i made the track list for these songs when i was on the verge of committing suicide, everything was written down on a note on my iphone titled "one big unhealthy coping mechanism"

one big unhealthy coping mechanism

find another guy to lie to.

hldnon (ft. redpandas1)

i'd be the floor she'd step on.

do not need, want or deserve any less from you.

talk to me when you change.

bummer

acceptance and forgiveness are the best stages

falling out

sometimes i wish i could go back and try to keep her from falling out of love

come my way @tenshix

just to clarify, if your somehow someway reading this, steph i dont mean that i still yearn and lust after you. i just think about what we had and if i'll ever find that again which stops me from embracing opportunities to make a connection when they're right infront of me, which is annoying. i wont be throwing rocks at your window, i still love you but i dont exactly want to be with you still. on some days you can own a spot in my head where you and us and what we did together will pop up consistently and its a pain in the ass. no need to worry about me stalking or anything.

i think about you when i shouldnt. @holdmetillicry

saint

sorry

you do not need, want or deserve any less from me.

a song for a troubled rose.

the foundation is beginning to falter. @sickboi

tainted by early infatuation, i know i shouldn't've done that shit, gave in to temptation. never knew your last name i don't even know what her last name is. i still feel i'm indebted to you 'cause i was really gonna- 

take my life, better than dealing with my heart. really glad i ain't take my life, i would never get to see my scars fade away

take the pain away

cause i seen stranger things

your eyes when we cross paths look like they've got no emotion. i try not to look back but i can't help living in the moment. i knew what you did was wrong but i still hoped i could save you. you rack my brain but Jesus broke the mold when he fucking made you. i never wanna betray you, but i can't go on the same paths of self-sabotage 'cause its driving me insane. $2.10 and leave some change, i'll put a gun right to my brain. i close my eyes and let it off in words i like to sing. those trigger points, i set them off by leaving you in range. i'd rather be honest and say i can't reciprocate. i wouldn't take you on a date, no way. i wouldn't give you a ring. you said that i'm the one i thought it was just a fling.

tainted by early infatuation, it takes two to fuck up like this but we made it. i don't know what to say, just know you're still in my brain. i feel indebted to you 'cause i was really gonna-

i never knew that girls last name (loneliness)

softie (beige)

i hate this dance that we do.

it ends with us

everything feels like one big sigh right about now

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one big unhealthy coping mechanism

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