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i've been taking my time with releases lately
i just, want to start making things that mean a lot more to me than they usually would, and to do that takes a bit more time than I usually would give myself to make a song.
so i hope you guys enjoy this 1. be safe
get well for those of you who need it <3

~~~lyrics~~~
(2x)
when will we learn 
it’s making me hurt
yeah i ain’t complacent 
yet i ain’t been changing

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i can't reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

i can’t go out
i’ll get overstimulated
guess i’m home bound 
how the hell am i gonna make it?
leaves they fall down 
i can sense the aberration 
ever since i found a little solace 
during isolation

no more dreams when i wake
i’m covered in sweat 
many things that i see in all of them
they fill my heart with pure regret 
just when will i get over it? 

conscious is biting my brain
(conscious is biting my)
(biting my, biting my brain)
but it don’t matter 
i swear that i’ll find a way
(swear that i’ll find it)
(i swear that i’ll find a way)

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i cant reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

threads of hair hang low
the angel you once knew 
turnt her back on the helping help 
that gave her thy wings 
simply in danger
let go
this is just a fever
(this is just a fever...)

thy wings [prod. sunsetlover]

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 1: Toshokan]
And I'm afraid I lost another friend
Seems like everything is fine 'cause I'm forced to pretend
Fade into oblivion, don't wanna make amends
If this is serious, then it's my descend
My eyes still burning 'cause I cried all night
I'm still hurting, nothing feels right
Bentley called me up like it's the middle of thе night
Still got a voice in my head, pleasе don't think that I'm lying
I miss you, you don't really care
When I needed you, you were there
Talking about me is not fair
Yeah, talking about me is not fair

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs
[Bridge: Toshokan]
I couldn't see the truth
How could I be so blind?
And when I feel so blue
I stare up at pastel skies
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
And when I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 2: sewerperson]
She's in the party, it started after the party (After the party)
I understand and I'm ready
Memories were made for forgetting
I keep my confidence close
Keep my drink filled with Henny
Girl, I just need to relax and I hope my body can let me (Body can let me)
And I got this target on top my head and it fucked me
I hope you'll still try to love me, I let my barriers down
And I prepare for the ugly
She's at home with her partner and I just hope that she's comfy 'cause girl I know it gets rocky
But hold on (Hold on)
Baby, stay strong (Stay strong)
Hold faith even when it seems lost (Seems lost)
It's alright (Alright), when we move on (Move on)
Don't talk, I can hear your thoughts, yeah

pastel skies (prod. wolfgang pander) 

toshokan - PATIENT w/ sewerperson

knee deep* + p. fony wallace & composition x

i hate that this is the first thing i am posting on my return HAHAHAH

Lyrics

tie me up when we fuck
babygirl you're my drug
i like her eyes and her face
oh please control when i c-
I like her bonds in my face
she tell me look but dont taste
i answer yes to my mistress
i wish she'd be my missus

i think my time soon to come
still got her taste on my tongue
satisfying my lust
but don't expect that it's love

she making me beg
she on the attack
it's making me squirm how she tease me her ass
god i'm still shaking
and i can't erase it
but it's been an hour n i mewl like a cat
i need it so bad—
she ride me so good that i'm needin a cast
i'm in the function but don't got a pass
shiss gettin old
and i hope that you know
if this keeps on
don't know if we'll last

she make me beg her forgiveness
she make me beg her forgiveness

bonds

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

times up lemme talk to em
they all want a spot but they ain that locked in
if the money all you care about you fkn up again
never thought that this would end so quickly
girl you got me fucked up can't listen to you anymore
they brag bout this, and brag bout that until they bored
if your ego take a hit you gon be sore
that shit gon hurt you to your core
say that you hate me, say that you can't love.

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

red light (prod.branwen)

Drums+Bass co-written by Joe Stoneback

LYRICS:
You called it, you saw right through me
Dishonest, that's all that I'll be
I'm trying for you
But your hearts turned dark blue
I can't take what I do
I'm unfolding, à deux

There's nothing to do
When you ain't got a clue
Look how they'll pass you by
Everyone's left you behind

Let your life just pass you by
Work too much, don't have the time
All of this means something to someone
Especially if you make it

What's the point in trying?
I don't understand how it happened
Everybody's dying and I can't do a god damn thing
Doesn't any blame already fall on me?
Is there anything else I can do to change?
Can it be, I'm worthy of all you give?
If it means something then it always lives

Does it ever get easier?
Tell me if it gets easier from here
I don't even understand me
How the hell am I supposed to ever believe you?
Does it ever get easier?
Tell me if it gets easier for you
I don't even understand me
How the hell am I supposed to ever think you do?

Follow me <3

Does It Ever Get Easier?

too much time
i waited too long for you to be mine
cuts on my wrist and on my neck
in time
im surprised that im still here i didnt die
i dont know why

god has a plan and i get it
i am part of the men who will make it
every second i wait i manage
screw it up, and youll leave in a second

im manic
and i panic at night i think about death im sore
i wine
and think about the lies

manic thoughts
novocaine
all my fears
accumulate
making pain
seperate
my life from 

theres pressure inside of my head and its building
im lost in the 

too much time
i waited too long for you to be mine
cuts on my wrist and on my neck
in time
im surprised that im still here i didnt die
i dont know why

your arts on my walls
i stalk i gleem at every thought
open me up and im coating the wall
im drawing myself with the blood that i draw

i bleed
i need a way out my mind when im thinking of you in my dreams
wake me up, i just need to sleep
without thinking of you i need
to sleep

Drawing Myself With The Blood That I Draw

Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 
Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 

Take those yellow pills till I’m morphing 
I drink too much till I throw up in the morning 
I just told that bitch that I’m too busy recording 
I will strike you down for my family just like thorfinn
Your bitch , my bitch 
Cause ur never really on shit 
I don’t even really want it if I’m being honest 
Loudest
Cries will always be the loudest 
Crowded 
Why my eyes always drowning?

Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 
Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me 
But she gave me..

Smackdown! (Prod.Bøjet)

High fall

deepoctober---2014

@𝖗𝖊𝖊𝖉𝖘𝖓𝖔𝖛𝖊𝖒𝖇𝖊𝖗

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