prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

@diligencexs

[victxrw]

she looks at me like im not even human
up all night trynna find a solution
losing sleep trynna find a conclusion
i guess it was just an illusion...

prove it baby can u prove it?
u abused it baby u abused it
all i do is lose all i do is lose it
but u knew it
from the start u knew it all :/

[jons]

i am trying, tying up the loose ends
crying cause i am but a human
i dont know if i did play my cards right
all i know is she played with my heart tonight
i cant sleep, not that i ever did but
she hurts me with her smile when we kiss cause
now i believe, this is not how we should be
prove it to me, that you love me constantly

[victxrw]

prove it baby can u prove it?
u abused it baby u abused it
all i do is lose all i do is lose it
but u knew it
from the start u knew it all :/

nd im not ready for winter
cuz the snow burns my skin
oh ill never be a winner
its never me again ;-;
could u leave me be?
oh im begging please
oh honestly i cant do this shit anymore...

not even human ft. jons (diligence + chained)

guiding light - angelicxmei + arid (sense + kuru + cure)

@owtiss
prod @decago

everytime i shut my eyes
i see u in my dreams
they just want me to be someone that they need 
but they never look at me ;/
i dont even know who i wanna be
i just get crushed underneath
i cant get back on my feet
i just wish u would stay with me
maybe then i'll know what's wrong me

so remind me when i wake up
need ur help so i can get back up
when im on my own i cant stand up
everytime i try i just get stuck
i collapse down on the floor (s/o @domerrz)
then you put me down some more
now my hands are getting sore
i cant do this anymore :(

i cant take this anymore
everyday i'm so paranoid
but im not your toy
but im not your toy >;(

paranoid (decago)

PROD VICTXRW PROD VICTXRWPROD VICTXRWPROD VICTXRWPROD VICTXRW
@ketsai
@domerrz
@victxrw
composed by: ketsai, dom & victxrw
vocal mix by: ketsai & dom
produced by: victxrw
performed by august (ketsai)
background vocals by: victxrw
written by august(ketsai) & dom 

[hook: august (kets)]
i needed you to be more
forever.. thats what you and i swore
whenever i think of you i adore
the song inside my head, i think ive heard it before
and im scared and im fucking afraid
if you need then ill move out the way
you call my name and your voice still replays
just you and i inside our fucked up cliche

[verse: dom]
you're the only one that sees the part of me I left behind
so blind to lies, you tried to hide your deceiving eyes
and I fell for it every fuckin time
I wouldn't change but then I realized
I wasted my time, I tried to close my eyes
I took the fall and no I'm not alright
she severed our ties and now it falls in line
should have never tried

[bridge: dom & august]
idk why I tried
I never get it right
when u were by my side
you filled my head with ur lies

[hook: august (kets)]
i needed you to be more
forever.. thats what you and i swore
whenever i think of you i adore
the song inside my head, i think ive heard it before
and im scared and im fucking afraid
i refuse to move out the way
you call my name and your voice still replays
just you and i inside our okay cliche

thorns ft. dom (victxrw)

2024-5-27
"I'll keep on pushing forward until I find the answer."

https://open.spotify.com/album/2yd9CL8xj25CCtJRkClo8j?si=ihZaJ2KFRamUles_ZFilZw

tysm to @loveismisery for the crazy beat!

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losing my patience
take a step back, heart racing
hold me in your arms, i can't face it
oh oh
running out of time, i can make it
pushing it aside, then we'll take it back

how'd i get this far out of track
hold me close, don't hold me back
and i don't really like that
but i can't change my heart again

i was scared to lose a friend
holding my heart in your hands
and i don't wanna fight back
oh, so just do it all again

(i do it all again)
(turn our hearts to make amends)
(i'm so scared to let this end)
(so i'll do it all again)

so i'll do it all again
(so i do it all again)
i don't wanna fall again
(hold me in your arms, please don't let me go)

hold me down, it's swarming in my head
argue all you want, curse the words i never said, "i love you"
hold on to the tears i couldn't shed
tell them that i'm fine, but it's all up in my head

(lost touch, turned my heart into stone)
(hold me close, don't let me go)
(lately i've felt so alone)
(watching time fly, eyes closed, i've been on my own)

but i can't change my heart again
i was scared to lose a friend
holding my heart in your hands
and i don't wanna fight back
oh, so just do it all again

curse the words i never said
paint a picture on my head
still, i don't want to fight back
oh, so we'll do it all again

again, again, again, again

patience (kyoa)

hey im back, again :D
@k4rson, @yashio20k, @neohnq <33

lyrics:

and i got so much trust i dont know what else
these feelings fake i dont know myself
my heart break drugs i cant play pretend
unblock my love
i gave all that i have
x2

@k4rson
i gave all that i can
i never thought that it would end 
do u think we could pretend 
i wanna be more than friends 
i wanna be more than friends
but you let me on when you said it'd never end 
so dont act so surprised when im gone i meant what i said
i dont wanna miss you 
dont know what's the issue 
i think i cld fix you 
i dont wanna hit you up 
girl i miss you, fuck
imma come around by 8 
n i'll pick u up

@luvpika
and i thought we was forever
but it just feels im being lied to
thought you fucking ment it
cant believe i even tried to
crying in my face all the time
i couldnt even say goodbye
im running fast out of time
this time i never felt alive

(bridge)
i can say so much but i keep quiet
its like i never been myself anyway
and i dont care what you say
i try my best everyday

@k4rson
(outro)
i dont wanna miss you
dont know what the issue
i think i can fix you
i dont wanna hit you up
girl i miss you, fuck
i will come around by 8
n ill pick u up

trust w/ karson (yashio, neohn)

produced by @hartfxlt + @1akura
‎ 

new issey miyake on me
im flying with my homies
in japan we making bag yeah yea
why you steady keep calling
i told you i dont want you
so stop wasting my time yeah yea x2

i cant find the meaning for the things that are happening
i been spending all my life tryna feel a thing
but its worthless, i am feeling so hopeless
everything's boring i need some emotions
im still not enough, been trying so hard
was it all a lie, could you tell me why
feel like everyday been the same now 
close my heart let it rest yeah

new issey miyake on me
im flying with my homies
in japan we making bag yeah yea
why you steady keep calling
i told you i dont want you
so stop wasting my time yeah yea x2

‎ 
art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/429077

meaning

Spotify!~

meaning (hartfxlt + akura)

needmoredrank (emosama)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZlCFawdTCc

Recorded by: norfwesp
Engineered by: norfwesp
Written by: Dae Ladin
Produced by: @tiresss

Instagram: @norfwesp

Lyrics:

NORFWESP:
(HOOK)
i can't move wrong my big brudda slide nigga
he don't want no smoke we send that straight to the skies nigga
keep that semi auto gotta keep that number 9
steal right by my right side boy you know im tryna fry niggas (tryna fry-)

i'm on my ones with this shi can't trust nun my-- mm fuck
i'm on my ones with this shi can't trust nun my kin
catch that boy dolo grab the fah you know we spin
i'm on my ones with this shi gotta stay on my (ten)

(VERSE)
drugs all in my system I can't never sober up
I swear these hoes don't listen told them all don't fall in love
I fell in love with all my pape the only thing I trust
boy ion slide in a couple days but know my glock don't rust

my hoe she I bet she shake that ass and throw it back on me
i said she got that body I can't get enough like ecstasy
my brudda hop out with that gen5, put that boy right on a T
that chop gon catch cut his life line put him-

(HOOK)
i can't move wrong my big brudda slide nigga
he don't want no smoke we send that straight to the skies nigga
keep that semi auto gotta keep that number 9
steal right by my right side boy you know im tryna fry niggas (tryna fry-)

i'm on my ones with this shi can't trust nun my-- mm fuck
i'm on my ones with this shi can't trust nun my kin
catch that boy dolo grab the fah you know we spin
i'm on my ones with this shi gotta stay on my (ten)

guiding light - angelicxmei + arid (sense + kuru + cure)

remedy