28/30

i know this song seems out of nowhere but it's primarily just a vent tbh and sorry if this is rambly.

i'm in one of those ruts again where i want to be left alone yet fear it
i know that my mind telling me to isolate myself is to be self-destructive but i can't help but desire the concept of just vanishing from existence as a whole and to have never existed.

i can't do that though, it would hurt people and i'm aware. a lot has gone into making me who i am, such as the training that med school has given me so far, or Parable, or my friends and close ones who i love with all my heart. it would all go to waste.

i can't help but feel this pressure of having to be the most energetic and excitable. i feel like i always have to be entertaining and keep people happy, and that i cannot get burned out, yet it's happening, and it's happening fast.

i don't know how to piece my thoughts or get across what i'm trying to say and frankly, this is a complete mental dump here. i'm aware many other people are going through the same thing, but every single day feels like a repeat of itself, and i'm watching people close to me also decline mentally and slowly fall into the rut i'm in, and it crushes me.

seeing once lively and energetic loved ones slowly succumb to the mental torture that we have to endure due to current circumstances globally hurts. i feel useless and helpless. i know it's not my battle and theirs but god i wish i could do something to help. i wish i knew a way to get them out of it and remind them of the good things life holds, yet i can't even tell myself that.

this song is a prelude to the next album im planning on releasing, or selection of songs. "only good for giving" will encompass all of the things i have felt over the last few years and how much it has shaped me, because frankly the last couple years have been hell and have completely changed who i am as an individual, thankfully making me better and more self-aware, but not in an ideal way.

i apologise for this mental dump and just want to reassure that i know i can get through this and that i'm using the help and support available, such as my friends and therapy. i just felt sharing it and telling the story behind this song was something nice to do.

if you are going through anything at all and feel like you're trapped or lost, you have me. although everything i said above sounds incredibly pessimistic, all of these things will end soon, and we'll be working our way towards better futures

nothing special

please leave me alone

download

track 11/30

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go fuck yourself i hate you lol

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[verse 1]
you really think that i was fucking stupid
i let my guard down and let you in my head 

[chorus]
you couldnt handle your feelings
you think you didn't do anything

[verse 2]
you say i don't care because i didn't cry
because all you fucking did was tell lies

[chorus]
you couldnt handle your feelings
you think you didn't do anything

you think you've done nothing wrong?

you couldn't handle your feelings w/ Crosswise

i figured i'd upload this today as a lil thank you for being in my life as it's my 22nd birthday today :))

this year's been insane to me, and throughout i've grown a lot as a person, gained lots of lovely friends and lost some others. this year's brought a lot of good things to me and without your support, they wouldn't be the way they are.

i have never been so motivated to push myself to be the best i can be before, nor have i ever been as positive about myself. this year has been the best for me, musically, and academically. 

this is one of my all-time favourite songs and has carried me throughout so many parts of life, from losing things dear to me, to gaining new ones. as cheesy as a lot of people make it, k?d has been a massive role model to me. i always aspire to make different genres and styles and push myself a lot and a lot of it is thanks to them and their insanely diverse skillset.

i've had some rough rough times throughout these last few years, being tested and pushed to my limits, but thanks to my friends and those close to me, i'm here and still breathing.

thank you for being in my life, i love you.

- also the artwork and style is a lil teaser of the next album's direction, i still am releasing the current one to give myself some time to perfect it. (also i have a new song out next friday xx)

art creds: me :))

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my socials

k?d - lose myself (feat. phil good) [revenant remix]

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featured on @thearcadium: https://soundcloud.com/thearcadium/revenant-until-we-fall

part of my album "Reminiscence" - https://soundcloud.com/revenant-edm/sets/reminiscence

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Chapter 13: Until We Fall
This is the biggest project I’ve worked on and spent above 50 hours on it, ensuring that this is the best song I have made, because it holds a lot of meaning to me.

This is the second part to The Fall Out and is about the happier things in life. This song is devoted to the people (or person) we hold dearly and closely to ourselves. The people who gives us peace in our minds and make us feel better. The people whose presence alone improves our mood and makes us content. It is important that we cherish and show that we love and appreciate these people, and remind them of how amazing they are and how happy they make us, as well as the huge positive impact they have on our lives.

These people change us, guide us to become better people and improve us overall. They help us get through the roughest patches in our lives and support us when we’re at our lowest and it’s vital that we support them and help us back. These people that we love and hold close are what makes life better and more tolerable. Life is unpleasant at times and can be a struggle, but their presence makes everything so much easier. This song is just for us to appreciate those beloved people who get us through so much and let them know that they keep us going and deserve the world and the absolute best.

A lot of people see themselves as inferior and think they have little to no impact on others, but in truth, their existence and unique personality has huge impacts on other peoples’ lives directly and indirectly, and they’re just being themselves. Out of all the people to have ever existed and those who will exist in the future, no-one will ever be the exact same as them, no one will ever be an exact copy and this is what makes them special and worth everything in the world 


Lyrics
[verse 1]
-	I believed, dreams came from lies
and that tale, we cannot fly
and it kills, I cannot breathe


-	sounds psychopathic, and deceased
just imagine you and me
in the place you wanna be


-	and I know that, you won’t let me go


[chorus]
-	transparent wings that you can't see
how does it feel to be free
a bit higher and you'll see
I told you


-	the sky won't come down tonight
every time there's another fight
you will know when the time is right
keep flying high until we fall


[verse 2]
-	written stories in our minds
lying teachers, covered inside
paintings wasted, under the sea


-	we are both on the ropes
both with dying final hopes
and there's something you should know
and I know that, I won’t let you go

-

Reminiscence

Until We Fall

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Only Way Out

free download

Madeon - Only Way Out feat. Vancouver Sleep Clinic [Revenant Cover]

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Part 1/8 of In Another Life, I hope you guys like what's about to come, I've been experimenting in more synthpoppy indie stuff hehe <33

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Lyrics:
another night of wasted sadness
all alone in frays of madness
come again, you're fading fast dear
just sit down and spend some time with me here
oh, with me 
just spend time with me

will you stay by my side
if i'm feeling low
these curious times
call for me to go

nothing lasts forever, no
so just give me your all 
and i'll hold you

another night of wasted sadness
all alone in frays of madness
come again, you're fading fast dear
just sit down and spend some time with me here
oh, with me 
just spend time with me

i'll stay by your side
when you're feeling low
even when you think
that you have to go

i know that nothing lasts forever 
but for now i see us, together

another night of wasted sadness
all alone in frays of madness
come again, you're fading fast dear
just sit down and spend some time with me here
oh, with me 
just spend time with me

In Another Life

By Your Side (feat. North Sky & KITTN)

Stream

By Your Side (feat. North Sky)

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Part 4/7 of In Another Life

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Lyrics:
counting days gone by
drifting with life's tides
memories and echoes of our goodbyes

living dreams we left behind
cremating the times
feel the dark ashes rise

cold and paralysed
trapped in a skin disguise 
left me here waiting
for tomorrow to come alive

as i look into your eyes
regret consumes my mind
have you left to leave behind
you've killed the fading light

you didn't know wrong and right
i let you get into my mind
you didn't value my life
why would i forgive your lies

was the wasted time
worth the strife
our flames flickered
and now have slowly died

Come Alive (feat. Celeste Marie)

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Part 7/7 of In Another Life

I hope you guys enjoyed this album, I had a lot of fun writing it and learned a lot of new things along the way.

Writing this album helped me develop a somewhat okay level of versatility in music and I cannot recommend doing this enough. You experimenting and trying new things in music can really help shape you and teach you new things, and the same applies for all things in life. As cheesy as this sounds, give everything a shot, be open-minded and aim to try a lil bit of everything.

I want to say thank you again for sticking by through this era of my music, can't wait to see what follows <33

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Lyrics:
i don't care for your lies
how you'd tell me them eye to eye
you should've never come into my life
if all you brought was spite

i dreamt of you by my side
dreamt of growing old and sharing time
counting sleepless nights
can't get us out of our minds

look at us now
do you think of me when i'm not around
starless skies and
wasted hours

we'd both promised
each other the world
look where we are
and how it's burned

you held up your disguise
telling me we would shine
can't get us out our minds
everything was

all wasted time
you should've never come in my life
it's wasted time
why did i fall for your lies

Wasted Time

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Part 5/7 of In Another Life

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Connect with sunbloom (FKA: Snow Ghost)
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Lyrics:
Strip me down to my atoms
Wither me down to my core
Let my soul be overgrown
So I don’t feel anymore

Dilute my blood with the sound
Of the ripples cascading down
Let the white noise pull me under
Until distortion tears me out

I won’t drag you down
You’ve got enough weight to carry
Enough to make you drown

Keep your head held up high
When the moon glows above us
We can find some safety among the clouds

This hollow heart keeps me captive
But this starlight gives me hope
Are the shadows haunting my dreams
Or am I a ghost that haunts myself

Tear me down to my atoms
Break me down to my core
I know I’m not the strongest, but this
hollow heart won’t hold me any more

Hollow Heart

Revenant x N33T x Snow Ghost - Hollow Heart

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物の哀れ is a japanese term that can't directly be translated into english. it means an appreciation of the transience of things.
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one day i'll be gone, and the last person will think of me for the last time, and i'll be forgotten like all the others who preceded me. the world will keep on spinning when im gone. the way i speak, the way i act, the way i laugh, the way i cry, all will fade away. the jokes i tell, the weird quirks in the way i speak, everything that makes me who i am will be gone one day.
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i hate the feeling of being such a small speck, something so mediocre and minuscule in the grand scheme of things. i want to leave something behind. i want to leave an imprint or a mark, a change to someone's life for the better. i want to leave something that'll outlive me and keep my spirit going when i pass away.

im trying with my music to create something as well as trying to become a doctor. i want to make people feel something, i want to convey a message to people through what i do and make their lives better. im not in this to become a sellout star performing at ultra music, i couldn't care less about plays and stats, i want my music and who i am as a person to stand out, i don't want to fade away.

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物の哀れ

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Part 3/8 of In Another Life

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Lyrics:
Hey
Oh hey
It would so nice if you left my mind
Hey 
Oh hey 
I would be so fine if I slept at night

My life is ruined by my own mistakes
No one to blame because those choices have been made 
By me
Illusion of your laugh will slowly fade
And I will hate myself for even more of those mistakes

Please don’t leave me standing there
In the middle of nowhere
I can see that you don’t care
In your love affair

Hey
Oh hey
It would so nice if you left my mind
Hey 
Oh hey 
I would be so fine if I slept at night

Your hair, your mouth, your eyes, the way you dressed
Confess, I used to look at you with pounding in my chest
Tequila just became my only friend
“Drinking alone is never good” whatever, I’m so messed

Please just leave me standing there
While you are with him, farewell
I will act like I don’t care
When I’m in hell

Hey 
Oh hey
It would so nice if you left my mind
Hey 
Oh hey 
I would be so fine if I slept at night

Leave (feat. Bighearted Kiro)

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5/18 of Reverie

hope you guys like this one, got the god himself north sky singing on this <3

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Fractures

The Other Side (feat. North Sky)

stream

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6/18 of Reverie

I initially put Find A Way out for remixes only for this god to produce this absolutely beautiful version of it, I couldn't just throw it out as a remix and re-sang some of it for him and we called it a VIP.
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metio is an absolute god with his music and has been making really hard-hitting stuff, you guys should go show him some love, SERIOUSLY FOLLOW HIM HE MADE THIS MF FUCKING VIP IT'S SO GOOD:

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Reverie

Find A Way VIP

Revenant x metio - Find A Way [VIP]

7/30
i started writing "what am i to you?" on the 2nd of march 2020 and finished it in november. this song reflects on the overall feelings i'm trying to portray with the only good for giving album.

there have been plenty of times where i've sat thinking what i mean to people, and how the people that do me wrong see me. it makes me wonder how they judge what someone's worth to them, and how they can see another person and inflict so much harm to them without feeling remorse. throughout writing this song, i wanted to convey how low i felt to be treated worse than scum, and what i did to make people perceive me that way.

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artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
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stems: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/170xss8_zaazcudps6kbsyqueu3ulmj5p?usp=sharing

[verse 1]
you've made me a fallen ghost
turned my heart to stone
after i gave you my all

and now that we're done for
no longer bring comfort
where do we go?

[verse 2]
and there's no way
that things could change
after what we've been through
what am i to you?

[chorus]
what am i to you?

what am i to you?

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14/18 of Reverie

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Colours (feat. KITTN)

Colours

why did you fucking lie and make it a childish fantasy?
why did you fucking lie and make it a childish fantasy?
why did you fucking lie and make it a childish fantasy?
why did you fucking lie and make it a childish fantasy?

16/18.

Breathe

20/30
i finished writing lifeline on the 9th of april 2020. this was just after a rather dark time where i had gone through significant life changes, during which i realised a lot about who i am as a person. this is one of my favourite songs, and although i was in a dark place at the time of writing this, hearing back on it now brings me peace, knowing i'm out of what i was once trapped in.

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genius: https://genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

lyrics:
[verse 1]
show me some hope
it hurts as i twist and turn
give me a miracle
bring me to your warmth

[verse 2]
how did we fall apart
i didn't mean to bruise your heart
i see a slowly fading sky
i wish you'd never said goodbye

you used to heal my scars
and now i'm lost in the dark
another sleepless night
as life pulls me in its rough tides

[chorus]
and as the dreams unfold
and a cast a spell
through all the storms you kept me afloat

and i hope we come home
our fates untold
and together we'll grow old

i need healing
give me my lifeline
together
we'll fall into the light

only good for giving

lifeline

read about it/download

1/30.
i began writing "atelophobia" on the 25th of april 2020. i initially wanted to make the song based around trance but started incorporated breakcore at the end, inspired by my friend dirty-ware. as the title says, atelophobia is about the feeling of never being enough, something that plagued me throughout 2020. at the time of writing this i felt that every positive trait about me was a facade and that people would eventually discover that, as described by impostor syndrome.

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artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
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[verse 1]
i feel trapped inside my skin
holding back fears held within
i am scared that one day you'll see
i won't be what you expect of me

[verse 2]
i want to be set free from this curse
constantly feel like im not the others
i want to be set free from this curse
constantly feel like im not the others

[verse 3]
can you hear
through storms that rage
can you see
i wish i could change

[pre-chorus]
when i fade
into the shadows
no-one will know

[chorus]
i want to be enough (enough)
enough

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

atelophobia

9/30
i started writing this song in january 2021. i was placed away from home on a medical school rotation in the heat of the third uk lockdown and my mental health had sank. i didn't know anyone i was staying with and with what i was dealing with at the time i couldn't find it in me to try and befriend them, which isn't usual of me due to the fact i love talking.

i was in a sticky situation with the people around me. there was drama everywhere and always uncertainty over who was going to stay and what was going to happen. everything became incredibly difficult and it took all the willpower i had to keep myself doing even basic things like getting up in the morning and showering. i was stuck with people who took me for granted yet expected me to go to every extent possible for them.

i would always reminisce about the earlier years of starting university. i started in 2018, one of the nicest years of my life. i missed the idea of having a new change to look forward to, and how i felt safe and surrounded by people i know i could confide in, and hence this song was written.

i approached one of my best friends, who goes by the name khepri. i really liked how they sang in other songs and wanted for them to put their spin on mine. i'm very proud and lucky to be able to call them my friend. you should support them on their commissions and art:
https://kheprisocials.carrd.co/

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net

connect with khepri:
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/khxpri
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/khepriisun/
twitter: https://twitter.com/khepriiisun
commissions: https://ko-fi.com/khepriisun

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48icw89lgb8t7c7anuit0q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

lyrics:
i want us to see
what we used to be
we were just little kids
playin in the autumn leaves

i want things to be the way they were
i want things to be the way they were

i want us to see
what we used to be
we were just little kids
playin in the summer streets

i want things to be the way they were
i want things to be the way they were

i want things to be the way they were
i want things to be the way they were

when we were just kids in autumn leaves
i want things to be the way they were

i want things to be the way they were

i want things to be the way they were (feat. khepri)

6/30
this was a song i had on my pc since 2018. it was inspired by artists like shingo nakamura, with their old-school sounding progressive house tunes. it was the kind of music i would listen to while studying for my exams to get into medical school.

i came back to this song in 2020 and listened to it again and it reminded me of the times of 2018, the work i put into my exams, meeting my internet best friends, making and losing close relationships, and the glee of finding out i was accepted into medical school.

i contacted my friend celeste marie to sing on the song and she provided vocals that perfectly encapsulated the vibe i was going for.

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48icw89lgb8t7c7anuit0q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

stems: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1biz8g4n7omrbgxo-u2z3h60h0t3hfp0i/view?usp=sharing

[verse 1]
fading stars
in a crashing sky
sleepless nights
yet in silence we lie

[pre-chorus]
i hear our echoes
lullabies from distant worlds

[chorus]
strangers once more
but there's something we both know
our echoes
won't ever go

[verse 2]
through reverbed halls
plays our downfall
wonder where your mind goes
does it matter at all?

[pre-chorus 2]
i see your colours turn
through a rose-tinted kaleidoscope

[chorus]
strangers once more
but there's something we both know
our echoes
won't ever go

strangers once more (feat. Celeste Marie)

Check out my website for stories behind songs and other cool stuff: https://revenantmusic.net/

Part 6/7 of In Another Life

This is my favourite song from the album, thanks to my insanely talented friend @skylimit-official. He's genuinely one of the most talented people I know and you guys should check him out :))

Connect with me:
Soundcloud: @revenant-edm
Instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
Twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
Audius: https://audius.co/revenant
Genius: https://genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

Connect with Skylimit:
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/skylimit-official
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/4uNkWuX0k…kXTrSe_k6pRyYoMQ
Instagram: www.instagram.com/skylimitofficial/

Lyrics:
Fly.
Fly.

I can feel a presence that lives in the cold thin air,
but every time I open my eyes no one is ever there.

And out there where the stars collide,
I feel a call to the other side.
I think I'm losing my mind,
or are you really there?

I don't wanna say goodbye, but I think I'm ready to fly.
I'm reaching out to the sky, so take me.

Fly.
Fly.

And out there where the stars collide,
I feel a call to the other side.
I think I'm losing my mind,
or are you really there? 

We'll open the sky,
and in time, we'll fly.

I'm not gonna say goodbye, I'm reaching out to the sky.
So take me.

We'll fly.
We'll fly.

Don't let me fall down.
Don't let me fall down.

Don't let me fall down.
Take me and don't let me fall down.

Don't Let Me Fall (feat. Skylimit)

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

vocals by nivviana:
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/nivviana
twitter: https://twitter.com/nivviana
twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/nivviana

i gave you my all

i gave you all my all

16/30
i wrote a small loop of the drop of this song back in early 2018, and came across it in july 2020.

the theme of get out of my head relates to "i won't let you go". this is about the mental torment that can take place in vulnerable people, and how its effects can still linger despite them being gone.

i'm fed up with you still fucking over my life and hurting me despite you being gone physically. leave me alone. just get out of my head.

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48icw89lgb8t7c7anuit0q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: https://audius.co/revenant
genius: https://genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

what am i to you?
tell me what i'm doing wrong
why do you take me for granted?
what is going on in your head?
what did i do?

you're not who you used to be
im tired of the fucking mental gymnastics
im fed up of the fucking uncertainty

[verse 1]
wherever i go, you're always there watching
never saying goodbye
always on my mind, ripping into my soul
creating storms from life's tides

what do you gain from playing all these mind games?
and tearing me apart
what do you gain from tormenting me silently
burning up my heart

[verse 2]
you lead me on a path to nowhere
we both know that you never cared

[pre-chorus]
you lead me on a path to nowhere
all i ask is for you to get out of my head

[chorus]
get out of my head
you never cared

[verse 3]
anxiety, swirls and makes me drown
misery, drags me to the ground
how we used to be, you broke what we had vowed
can't you see? your lies have all unwound
i'm on my knees, i beg for a way out
at your mercy, sinking in self-doubt

[verse 4]
wherever i go, you're always there watching
never saying goodbye
always on my mind, ripping into my soul
creating storms from life's tides

what do you gain from playing all these mind games?
and tearing me apart
what do you gain from tormenting me silently
burning up my heart

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

get out of my head

read about it

2/30.
i began writing "impostor syndrome" on the 13th of september 2020. this track was the follow-up to atelophobia and also conveyed the same message of feeling inadequate, along with the feeling of everything good being a facade, as well as everything bad. i went from moments of feeling horrible to much better, and in the moments of feeling better i would question whether the problems to begin with were valid or not. this often plagued my mind and made everything i was going through confusing.

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48icw89lgb8t7c7anuit0q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: https://audius.co/revenant
genius: https://genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

[verse 1]
as the days flow by
i've lost sense of time
is this who i am?
or am i a web of lies

threading reality
a string tears each time
is this who i am?
or am i a web of lies

[verse 2]
when it all subsides
i feel as though i've lied
it feels at sometimes
the life i live isn't mine

shrouded in mystery
when will i learn what's right
this current state of mind
is not how i'm defined

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

impostor syndrome

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
discord: discord.gg/2uEpQ4nYn2
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

[verse 1]
the fear is always consuming me
i can never be what you expect of me

[verse 2]
what do i do?
what am i to you?

[chorus]
you say they're gone now
they mean no more
you say you don't talk anymore

you say i'm better
yet it feels like
you'll never let go or say goodbye

[post-chorus]
what do i do?
what am i to you?

[verse 2]
you compared me to what they had done
telling me i wasn't enough
you feed the memories into my mind
you make me hate this pitiful life

[pre-drop]
all i want to know
is why you treat me so
i gave you my all
i know it isn't enough

when will i be as good as them?

track 26/30 of the album

read the stories behind my music here:
revenantmusic.net

i wrote the base instrumental to this song in September 2019. this was originally going to be a cover of a song that meant a lot to me. i then sent it to one of my best friends @nshvllmusic who added the pretty guitars and piano you hear in it, and I instantly fell in love with it.

the original idea of the song stemmed from the fact that around the time of making it, i had lost trust and faith in someone i held close to me. i didn't realise how much emotional damage they had been causing until i finally cut ties, which probably saved my life.

there was a lot of manipulation and gaslighting, and it altered my perception of myself and how i thought other people perceived me. i couldn't function or think properly, and its effects lingered on into new relationships with people despite them being gone. indirectly, they made me isolate myself from everyone, and held me alone to themselves. i couldn't confide in anyone, and was constantly living in fear of them.

this song highlights how even in the absence of something or someone that has had such a negative impact in your life, their effects and the scars left behind can still manifest in your life.

thankfully, through a lot of therapy and support from my loving friends, i can say i'm in a much happier and better place.

connect with nshvll:
soundcloud: @nshvllmusic
instagram: www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
twitter: www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
youtube: www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
bandcamp: nshvll.bandcamp.com/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

[verse 1]
i didn't wanna tell you how i felt
out of fear of losing you
i'm sorry this is what i'm like
still got memories left behind

[verse 2]
now things are dull and bitter cold
still sat here staring at my phone
and nothing feels as good alone

[verse 3]
i know i didn’t tell you how i felt 
but i couldn’t let you go
remember back when i saw you that day
i couldn’t look away

[verse 4]
now things are dull and bitter cold
still sat here staring at my phone
and nothing feels as good alone

[chorus]
it would be a lie if i told you
i wish you'd never come through
i'm tired of being a ghost
i won't let go

i won't you let go

read

i won't let you go w/nshvll

Check out my website for stories behind songs and other cool stuff: https://revenantmusic.net/

i just thought i'd share some stuff with you guys. this year has honestly tore me apart and many others too, but you guys give me drive and make me want to better myself.

thank you for sticking by, i love you.

ID List:
Revenant - stay with me [ID]
Revenant - we'll be one [ID]
Revenant - echoes (feat. Celeste Marie) [ID]
Revenant - ID (feat. Jay Parmesan) [ID]
Revenant - atelophobia [ID]
Revenant - impostor syndrome [ID]
Revenant - apathy [ID]
Revenant - get out of my head
CODENAME:NIOCELL - CHEAP IMITATIONS OF MODERN ART [ID]
CODENAME:NIOCELL - MOON_CHILD (feat. Jay Parmesan)
Revenant - you're all i see (feat. sunbloom) [ID]
Revenant - lifeline [ID]

Follow CODENAME:NIOCELL
https://soundcloud.com/codenameniocell

Connect with me:
Soundcloud: @revenant-edm
Instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
Twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
Discord: https://discord.com/invite/8RrCaQDtAM

2021 - ID Reel

stream my music

2021 - ID Reel [only good for giving preview]

8/30
i began writing "to feel alive" on the 23rd of january 2021. i wanted to write something more danceable and influenced by genres like synthpop and indie pop. i started to structure out the song then was introduced to scarlet bishop, an insanely talented saxophonist and sibling of one of my best friends. i sent them the song and they sent back audio files of them playing the saxophone and my mind was blown. we added the saxophone to the song and the instrumental was complete. all the song needed was vocals.

we went through many vocalists, asking many out of the realm of the underground edm scene, unfortunately to no avail. i then had the idea of asking another really good friend benana who nearly instantly returned with some of the most catchy vocals i've ever heard. i instantly fell in love and pushed for the song to be released as soon as possible out of sheer excitement.

the initial theme of the song was the repetitive nature of life. having to do the same tasks everyday, with each day feeling the exact same. benana brought his own flare to the song, bringing emotionally-driven and catchy vocals, completing the song.

this is one of my favourite songs i have ever been a part of, and cannot thank scarlet bishop and benana for their contributions. at the time of writing this song i was in a creative block and also felt blunted generally and little pleasure from things. working with these two insanely talented individuals brought a breath of fresh air to my music and life as a whole.

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48icw89lgb8t7c7anuit0q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: https://audius.co/revenant
genius: https://genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

connect with scarlet bishop:
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/15q5aqolqpcxvpqs9qccdb?si=2c4b9d388d844513
linktree: https://linktr.ee/scarletsax
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/scarletsax/

connect with benana:
soundcloud: @benanamusic
youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/uc_bpmzmz47namkbgy8l1gzq
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/3f7lfwwo7ryfvgohsz7vnh
twitter: twitter.com/benanananana
website: benana.carrd.co/
apple music: music.apple.com/us/artist/benana/1400671506

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

remix stems: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1aao4qq3vtf88_7nhvlk2rq0jmoxxnxsu/view?usp=sharing

lyrics:
i just want to feel alive
been locked up all this time
i just want to feel alive
cant you see you could be mine
i just want to feel alive

yeah, all of these days now 
feeling the same
losing my mind yeah
going insane 

i hear you calling but i see in black and white
trying to feel alive like every other night

cant you see
that i'm not alright
and i'm still falling 
falling cause you’re not around
yeah you
were my true sunlight
ohh ooh

i just want to feel alive
been locked up all this time
i just want to feel alive
cant you see you could be mine
i just want to feel alive
ohhh 
i just want to feel alive
ohhh
i just want to feel alive

ooh

ahh 

woah

oooh 

tell me where are you now when i need you the most 
(need you the most)
am i still in love or sleeping with your ghost?
 
cause i just want to feel alive 
feel alive 
feel alive in your arms

(in your arms)

oooh

i just want to feel alive 

oooh

la la la 
la la la la aah

to feel alive (feat. Benana)

to feel alive w/ Scarlet Bishop & Benana

3/30
i began writing "you're not you anymore" on the 8th of march 2021. initially it began as a guitar loop with drum breaks under, and i was stuck on where to take it. eventually i added the breakcore drop and polished up the song before contacting my good friend roix to collaborate.

this song began around the time i started to sense people i held close to me were no longer who they were. i was living in a false reality, seeing them through rose-tinted glasses, unable to accept the fact that the versions of them i wanted were gone, and that they slowly morphed into people that did more harm than good. i made the mistake of putting them above everything else to try and get them to stay and be what they used to be, but eventually came to terms that what they once were had faded.

check out my website: https://revenantmusic.net/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48icw89lgb8t7c7anuit0q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
youtube: https://www.youtube.com/revenantedm
genius: genius.com/artists/revenant-ishraq-choudhury

connect with roix:
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/roixofficial
twitter: https://twitter.com/roixmusical
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/2giakcbk4dvtssmvczcvkv?si=c5e779aee44a4949

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

lyrics:
[verse 1]
as time goes on i feel you fade
you tell me it's all in my head
but we both know
what we have is destined to be dead

[verse 3]
you tell me that i'm not who i was
how do you expect me to be so
when you're not you anymore

[chorus]
fighting for
a hopeless cause
i give my all
for nothing at all
why won't you
tell me why
you're not you anymore

[chorus]
fighting for
a hopeless cause
i give my all
for nothing at all
why won't you
tell me why
you're not you anymore

you're not you anymore w/ Roix

you're not you anymore w/ roix

nothing special.

1/2 of @codenameniocell
1/2 of @ghostkidclub
contact: mgmt@revenantmusic.net

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