visual/lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVdAtXTN6e4&ab_channel=ghosthands

late june evening (reimagined)

Maple Avenue

Beat prod by: dercept 
Written by: popularreject
Performed by: popularreject x emptychest 
Lyrics:

Cut me up in little pieces 
Give my body to the leeches 
Problems in my mind 
Rest in piss I’ll rest in feces
Why do I feel so defeated
13 reasons why I’m bleedin 
Maggots in my eyes
Say goodnight and let them fuckin eat me

I’ve been feelin dead 
Don’t want attention 
-less it’s medical 
Problems in my head
I’m losing balance 
Like my chemicals
I’ll take this fucking blade
And let it rip 
Through my umbilical
Ain’t no one gonna save 
Me 
X2

Save me
Save me
Save me
Save me

I can’t feel my face 
Warming up my veins 
Strap me to this chair 
And then lobotomize my brain
Everything’s okay
Even if it’s not
Smile on her face
While I be beggin her to stop 

Body going numb 
Fighting for my life 
Tryna circle back
Because my past ain’t sittin right 
Drain me off my blood 
Stab me in the back 
Body’s in the dump 
But this whole bodies in a bag

I’ve been feelin dead 
Don’t want attention 
-less it’s medical 
Problems in my head
I’m losing balance 
Like my chemicals
I’ll take this fucking blade
And let it rip 
Through my umbilical
Ain’t no one gonna save 
Me 
X2

Save me
Save me
Save me
Save me

lobotomy w/ emptychest (prod. dercept)

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

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DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

autumn_leaves w/ getbetter (clou6y & splashgvng)

Lyrics:
Let me introduce myself
I am a shell of what I was when I knew myself
And I thought I could escape from all the pain I felt
But the devil left me here, there was no room in hell

I wander down this path, don't know where am at
Everything is scary here, but now I'm scary back
Don't want you to see me fall apart my bones will snap
Under all the weight of knowing there's no going back

The movies lied, I thought I'd be numb
On the other side, but now I feel dumb
'Cause pardon me, if this comes off blunt
But my skin's falling off, I've been dead for a month

But,,

I still feel but I wish that I didn't
Heart gone black, haven't lived in a minute
I know it's how things go, decompose 'til I'm pitted
I'm just another hollow shell, but I know that you get it

I'm the walking dead, so I'll spill my guts
I'll just stay and rot, I don't give a fuck
I just wanted to die, but it's just my luck
When I wanted to leave, but I just got stuck

The minutes turn to hours, and then it's been days
Fester in my bed, while my heart decays
Take it out my chest and set that shit ablaze
It's alright I didn't use it anyway

I want to be left by the creekside
Six feet deep, three wide, and I'll be fine
When my body rests, will my soul fly?
Guess I'll never know, 'til I leave mine

The movies lied, I thought I'd be numb
On the other side, but now I feel dumb
'Cause pardon me, if this comes off blunt
But my skin's falling off, I've been dead for a month

But,,

I still feel but I wish that I didn't
Heart gone black, haven't lived in a minute
I know it's how things go, decompose 'til I'm pitted
I'm just another hollow shell, but I know that you get it


Corpse (I Still Feel But I Wish That I Didn't) (prod. dotbeats)

Lyrics:
Sometimes I wonder if you listen to the songs I do
I know that music's in your blood, it's always in mine too
Since we don't talk this is my way of reaching out to you
And now the sunset makes me think your name in every hue

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

spookybands:
Are you looking at the moon right now?
I can see it in your eyes, I don't think you ever really loved me
Did you buy yourself a beer last night?
And then some whiskey right after, anyway that's how I'm passing the time

And did you tell her about me? 
That new girl that you seeing
I bet she thought my name was cool

Does she text you while you on your way over
Telling you to look up at the moon
That's what I used to do.

These memories just turn to pain
And then get mixed up in my brain
I won't ever be okay
The bar is open every day

Hold me while I drift away
You don't have to miss me baby
I just tell myself you are
To feel better (that's fucking crazy)

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?