for fun times
original https://soundcloud.com/lyn_u/deathwish
produced by me

lyrics:
im longing for the end, i dont wanna breathe ur air
and if i have to make a sacrifice dont sit & stare

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight

u kept ur friends and stayed the same i wonder what its like
i been holding onto nothing i just wanna feel alive
screaming at myself he wont answer when i cry
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i dont need a reason bitch i been moving reckless
everyday i wake up with a target on my chest
they tell me its just a phase they tell me that ill regret this
i dont need a reason move like i got a deathwish
i look in the mirror i see a stranger
if i lost control of myself would it even change ya
eyes blacked out i got too used to the danger
if i tap out would they just write off my anger

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

deathwish /​fun mix​\

april 2025

when i was younger, everybody seemed much older to me
now life is changing and i don’t believe anything i see
farewell, i always knew that you would make it out
i’m still going but as time goes on, the silence gets loud

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i put my whole life at risk ‘cause i tried to fit in
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
i end up starving myself, breaking my fucking hands
they never taught me to stop being codependent

i put down the guitar
sing to myself in my bed as i’m sinking in
i never thought it’d be hard
and when he passed, i had tried to breathe it in
who knew that life would be like this?
my old friends told me i’m psycho, and i didn’t like it
and i try so hard, i’m always trying to fight it

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i’d rather kill my best friend than take my fucking meds
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
if only i would’ve told them i’m a fucking mess
i could’ve learned how to stop being codependent

Codependent

reposting this to my main cuz it deserves more love + i dont have any songs to post rn, waiting on a feature <3 hopefully this gets more love here!!!

problem (me)

prod @qlein

am i an idiot
can you say it to my face
am i stupid
im sorry if im late

everybody else seemed to know before me
you dont have to worry youre not doing it for me 

why are you still holding that grudge
baby are we doing too much
i cant help but think that you dont wanna talk
can you promise to me that youll prove me wrong

do you know if im running out of luck
tell me you dont wanna talk fair enough
can you stay for a little i dont ask for much

---

can you tell me where to go from here
im lost im afraid i cant act from fear
dont dogs act weird when the end is near
how do i react to your tantrums

fuck
i dont wanna go home
cant keep up god i feel so slow
no it's not that bad, im overreacting
it's that bad its the right reaction

am i an idiot
can you say it to my face
am i stupid
im sorry if im late

everybody else seemed to know before me
you dont have to worry youre not doing it for me 

wtf am i doing 
2 minute song fuck the mind that im losing 
youre a hypocrite telling me these lies and im sick of it
i needa take a break cause ill never hear the end of it

late.... @qlein

it's a brown Boy summer...
art by cuttle_bone on twitter <3
featuring @v2nthan
produced by @popilization @kagimusic & @liveanndlearn
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lyrics
got barettas 
play that boy like it's nintendo
he got some attitude
i send it back in tenfold
everything you stressing bout
i'm doing wit my eyes closed
fuck around 
& put a couple diamonds near my tonsils

had 2 switch gears
i ain't talking bout no Luffy
my whole life a movie
come watch it on the blue screen
acting pessimistic 
had 2 get that bitch a taxi
ima die nasty
she want dynasty
oh yea yeaaa

balling like Ginobili
dress shirt
even on the court
boy i'm classy
undercover on me
i was tripping bout tht bitch
but now she can't get off me
must be out yo mind 
if you think you could ever top me

he gon take himself too harsh 
so boring
world cup #25
all my #Bros Scorinnn
ima shop til i Drop 
now the whole store closing
Vivienne pendant
rings on my necklace

@v2nthan
scars on my face 
i got scars on my neck yea
amiri on my jeans 
this shit sum u couldn't get 
got some problems that i still gotta address
ima solve it, put ur boys to rest yea
know she fiendin, know she want the bag
we some demons, ain't comin in last 
gotta leave her no i can't get too attached
goin turbo yea we goin way 2 fasttt

@hiseph
got barettas 
play that boy like it's nintendo
he got some attitude
i send it back in tenfold
everything you stressing bout
i'm doing wit my eyes closed
fuck around 
& put a couple diamonds near my tonsils

had 2 switch gears
i ain't talking bout no Luffy
my whole life a movie
come watch it on the blue screen
acting pessimistic 
had 2 get that bitch a taxi
ima die nasty
she want dynasty
oh yea yeaaa

Like the last time

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