As someone who’s had dpdr for 5 years, i love this song.

bleh

yuke [@trapnn] - fruitfly (prod. me hoe)

we're not together
the ties were severed
you're caught in my headspace
a look that u cant shake

just tell me its over
i hate no closure
we cant let this happen
so fucking truamatic

severed

mixed by @six-days-after-christmas

dreaming of the winter
on a warm sunny day
dreaming of the summer
when its to cold to go out and play 
dont forget her face 
cus she'll go for once and for good 
dont forget her smile 
cus she was just misunderstood 
soo dooont
please dont leave me alone 

dreaming of her touch 
when shes out and away 
when shes here for you brother 
you say you need space

don't forget her

with @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod me and @decago

and i knew u were mine when i saw ur face 
like an angel fallen down  but u couldnt stay 
i need you more than any girl i met 
youre just perfect in every way i bet 

sitting down on the couch and im such a mess
everyday is a struggle girl im way to stressed 
when i met you it felt like i was blessed 
now i hate everyday i see u less

but i'll hate every day regardless
you couldnt cause more if you triedim honest
i'll stalk your accounts couldnt call if i wanted
i'll lay this down when you're gone and forgotten
you'll lie to me
and say that im the only one you'll keep 
but i'll believe anything when you're close to me
eye to eye i wish you were all i'd see

you're just perfect in every way, i bet

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

it's what you do

https://open.spotify.com/track/6PqCIIx3fFkXLjLYw3Gk4D?si=npFE7NGBQbeMvKchX67wig&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A5Pst8vT1RfswaG9y4LEGPk

prod me

i'll turn into a ghost
and i'll sacrifice ur kids
it seems such a shame
but u know thats just how it is
writing poem after poem
about how im so helpless
i rlly wasnt lying u can see it on my wrists

i know nobody can help me
kick me when im down
and im so unhealthy
cut away a frown on my face
and lets see
u run away from town
without me

im a clown
im a sucker for u
like wow
who else would suffer for u
like i do

i know nobody can help me
kick me when im down
and im so unhealthy
cut away a frown on my face
and lets see
u run away from town
without me

writing poems

https://open.spotify.com/track/35YvzadMQu9evj1PXw3xdw?si=O9mqalcaR_SZgbRXj9xe1Q&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A6ijYfYb03EIxm7pHHHmOPn

prod me

i dont recognise myself in the mirror
im looking so much thinner i
didnt eat my dinner
my heart just isnt in it

nothing ever feels real anymore
im passed out bleeding on the bathroom floor
consumed by derealization im waiting for
u to bring me back to reality once more

u were bleeding all over
i was the first to notice
cant believe no one saw this
girl u looked so perfect

i dont recognise myself in the mirror
im looking so much thinner i
didnt eat my dinner
my heart just isnt in it

derealization

https://open.spotify.com/track/6k3ZxcSmqr6PzDj5jPJzuK?si=KSiNsteTTY-KjtrXBH9xZg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A1fDoBAD5iRtniahPfPFZZR

prod me

somethings up with uuuuuuuu
somethin rlly strange
ur all over the place
ur vision is so strayed
wont look me in the face
is there somethin
that u wanna say

it all amounts to u
so dont try act confused
when i come back crawling
crawling to u

baby im a sinner
come back just to skin her
eat her guts for dinner
oh baby whats the issue

somethings up with uuuuuuuu (u know that i miss u)
somethin rlly strange
ur all over the place
ur vision is so strayed
wont look me in the face
is there somethin
that u wanna say

,,

she whispered in my ear
'need to get out of here
go on and start the car
lets drive away so far'

but its hard to let go of my life
but i guess
id do anything for my future wife

she whispered in my ear
'need to get out of here
go on and start the car
lets drive away so far'

somethings up with u

somethings up with you

prod me

what's there to talk about
tryna get away from my home for now
driving forty minutes and i look around
i don't think i'm ever gonna turn back now
why'd you talk that way
there's dread in your heart every single day
seems like you've known nothing other than hate
now all you do is give it away
i swear to god i tried
to do what's good to do what's right
still did me wrong but that's alright
cause now i'm driving into the night
and so i think a lot
bridges that i've burned and ones i've crossed
memories that haunt my head
they'll only leave me once i'm dead

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later:
and when i think about it
i think too hard and my mind is crowded
i know you said you cried about it
baby i know that you're lying
so i walk a lonely road
walked passed our spot as i'm coming home
and i remember that you once said
 i'm all you'll ever need and all you'll ever have but
maybe in ten years when we're older
i can see you on the aisle
with your boyfriend turning husband 
that can really make you smile
i was never meant for you and
you know i was in denial
maybe we can talk again some time 
but not for a little while

into the night w/ jacko

noia - recover (w/duster)

https://soundcloud.com/menthol100s/demos-and-then-some-alex-g

ngl i do not feel like titling these i found them on my laptop

wifiskeleton - demo #9 (crashing, crashing)

real eyes realize real lies

sorry this song isn't that good i wason substances
https://open.spotify.com/track/53QPzruYbEJB124FSb5r9a?si=0913b21b94d446d5
I want a girl, that'll travel with me round the world
No friends, no plan, just a map with her name and it’s pearled
She doesn't even know me, but I write it like we met
Got a folder with her pictures, but she doesn't know it yet

I romanticize pain like it's all that I get
Yeah, she's been posting with him, but I'm somehow still obsessed

Scars on my back from the dreams that I chase
Slept on the floor with her tweet on my face
Told my therapist that I'm fine, but then I went and rotted for days

I'd starve if she told me she liked my waist

i just wanna travel

Originally showed in the discord 
I’m not trying to disrespect anybody with these uploads. I do not capitalize off of these uploads 
Just trying to get Cyrus’s music out

derealization

requiem for you

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