telephones

beetles

bright

Annalise

stay

stars

mean

grey

take me home

chest

Elizabeth

house

"thank you Sweden" we all say unanimously

skin

i am scared of the wall

bodies

leave

from november 2024

cut off my face
I’ve made mistakes I can’t change 
wont talk for days 
I think it’s better for your sake

lost in my ways 
the soreness of my body start to ache

ache

and you got so obnoxious
my patience I lost it
I stare at the floor for the sky
knew that I wasn’t the strongest
never had an option 
but I really thought we were friends

but I really thought we were friends

now you’re off far away 
nothing left we could say
I don’t know what counts as a mistake 
I can’t show up it’s okay 
wasn’t told till today
yeah it’s fine if you don’t wanna be friends
friends

but I really thought we were friends

friends

And my face like the stop light when I saw you that night
I had smoked way to early and I lost track of time
I was paranoid thinking about if I waste mine
I don't know about people who lie all time well that's me

And I went to the tall tree to carve in your name
I had tripped on a root and felt dirt on my face
I'm so happy to see you you didn't feel the same
Just remember the day that the stop light would break
That's okay

stop light

You're acting kind of out of line
I think her words are on your mind
Biases from a long time
Ago I'm sorry that she lied

I'm sorry that she lied about the heart you thought was yours
Can't decide you're insecure

It's kind of not very mature
I think your words really mean more
Then what you say don't know if you're
That way or you're just bored

If you're that way or you're just bored
With this and me I've gotta leave
I'm just overly insecure

insecure

And you wait on
The vines to grow
I can't be
The one you hold

I'd beg for you

You kept so calm
When I told you off
The sun I chase
I burn and cough

Wisteria

wisteria

I don't know why she thought that though
But we might have to leave start packing clothes

I wake up I don't wanna go
You felt too warm and I've been oh so cold

I can tell you've got eyes of gold
Don't wanna be rude but that was what I was told

Remember going back to your home
I can't be so important the path that you roam

Maria, we'll run away
Maria, nothing to say?

Maria

And I thought about breaking your heart but my throat closed up and I lied
I knew that I cared so deeply but you deserved more then I could lend

I saw a dead cat in the tall grass and I didn't tell anyone for weeks
I hope that it died so peacefully and doesn't think about it's mistakes

When we spoke and I knew something was wrong
And my stomach felt numb all along

tall grass

And I got caught up
Still a pit in my gut
It wouldn't be your fault
If we were to crash and fall

I think you got addicted to a remedy
Last chance to run away you couldn't hide from me

Can't see too far
But you tried so hard
Try to my lift head
Never processed what you said

Don't know if I can be what I pretend to be
(I can rest when you are on by side)
Don't know if I can be what I pretend to be
(I watched you walk away as I arrived)

are you pretend

I want you to be mine
Lake in the dessert it's fine there's no pressure
I'll try

I need time to align
I'm happy to hold you
If you want I can give you my time

if you want i can give you my time

Thought you should be fine but
There's something bugging I can tell
Think I can fix it
Just hold my hand you will be well
That's what they told me
And then we ran down the stairwell
Feel I'm falling

Said he couldn't see her
That house is like a jail cell
No one is perfect
You're not the one that can excel
No to point to force it
He pushed her fast down the stairwell
Can't stop I'm falling

i'm falling

I know I forgot
The days got mixed in my head
Placebo of thought
Imagining speeches unsaid

A chariot cab horses and fire
I won

Thinking of things
That we've really tried forget
He's still my mind
He's pleading and begging instead

A chariot cab horses and fire
I won

Gold all around me I'm done
(I won I won)
Gold all around me I'm done
(I won I won)
Gold all around me I'm-

gold

Why does it feel fake
The things to me that you say
I heard he ran away
Envious maybe some day that'll be me but I can't

Why can't he say
He knows it'll never work out this way
Don't know why I'm afraid
Places I go things I can't repay for your life

Try to change the pace
Too fast we might need to brace
I'm scared of time that we waste
Probably shouldn't be gazing this hard at your face

cherries

Walking through the snowy mountain
It kinda stings when I try to breathe
Threw a coin inside the fountain
But I forgot when you tugged my sleeve

I pretend I don't feel guilty
But did I leave you in the snow to bleed
Wasted days feel like a memory
The flag it tore I had to retreat

Now I question what was working
If I took off at first sign of defeat
Then I again I was too passive
Like there was never really any room for me

The sun is out the snow had melted
Doesn't feel right but at least it's green
I think about your life too often
I hope you that will awake from the dream

snowfall

Left paralyzed
I wanted to make it okay
But can you let me try

You're with me in all my dreams
And In still don't know why

I'm not paralyzed
Everything works how it should
And I promise I'm fine

Wanna be perfect for you
But I think that's a lie

Call off the plans if you still feel that way
He was dazed and repeating things you shouldn't say
Patience could help you it's just not today
I hope you aren't paralyzed wedged in this place
I'm so sorry

paralyzed

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