🖤🖤🖤. Been waiting thank ya for dropping.

hero is that your curvy waist in the cover art

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 1: Toshokan]
And I'm afraid I lost another friend
Seems like everything is fine 'cause I'm forced to pretend
Fade into oblivion, don't wanna make amends
If this is serious, then it's my descend
My eyes still burning 'cause I cried all night
I'm still hurting, nothing feels right
Bentley called me up like it's the middle of thе night
Still got a voice in my head, pleasе don't think that I'm lying
I miss you, you don't really care
When I needed you, you were there
Talking about me is not fair
Yeah, talking about me is not fair

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs
[Bridge: Toshokan]
I couldn't see the truth
How could I be so blind?
And when I feel so blue
I stare up at pastel skies
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
And when I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 2: sewerperson]
She's in the party, it started after the party (After the party)
I understand and I'm ready
Memories were made for forgetting
I keep my confidence close
Keep my drink filled with Henny
Girl, I just need to relax and I hope my body can let me (Body can let me)
And I got this target on top my head and it fucked me
I hope you'll still try to love me, I let my barriers down
And I prepare for the ugly
She's at home with her partner and I just hope that she's comfy 'cause girl I know it gets rocky
But hold on (Hold on)
Baby, stay strong (Stay strong)
Hold faith even when it seems lost (Seems lost)
It's alright (Alright), when we move on (Move on)
Don't talk, I can hear your thoughts, yeah

pastel skies (prod. wolfgang pander) 

toshokan - PATIENT w/ sewerperson

prod @jolst + @pekarot_161
mastered by: @jolst

right here
won’t you hold me right here 
cus everybody switched up
i had to fight fair 
i been
stressed out
think i need a cold beer 
said fuck that 
i’ll smoke a blunt
and pull out my hair 
x2

cus i been spending my money and livin up
and i been textin her she just don’t give a fuck
at least i got my friends right here to jus show me love
if i was alone right now i’d probably kick the buck 

i just want my baby to come and kiss me a little bit 
i know i get too greedy and i wanna take it off
if you ever need a friend just hit me for the thrill of it 
she give me a little but i rlly want it all >:•)

baby im a loner :(
straight to the fucking face 
smoke a blunt n then i phone her 
im beggin beggin baby please 
why won’t u just come over (im kinda bored)
im not tryna be dramatic
but im gonna fucking throw up !!!!!!!!

not tryna be dramatic but i'm guess that im a loner ): 

(alan watts speech)
(ak47 reload)
(lightsaber sheath)

revenant (jolst x pekarot)

i hate that this is the first thing i am posting on my return HAHAHAH

Lyrics

tie me up when we fuck
babygirl you're my drug
i like her eyes and her face
oh please control when i c-
I like her bonds in my face
she tell me look but dont taste
i answer yes to my mistress
i wish she'd be my missus

i think my time soon to come
still got her taste on my tongue
satisfying my lust
but don't expect that it's love

she making me beg
she on the attack
it's making me squirm how she tease me her ass
god i'm still shaking
and i can't erase it
but it's been an hour n i mewl like a cat
i need it so bad—
she ride me so good that i'm needin a cast
i'm in the function but don't got a pass
shiss gettin old
and i hope that you know
if this keeps on
don't know if we'll last

she make me beg her forgiveness
she make me beg her forgiveness

bonds

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

times up lemme talk to em
they all want a spot but they ain that locked in
if the money all you care about you fkn up again
never thought that this would end so quickly
girl you got me fucked up can't listen to you anymore
they brag bout this, and brag bout that until they bored
if your ego take a hit you gon be sore
that shit gon hurt you to your core
say that you hate me, say that you can't love.

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

red light (prod.branwen)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

happy birthday

ty carter

lyrics

way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

it feels like you love me more when im going away
just look me in my eyes and tell me im okay
ill call you when im home so you know im okay
i could lose everything but id still keep my faith
i stopped smoking but i still keep them just incase
i wish i had some wings so i could fly away
way above the clouds
i wish i knew what i was doing instead of asking how
and im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
i was driving by myself im seeing a face in the fog
im supposed to be a man
but im just crying at a photo once again
and im obsessing over shit ill never get again
time moves fast i guess


way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

youre the rainbows and the sunshine
i can feel you in when the wind blows and you pass by
i can see youre face in everything
all sides
i need you to surround me till the day i die

as i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see you
smiling, shining
look how you did so well
and the day that i go
will be the day that you go
and girl im broken
i dont have a purpose
i dropped a song for you i hope that you heard it on your own
cuz baby this ones new and i just made it last night
i know they all sound the same to you
ive given up pieces of my brain for you
you know im trying to hold you tight when the night comes
but i feel you in my bones and my weak lungs

as i watch the storm pass 2 (cxrter)

self prod (loop by jolst)

(lyrics)
Fuck all that, id kill myself
before i asked you for your help
its hard to admit but the world seems bleak 
i struggle to find colors even in my sleep
i hardly dream smoke too much weed
hopefully im fine by this time next week
i been strugglin could really use a hand
but its my fault i lost my friends 
x2

but i wont admit it
just give me another dose
and while im at it
i knew that it was close
to nothin, what you expected of me
but somehow i still fucked up everything
but now i must go and my only hope 
is that you'll be fine living life on your own

i'll write you a song in my suicide note
walk out the house with just my clothes
its not my fault i swear i didnt know
id break my legs and have to move on

its not what it seems
baby i been losing sleep

losing sleep

Diijx2 - d a r c y.m4a (who wanna mix this lol) freestyle (not free

Of Passage

trapped inside my mind

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song every 1-2 weeks
beat every week

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bonds

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