A Captain's Isolation

Voices

Recovering

First meeting with Ren last night and we ended up throwing together an instrumental song in short order. Dig the DADDAD tuning.

Primo Tempo

I Had It All 
Cantwell
Produced by Don Michael Jr.

When I thought I had it all he showed me differently (see)
Thought I had a good thing going, he said I had no rings (things)
Material connections, thought I wasn’t good enough (rough)
Your love was nothing like his, his love was never really love…
Love…

Fantasizing a man to be
Someone he’d never, never be
Prayed that he would stay the same
But he wanted me to change
When I didn’t it all went away
My emotions cannot be bought
I had it all, or so I thought…
 
I had it all, or so I thought but we were so bad
I had it all, but I was so caught…damn
Between a life I wanted so bad
And a life I never really had, really had, really had

Never actually had it all, you manipulated us (crushed)
Sought only to control and leave oh you were void of love (a crutch)
You played me like a guitar, but I’ve got melodies and song (song)
Attached to nothing now, your memory is gone…
Gone…

Fantasizing a man to be
Someone he’d never, never be
Prayed that he would stay the same
But he wanted me to change
When I didn’t it all went away
My emotions cannot be bought
I had it all, or so I thought…
I had it all, or so I thought but we were so bad
I had it all, but I was so caught…damn
Between a life I wanted so bad
And a life I never really had, really had, really had

Didn’t we almost have it all (all, all, all)
Were we destined to fall?
Over time I built up my walls
But if I do that now, I’ll never have it all!

Fantasizing a man to be
Someone he’d never, never be
Prayed that he would stay the same
But he wanted me to change
When I didn’t it all went away
My emotions cannot be bought
I had it all, or so I thought… 
I had it all, or so I thought but we were so bad
I had it all, but I was so caught…damn
Between a life I wanted so bad
And a life I never really had, really had, really had

I Had It All

Variations On Greensleeves

This enigmatic master work, reminiscent of Satie, was composed by David Louis Levitt. This live recording was made on December 7, 2024. The piece was played by the composer on an acoustic piano. No effects of any kind, not even reverb, was added, so as to preserve the natural overtones.

Valley Vistas

Austin songwriter Greg Engle released Take It Personally in 2010.  It contains songs of life, love and Africa...

All songs by Greg Engle (Dip Note Music, BMI)
Songs and lyrics at englemusic.com

Produced by Stephen Doster

Greg Engle – vocals, acoustic guitar & harmonica
Stephen Doster – acoustic & electric guitars
Chris Maresh – bass
Donny Wynn – drums & percussion
Rolf Ordahl – piano & keyboards
Brian Standefer – cello
Joel Laviolette – marimba & mbira
Background vocals – Devon Guliford, Erin Ivey, Donna Lipman, Stephen Doster, and James Stevens
Nick Classen – bagpipes

Recorded and Mixed by James Stevens at EAR in Austin, Texas
Assisted by Kyle Ratcliff
Mastered by Jim Wilson at Airshow Mastering, Boulder, Colorado

Art, photography and art direction – Jessica Engle (wasabipear.com)


Make Up Your Mind

Wanted 
Cantwell
Produced by Don Michael Jr.

All I ever wanted was you
And I’ve been wanted by a few 
All I ever asked for was truth 
Lies became a secret part of you

Gon’ turn my tears 
Into “seeing red” eyes 
Don't come for me 
Trying to apologize 
Don't follow you around no more 
Not like I used to before
Got a plan that you ain't in 
You're finished, where do I begin?
You had a pretty face 
But it will fall so far from grace
My money's on you having lack
‘Cause you stole all my credit babe
Put a hush on it, put a rush on it 
Don't want noone to know the truth 
Put a hush on it, put a rush on it
I’m gonna love exposing you...

CHORUS:
Don’t want you, don’t need you
You won’t recognize me anymore
Once I walk out, of this door
All I ever wanted was to be wanted
Want you? (want you) Don’t need you (need you)
You won’t recognize me anymore
Once I walk out (walk out), of this door (this door)
All I ever wanted was to be wanted
I know you gon’ be about it
I know you gon’ want all of this
I know you gon’ to regret it
Want it! Wanted!
(I know) I know you gon’ lie about it
(I know) I know you gon’ die without it
(I know) I know you gon’ hit rock bottom
Wanted!












Won't take back words
You put in my mouth
Psycho at work
Trust - I figured you out
Don't follow me around no more 
Find yourself a cheaper whore
You better swipe right for more 
God damn, you're so insecure!
Mother should be ashamed
Look at all the hell she raised
Heaven's not for you,
Make it out alive, and I will be amazed...
Put a hush on it, put a rush on it
Aren’t you a sad excuse for a man?
Push a hush on it, put a rush on it
I'm happy without you, understand?

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE:
All I ever wanted was you
And I’ve been wanted by a few 
All I ever asked for was truth 
Lies became a secret part of you

CHORUS:
Don’t want you, don’t need you (no no!)
You won’t recognize me anymore
Once I walk out, of this door
All I ever wanted was to be wanted
Don’t want you (want you) Don’t need you (need you)
You won’t recognize me anymore
Once I walk out (WALK OUT!), of this door (THIS DOOR!)
All I ever wanted was to be wanted
I know you gon’ be about it (I KNOW!)
I know you gon’ want all of this (I KNOW!)
I know you gon’ to regret it (You gon’ regret it babe)
Want it! Wanted!
I know you gon’ lie about it (LIEEEE!!)
I know you gon’ die without it (DIEEEE!)
I know you gon’ hit rock bottom
Wanted!

Hearing Things

Wanted

Breaking Us

Newest Jawn Revised Teaser

Lucendar Studios producers independent singer/songwriters with a "less is more" approach including an old school philosophy of mixing in acoustic instruments, NEVER using auto-tune, generally avoiding click-tracks with a fixed tempo. Let's make music by human beings for human beings!