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a beautiful, yet hurtful life

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 1/30

this song is the start of my 6th album. the follow-on song for this releases on the 30th of september (in 2 weeks). read about the song here: https://revenantmusic.net/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
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discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
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audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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leaving you made me feel alive again

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a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
read more about the song on my website: https://revenantmusic.net/#at-the-end-of-time

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discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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art credits: me

In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

at the end of time

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 27/30

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
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instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
i'm not aware things are unknown
i should've held back to be alone
all these roses, all these burns
just to be done, it's over, no

another song to let me go
the antidote's done, overdose
mind in the clouds, look down below
and there is something you should know

every other night, you'll hug and cry
and all i seem to do is sacrifice
i wanted to stay by your side
you did this, and i wonder why

sorry you have cut the line
cause everything's just lost its sight
it's all your fault, i'd rather die
than give these problems another try

[chorus]
i'm not perfect, i'm not home
it's all because you said that's so
i'm not human, just confusion
cause of one mistake, you'd know

i'm not happy of the times
let alone our lullaby
it hurts now that you're gone
and there's regret everywhere i go

[verse 2]

i felt special, i felt loved
i felt brave, i felt at home
now mind just tends to roam
i want it to end, let me go

i feel like i didn't matter
all the times we had, just shattered
feeling like a losing battle
i don't know where to wander now

[verse 3]

oh was it actually a crime?
i dreamt of always sharing time
felt like the stabbing of a knife
when you did that, ruin my life

and i felt like i was special
away from all the other people
now things all feel bleak and dull
a sinking ship, you were my hull

[chorus]
i'm not perfect, i'm not home
it's all because you said that's so
i'm not human, just confusion
cause of one mistake, you'd know

i'm not happy of the times
let alone our lullaby
it hurts now that you're gone
and there's regret everywhere i go

everywhere i go ii

if only you knew what i felt: chapter 11

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/do-you-really-think-i-need-you 

connect with me:
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discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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[intro]
go burn in hell
i won't forget

[verse 1]
take a look in my heart, tell me what you see
all dark and shattered, is that what you want it to be?
i'll rise from the ashes, stronger than before
i'll take back all the pieces of my mind that you tore

[chorus]
i'll never forgive or forget 
i'll prove you wrong with what i'll do
i hope you feel like you're in hell
do you really think i need you?
i'll never forgive or forget
i hope you feel like you're in hell

[verse 2]
it's all up to you now, decide our fate
let it be known that tomorrow may be too late
i'll rise from the ashes, stronger than before
i'll take back all the pieces of my mind that you tore

[chorus]
i'll never forgive or forget 
i'll prove you wrong with what i'll do
i hope you feel like you're in hell
do you really think i need you?
i'll never forgive or forget
i hope you feel like you're in hell

if only you knew how i felt

do you really think i need you?

free download

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 12/30
read more about the song on my website: revenantmusic.net/#we-could-escape-reality

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
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instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

connect with Parable Collective:
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lyrics:

[chorus]
we could leave for eternity
now filled with uncertainty
come with and make a memory
now that you've escaped with me

we could escape reality
together as our hearts beat
become a fleeting memory
and we'll finally be set free
 
[verse 1]
can you hear me calling your name?
do you see the way that life's changed?
is it me that should take the blame
you said that time could help and some space

[pre-chorus] 
i've lost my dreams
lost places i found peace
would you give your all to me, me?

i've lost my dreams
lost sense when my mind speaks
would you help me and set us free, free?

[chorus]
we could leave for eternity
now filled with uncertainty
come with and make a memory
now that you've escaped with me

we could escape reality
together as our hearts beat
become a fleeting memory
and we'll finally be set free

[pre-chorus] 
i've lost my dreams
lost places i found peace
would you give your all to me, me?

i've lost my dreams
lost sense when my mind speaks
would you help me and set us free, free?

we could escape reality

we could escape reality [adventure ii]

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 4/30

a revisitation of my old song from 2018: https://soundcloud.com/revenant-edm/downfall

read more about the song on my website: revenantmusic.net/#our-downfall

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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art credits: me

lyrics:

[verse 1]
been holding out time to save the stress
slowly fading to survive the test
black and white walls all fill the rest
it's all making me a mess

every time i hold out hands for help
you leave me to fend for myself
look inside the broken mirror
does what i'm saying sound familiar?

[chorus]
too late to subside
i'm not gonna fall another time
aren't you tired of the tension?
is it giving apprehension?

are you sorry? nothing's helping this
it's all been broken
have you left to leave behind?
i know it's our downfall

[verse 2]
there's nothing that's gonna help you fly
even if we tried to compromise
i know how you think i see myself
but i'll never need your help

as we slowly parted ways
as convoluted as a maze
all the pieces start to degrade
and now it's time to say it's

[chorus]
too late to subside
i'm not gonna fall another time
aren't you tired of the tension?
is it giving apprehension?

are you sorry? nothing's helping this
it's all been broken
have you left to leave behind?
i know it's our downfall

[verse 3]
barely making time just for progress
can you accept i've finally left?
colourblind tears, will you confess?
that there's nothing of this left

maybe someday could i melt?
the sunset's rising have you felt?
there's no longer a connection
just accept the separation

[chorus]
too late to subside
i'm not gonna fall another time
aren't you tired of the tension?
is it giving apprehension?

are you sorry? nothing's helping this
it's all been broken
have you left to leave behind?
i know it's our downfall

our downfall

our downfall [downfall ii]

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 3/30
read more about the song on my website: revenantmusic.net/#forget-me

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
whatever you say
it's always your way
only think about yourself

you throw me away
but want me to stay
just drag me through hell

[verse 2]
say that you don't need me
expecting sorries
but don't let me walk away

you know something's missing
but you won't listen
i won't let you watch me break apart

[bridge]
cuz i'll be fine without you
but i won't find anyone like you
there was a place in my heart you could get to
but now i feel more like a stranger to you

[chorus]
so forget me
just forget me
please forget me
please forget me

forget me

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 16/30

connect with me:
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discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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lyrics:
[chorus]
you'll pick the broken pieces
fashion yourself my heart
you'll reveal all my secrets
but you won't stop tearing me apart

[verse 1]
i would wait
hoping to be saved
you wouldn't change
memories of dying days

our parted ways
form a convoluted maze
i'll fall again
and dig myself a grave


an endless fight, what's wrong and right?
a beautiful, yet hurtful life
losing time, nothing to hide
a beautiful, yet hurtful life

[chorus]
you'll pick the broken pieces
fashion yourself my heart
you'll reveal all my secrets
but you won't stop tearing me apart

stop tearing me apart

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 10/30
read more about the song on my website: revenantmusic.net/#leave-it-all-behind

connect with Ben Allwright:
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/benanamusic
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/3F7LFwwo7rYfvGOhsz7vnh
twitter: https://twitter.com/Benanananana 

connect with me:
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twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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leave it all behind

leave it all behind w/ Ben Allwright

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 6/30
read more about the song on my website: revenantmusic.net/#i-wish-i-wanted-to-be-here

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audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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art credits: me

This is also one of my favourite songs from the album. I stumbled across the initial looping sample on my drive and the rest of the song was made revolving around it. I came up with the vocal riff while driving and wrote the lyrics down soon after.

Although the theme is cliche, this song is about feeling like I am obligated to have my stuff together and be alright and feel like I am unable to let myself falter. This is in no way shape or form anyone else's fault, but many people I know, whether recently met or people I've known long-term, tell me about how I seem completely stable and how they feel like I have my life together.

This makes me feel a level of impostor syndrome as on the outside, it does look like everything is stable, however, I constantly feel like my life is fluid and constantly changing.

I feel these feelings have stemmed from the fact I have struggled to keep people close and consistent in my life. I often find myself very goal-directed and hyperfocused on things at the expense of giving other people the attention they need. I also find myself not realising that I'm trapped with people who make my life more difficult and bring nothing but negativity. The combination of these two alongside my seemingly bad luck with general life events makes me feel like my life is unstable and that anything could happen at any given moment.

Thankfully at the time of writing this, I have people who I love and adore and can count on through thick and thin. I've made sure to give them the time I should be giving, and have learned that I value companionship.
When listening to this song, I imagine a beach at the sunset and the waves slowly rolling in. The loop used throughout the song sounds peaceful and content to me.

lyrics:

[verse 1]
they say life goes on, i keep on trying
i'll find my place, i'll keep on striving
just make things right and you'll be all good, all good.

but no-one sees i'm almost breaking
seeing, breathing, overwhelming
i wish i wanted to be here

[chorus]
set me free
from this pain
just let me fade

[verse 2]
they say you'll be fine, just keep on trying
just keep silent in the surroundings
you don't seem like you're suffering at all, you don't.

i could lose myself completely
hide away and be deceiving
shaking cold, and fear my downfall

[bridge]
this facade will fade away
and i'll see the last of my days
this facade will fade away
and i'll see the last of my days

[chorus]
set me free
from this pain
just let me fade

i wish i wanted to be here

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 14/30

connect with me:
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audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
i give up and give in
there's nothing to hide
i felt safe, believing lies
secure their disguise

[pre-chorus]
i know that i was wrong
don't let me fight this alone
i'm trying my best to keep strong
i don't want to go

[chorus]
i am now in the end's tides
at least i lived my life
now i can no longer rewrite
at least i lived my life
i am now in the end's tides
remember me, this is goodbye

[verse 2]
now you've become
someone i've never known
and i wonder
if you're still there

would you try?
and do it all again?
would we shine?
or would we go through hell?

[pre-chorus]
i know that i was wrong
don't let me fight this alone
i'm trying my best to keep strong
i don't want to go

[chorus]
i am now in the end's tides
at least i lived my life
now i can no longer rewrite
at least i lived my life
i am now in the end's tides
remember me, this is goodbye

this is goodbye

i figured i'd upload this today as a lil thank you for being in my life as it's my 22nd birthday today :))

this year's been insane to me, and throughout i've grown a lot as a person, gained lots of lovely friends and lost some others. this year's brought a lot of good things to me and without your support, they wouldn't be the way they are.

i have never been so motivated to push myself to be the best i can be before, nor have i ever been as positive about myself. this year has been the best for me, musically, and academically. 

this is one of my all-time favourite songs and has carried me throughout so many parts of life, from losing things dear to me, to gaining new ones. as cheesy as a lot of people make it, k?d has been a massive role model to me. i always aspire to make different genres and styles and push myself a lot and a lot of it is thanks to them and their insanely diverse skillset.

i've had some rough rough times throughout these last few years, being tested and pushed to my limits, but thanks to my friends and those close to me, i'm here and still breathing.

thank you for being in my life, i love you.

- also the artwork and style is a lil teaser of the next album's direction, i still am releasing the current one to give myself some time to perfect it. (also i have a new song out next friday xx)

art creds: me :))

connect with k?d:
soundcloud: @whoskid
twitter: twitter.com/whoskid
facebook: www.facebook.com/whoskidmusic/
instagram: www.instagram.com/whos_kid/
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connect with phil good:
soundcloud: @philgoodsmusic
twitter.com/philgoodsmusic
instagram.com/philgoodsmusic
facebook.com/philgoodsmusic

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soundcloud: @revenant-edm
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twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

my socials

k?d - lose myself (feat. phil good) [revenant remix]

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 5/30
read more about the song on my website: revenantmusic.net/#painting-flowers-ii

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art credits: me

This is a revisitation of 'painting flowers' from the 'Better Days Ahead' EP. This EP was one of my all-time favourite releases as it was my first step in becoming more confident with my vocals. Granted the quality of the vocals in those songs may not be up to par, but the EP still meant a lot to me as I was starting to come out of my shell.

Painting Flowers was written at a time when I was relatively content with how my life was in 2019. I had just come out of a rough patch and started to feel better about myself, and learn more about what I wanted from my life. My favourite part of the original song was the string section before the drop.

Unsurprisingly, the image I imagine when hearing painting flowers are flowers, however, they are yellow. Yellow is a colour I associate with feeling safe and content, and it's just very cozy to me.

lyrics:

[verse 1]
i remember when i sank in my own tempest
tore me apart like a hurricane
i don't know why, there's something about you
what do i do?
just to feel alive, lie awake at night
it's always you

[chorus]
we'll set the stars alight
and again we'll feel alive
i'll be forever by your side
painting flowers in our lives

i know things will be alright
as we fade into the light
i'll be forever by your side
painting flowers in our lives

painting flowers ii

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 7/30
read more about the song on my website: https://revenantmusic.net/#alwaysfinealwaysalright

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lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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This song is about the careful balance needed between reflection and self-incrimination, the latter of which is often easy to fall into. It is a good thing to accept where things went wrong, take responsibility, and think about what would be done differently next time, however, it can be easy for that mistake to cause damage to one's self-esteem.

When I hear this song, I imagine a cloudy, poorly-defined purplish environment with hands grabbing up from the ground.

always fine, always alright

if only you knew what i felt: chapter 05

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/how-will-i-know

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audius: audius.co/revenant
lyrics: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

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lyrics:
[verse 1]
i'm always reading between the lines
each word you speak i'm scared of finding lies
i'm hoping for something that'll tell  me everything's just fine

the air's numb the silence speaks volumes
unspoken words leave invisible wounds
tell me the truth, what am i to you? what am i to you?

[pre-chorus]
cause i just need some clarity
and i just want a sense of release

[chorus]
how will i know what you feel about me?
tell me what you feel just give me honesty  

[verse 2]
oceans in my mind i'm struggling to breathe
false stars in your eyes claiming that you want me
i can't help the motions in the way i think, i'm sorry

i always wonder if you feel the same
left pondering if it's a losing game
i don't wanna but i feel like i have to push you away

[pre-chorus]
cause i just need some clarity
and i just want a sense of release

[chorus]
how will i know what you feel about me?
tell me what you feel just give me honesty  
how will i know what you feel about me?
tell me what you feel just give me honesty

how will i know?

@neck-deep-official
only good for giving is done. it's time for the next album !!
this song is a teaser of the next album to release, be ready for a beautiful, yet hurtful life c:

artwork creds: me

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neck deep - december [revenant remix]

if only you knew what i felt: chapter 07

music video link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7TuoSjkdcU&

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/why-do-i-let-you-hurt-me

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[verse 1]
i can't think about anything that isn't you
a prisoner to your words that keep me subdued
you say you'd do your best for me but i know that's not you

[pre-chorus]
i wish i'd realised
you used me all this time

[chorus]
i know that i need to leave
my mind's held in captivity
is it for a childish fantasy?
so why do i let you hurt me?

[verse 2]
each move you make holds me, it's almost magnetic
every time you say something nice, it's electric
you poison my mind then make me feel neurotic

[pre-chorus]
i wish i'd realised
you used me all this time

[chorus]
i know that i need to leave
so why do i let you hurt me?
i know that i need to leave
so why do i let you hurt me?

[chorus]
i know that i need to leave
my mind's held in captivity
is it for a childish fantasy?
so why do i let you hurt me?

why do i let you hurt me?

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/when-the-time-comes

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lyrics:
[intro]
i don't know what i'd do without you
i don't know what i'd do without you

[verse 1]
we've walked through the darkest nights
we've hurt ourselves just to be alive
the wounds that bleed, the scars that ache
when the time comes, we'll find our way


[verse 2]
when the time comes
will we find a place to break these chains?
when the time comes
will the darkness finally claim our names?

[verse 3]
when the time comes
will we fade away, lost and numb?
when the time comes
will silence be the sound we become

[chorus]
when the time comes, we'll see it through
when the time comes, i'll be here with you

[verse 4]
when the time comes
will we still be whole?
when the time comes
will it take our souls?

[bridge]
we've balanced on the edge of dreams
lost in echoes of forgotten screams
in the void where whispers lie
we'll confront the end with empty eyes

we've balanced on the edge of dreams
lost in echoes of forgotten screams
in the void where whispers lie
i'll always want you here in my life

[chorus]
when the time comes, we'll see it through
when the time comes, i'll be here with you
when the time comes, we'll see it through
when the time comes, i'll be here with you

if only you knew what i felt

when the time comes

the final track of my 7th album "the way i am now, with you"

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/the-way-you-are-now-with-me

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the way you are now, with me

if only you knew what i felt: chapter 04

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/if-only-i-could-turn-back-time

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lyrics:

[chorus]
if only i could turn back time
i'd bring back a simpler life
if only i could turn the tides
i know i'd still wanna be alive

[verse 1]
where did it all go wrong?
you were supposed to be at peace
yearning for easier times
back in summer 2018

but you've achieved so much
yet you don't feel at ease
give in, accept that the times
are too far from your reach

[verse 2]
but how i was back then
is not how you now know me
and who i am since then
is how you'll always want me

if only i could bring you
back in time with me
but stay the way you are
cause that's how i want you to be

[chorus]
if only i could turn back time
i'd bring back a simpler life
if only i could turn the tides
but i can't leave you behind

[verse 3]
you see those times through
rose-tinted glass you do
but you forget that people
love this version of you

you hated yourself back then
but now you don't think the same
so why can't you realise
you'll do the same again

if i could turn back time

if only i could turn back time

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/i-dont-want-to-die

11/01/2023

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lyrics:
[verse 1]  
i wanted to stop being a burden
i thought i was a good person
with my mistakes i would impart
but i ended up tearing you apart

[verse 2]
i'm sorry i hurt myself, to take my last breath
consumed by a guilt, in shadows i am left
i wanted to be free, to take my last breath
but without you i don't want to be dead

i wish i could tell you how i feel

"i don't want to die"

if only you knew what i felt: chapter 08

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/i-wish-you-treated-me-the-same

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
i see the way you
look at me, yeah i do
i feel the way you
judge me for what i do
because me being different seems to hurt you
because me being different seems to hurt you

i feel like a stranger
surrounded by you
i know you feel danger
like i'm gonna hurt you
but for some reason you don't think i feel it too
but for some reason you don't think i feel it too

[chorus]
but i want to seem the same
i cannot try to change and feel less shame
we share the same pain
the same love
we share the same veins
the same blood
but you see me differently based on my looks

[verse 2]
you tell me i'm not worth
all things i've achieved
you tell i've stolen
them from you, with deceit
but i've put the work in, and you won't believe
i've put fucking work in, you'll never believe

tell me to go back
to where i came from
tell me to go back
to my fucking slum
you love assuming what i am
you fucking love assuming i steal, 'just like them'

[bridge]
i deserve the same as you
i'm not worse than you

i wish you treated me the same

a revisitation of my old song 'you heal me' (https://soundcloud.com/revenant-edm/you-heal-me)

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/you-heal-my-scars

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[verse 1]
with every breath you take
you make art from my pain
you bring the light and turn the tides
through the tears that i would hide

you heal scars like dawn meets night
dark echoes into morning light
you paint the sky with colours so bold
where once i was trapped alone

[verse 2]
we'll write stories in the stars
we'll find our way, a new start
with each heart beat
we'll paint the sky with our dreams
 
[verse 3]
with you by my side
you make me feel alive
with every breath
we'll heal memories thread by thread

[chorus]
and as we fade together
i'll be with you forever
we'll heal our broken hearts
i hope you know you heal my scars

you heal my scars

you heal my scars [you heal me ii]

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/i-love-you-and-ill-never-leave

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[verse 1]
haunted, regret, a world so cold
i sought escape, a story untold
a lost sense of self, a stranger so frail
i gave up and lost, a spirit so pale

[verse 2]
i know that i hurt you
it felt like all i could do
no matter what i tried
i couldn't break through

i wanted to take my last breath
and let my heart beat one last time
i wanted everything to end
to fall asleep and soar the skies

but your tears told me stories
that i couldn't ignore
the lessons they had taught me
the pain i caused and who i'd torn

[chorus]
i was scared it was too late
i'd never hear your voice again
regrets like a storm, crashing in waves
i'd die and cause you endless pain

[bridge]
you mean so much, it's in you i'll live
for you there's so much i would give

[verse 5]
when darkness had consumed me
in shadows i withdrew
i truly am sorry
for everything i'd caused you

i tried to let breath become air
but you never let me fall
i'll always be there
i promise i'll never let you go
i promise i'll never let you go

[chorus]
i was scared it was too late
i'd never hear your voice again
regrets like a storm, crashing in waves
i'd die and cause you endless pain

[verse 7]
i tried to let breath become air
but you never let me fall
i'll always be there
i promise i'll never let you go

[outro]
i love you, i'll never leave
one day we will be at peace
i love you, i'll never leave
one day we will be at, be at, peace


i promise i'll never leave
one day we will be at peace

'i love you and i'll never leave'

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/wait-for-me

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with my last breath

wait for me (feat. Flixamon)

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thank you for everything

a lil something before i start releasing the next album, enjoy the new style x
free download here: https://songs.revenantmusic.net/somebody-that-i-used-to-know

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somebody that i used to know [revenant cover]

gotye - somebody that i used to know [revenant cover]

hey so this will be the last of remixes/songs for a while :(
sadly i have to focus and get my head down with A-Levels and work hard for them. wish me luck! (and i may upload some stuff here and there and some old abandoned projects)💕💕

update if anyone gives one but i got 4A*s and got into med school so i am happy x
-
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Adventure

Free Download

Madeon - Innocence feat. Aquilo [Revenant Remix]

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Reminiscence

The Fall Out

The Fall Out [Finity Release]

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14/18 of Reverie

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Reverie

Colours (feat. KITTN)

Colours

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Part 6/7 of In Another Life

This is my favourite song from the album, thanks to my insanely talented friend @skylimit-official. He's genuinely one of the most talented people I know and you guys should check him out :))

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Lyrics:
Fly.
Fly.

I can feel a presence that lives in the cold thin air,
but every time I open my eyes no one is ever there.

And out there where the stars collide,
I feel a call to the other side.
I think I'm losing my mind,
or are you really there?

I don't wanna say goodbye, but I think I'm ready to fly.
I'm reaching out to the sky, so take me.

Fly.
Fly.

And out there where the stars collide,
I feel a call to the other side.
I think I'm losing my mind,
or are you really there? 

We'll open the sky,
and in time, we'll fly.

I'm not gonna say goodbye, I'm reaching out to the sky.
So take me.

We'll fly.
We'll fly.

Don't let me fall down.
Don't let me fall down.

Don't let me fall down.
Take me and don't let me fall down.

In Another Life

Don't Let Me Fall (feat. Skylimit)

16/30
i wrote a small loop of the drop of this song back in early 2018, and came across it in july 2020.

the theme of get out of my head relates to "i won't let you go". this is about the mental torment that can take place in vulnerable people, and how its effects can still linger despite them being gone.

i'm fed up with you still fucking over my life and hurting me despite you being gone physically. leave me alone. just get out of my head.

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net/

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what am i to you?
tell me what i'm doing wrong
why do you take me for granted?
what is going on in your head?
what did i do?

you're not who you used to be
im tired of the fucking mental gymnastics
im fed up of the fucking uncertainty

[verse 1]
wherever i go, you're always there watching
never saying goodbye
always on my mind, ripping into my soul
creating storms from life's tides

what do you gain from playing all these mind games?
and tearing me apart
what do you gain from tormenting me silently
burning up my heart

[verse 2]
you lead me on a path to nowhere
we both know that you never cared

[pre-chorus]
you lead me on a path to nowhere
all i ask is for you to get out of my head

[chorus]
get out of my head
you never cared

[verse 3]
anxiety, swirls and makes me drown
misery, drags me to the ground
how we used to be, you broke what we had vowed
can't you see? your lies have all unwound
i'm on my knees, i beg for a way out
at your mercy, sinking in self-doubt

[verse 4]
wherever i go, you're always there watching
never saying goodbye
always on my mind, ripping into my soul
creating storms from life's tides

what do you gain from playing all these mind games?
and tearing me apart
what do you gain from tormenting me silently
burning up my heart

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
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nothing special

get out of my head

read about it

read more about the song here: revenantmusic.net/youre-all-i-see

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[verse 1]
i know you're trying to hold on to me
by saying i'm your reason to breathe
there's no shadow of what we used to be
your disbelief is what you'll always see

[verse 2]
you used me to stay afloat in your sea of despair
while leaving me to die  
i'm drowning in your idea of love, gasping for air
but you used me all this time

[verse 3]
you say 'don't leave me'
'cause you're all i see'
'please don't leave me'
'cause i'll cease to be'

[pre-chorus]
i'm tired of living for everyone but me
why does your life depend on me?
bleed me to death and one day you'll see
you'll regret saying 'you're all i see'

[chorus]
you'll burn in hell
for what you've done to me
i'm obsession, your sweet misery

i'll make you burn in hell
for what you've done to me
i'm your obsession, your sweet misery

i'll find no peace
until you're history
i'll make sure that you remember me

[end]
you say 'don't leave me'
'cause you're all i see'
i'm finally free
but you'll remember me

you're all i see

3/30
i began writing "you're not you anymore" on the 8th of march 2021. initially it began as a guitar loop with drum breaks under, and i was stuck on where to take it. eventually i added the breakcore drop and polished up the song before contacting my good friend roix to collaborate.

this song began around the time i started to sense people i held close to me were no longer who they were. i was living in a false reality, seeing them through rose-tinted glasses, unable to accept the fact that the versions of them i wanted were gone, and that they slowly morphed into people that did more harm than good. i made the mistake of putting them above everything else to try and get them to stay and be what they used to be, but eventually came to terms that what they once were had faded.

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artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
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lyrics:
[verse 1]
as time goes on i feel you fade
you tell me it's all in my head
but we both know
what we have is destined to be dead

[verse 3]
you tell me that i'm not who i was
how do you expect me to be so
when you're not you anymore

[chorus]
fighting for
a hopeless cause
i give my all
for nothing at all
why won't you
tell me why
you're not you anymore

[chorus]
fighting for
a hopeless cause
i give my all
for nothing at all
why won't you
tell me why
you're not you anymore

only good for giving

you're not you anymore w/ Roix

you're not you anymore w/ roix

nothing special.
a beautiful, yet hurtful life.
musician + doctor

1/2 of @codenameniocell + @ghostkidclub
contact: mgmt@revenantmusic.net

https://revenantmusic.net/

Revenant

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