i feel it in my chest
i feel it crawling down my neck
i feel it in my stomach
i feel it lurking and haunting

ive gone to a place i dont know
ive gone to a place thats not home
im not okay here
i want to go home

im sorry for what ive done
im sorry for where i am
its all my fault
its all my fault

ive gone to a place too far
ive gone to a place unfamiliar
im not okay here
i want to go home

distance

before it's too late

don’t look at me
broken promise
broken dreams
don’t fight, be free
free yourself from this hell

free yourself

more lies
more cries
suffering lingers
you always see her
embrace your hurt
feel it to your core
feel it in your bones

free me

free me
from hell
this state of mind
feel the blight
free yourself

free yourself

free yourself

i almost killed myself
at the sight of your face
you were my way out
of this hellish place

the blood poured down
as i stare at fate
this is the end now
the end to all of my pain

take me to my grave
bury me and call yourself a saint
you’re the poison i crave
i’ll fall to my death in the lake

fall to my death in the lake
drowning in all my hate
i don’t know how long it will take
drowning to death in the lake

the way out

stab my eyes out
watch me bleed
blow my brains out
can’t you see
slit my throat
burn my body
break my neck
carcass rotting

watch the wolves feed
watch the birds flee
scour through debris
to set my soul free
i feel so empty
desolate nothing
my grief is profound
you let me down

stab my eyes out
watch me bleed
blow my brains out
can’t you see
i feel so empty
desolate nothing
my grief profound
you let me down

stab my eyes out

haunting existence

wait for the call that says i'm dead

is this what you really want?
i just want you happy
so if this is what you want
this is what you’ll get

my pain and suffering
(this is what you’ll get)
my endless agony
(this is what you’ll get)
my broken words
(this is what you’ll get)
my futile push
(this is what you’ll get)

i can’t move on
i can’t let go
i can’t forgive
i can’t forget

my pain and suffering
(this is what you’ll get)
my endless agony
(this is what you’ll get)
my broken words
(this is what you’ll get)
my futile push
(this is what you’ll get)

if this is what you want
then this is what you’ll get
stomp on my heart
crush it down to nix
wait for revenge
slash my fucking wrists
if this is what you want
then this is what you’ll get

i can’t move on
i can’t let go
i can’t forgive
i can’t forget

is this what you really want?
i just want you happy
so if this is what you want
this is what you’ll get

i did all that i could
but i knew you never would
would never accept me again
would never love me again

this is what you get

cold blooded
frozen heart
i felt nothing
from the start
dreaded wasteland
of a life
desecration
out of spite

no emotion
no emotion
no emotion
no emotion

i gave you my life
you broke me apart
i've become numb
you stabbed my heart

no sleep
no dreams
my life
you creep
no time
no sound
i rot

no emotion

feel the breath
leave her body
wipe the tears
cry softly
let me go
as i fall
down to hell
won’t take long
i am broken
i am scarred
the pain is ceaseless
the wounds are endless
my mind is worn out
my soul is crushed
all your sins
are embedded in me

sin

retract, ruin, repeat.