the lyrics in this song actually hit me so hard

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
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In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

download

this is literally unfinished but i cant be bothered

uncolourful bass

Vestige

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 27/30

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lyrics:

[verse 1]
i'm not aware things are unknown
i should've held back to be alone
all these roses, all these burns
just to be done, it's over, no

another song to let me go
the antidote's done, overdose
mind in the clouds, look down below
and there is something you should know

every other night, you'll hug and cry
and all i seem to do is sacrifice
i wanted to stay by your side
you did this, and i wonder why

sorry you have cut the line
cause everything's just lost its sight
it's all your fault, i'd rather die
than give these problems another try

[chorus]
i'm not perfect, i'm not home
it's all because you said that's so
i'm not human, just confusion
cause of one mistake, you'd know

i'm not happy of the times
let alone our lullaby
it hurts now that you're gone
and there's regret everywhere i go

[verse 2]

i felt special, i felt loved
i felt brave, i felt at home
now mind just tends to roam
i want it to end, let me go

i feel like i didn't matter
all the times we had, just shattered
feeling like a losing battle
i don't know where to wander now

[verse 3]

oh was it actually a crime?
i dreamt of always sharing time
felt like the stabbing of a knife
when you did that, ruin my life

and i felt like i was special
away from all the other people
now things all feel bleak and dull
a sinking ship, you were my hull

[chorus]
i'm not perfect, i'm not home
it's all because you said that's so
i'm not human, just confusion
cause of one mistake, you'd know

i'm not happy of the times
let alone our lullaby
it hurts now that you're gone
and there's regret everywhere i go

everywhere i go ii

For the ɴᴜʀᴋᴏ remix contest. Enjoy :)

didn't win but it's fine, I still like what i made

Nurko - Disappearing Now [Sumic Remix]

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puppet - for 4s4ki (distant remix)

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like waking from a long dream, all is gone
you feel like nothing is worth it, it's time to stop

but look up to the sky
they are shining bright

the stars are calling, calling me

4/5

LAUVLAUVLAUV

Even

one with @xavimakesmusic
more stuff soon, cheers!

Overflow [w/Xavi]

Back It Up (Original)

put my whole turtle-ussy into this pack, enjoyyyy :)
ID's-
1. KAI WACHI- ILL X JOEL FLETCHER & SAVAGE- SWING X GUNNA- FUKUMEAN 
2. TEAR U APART- MOORE KISMET X BREAK YOUR HEART- TAIO CRUZ X CANNIBAL- KESHA 
3. A MILLI- LIL WAYNE X HIGHER- JUST BLAZE, BAAUER (KLAXX EDIT) 
4. DNA- KENDRICK LAMAR X STEPS ON YOU- NITEPUNK (ERROR105 REMIX) 
5. IF I HAD YOU- ADAM LAMBERT X T-REX TANTRUM- DINO SHADIX 
6. R.I.P- PLAYBOI CARTI X RIGHT ON- WHALES 
7. WHERE THEM GIRLS AT- DAVID GUETTA, FLO RIDA, NICKI MINAJ X CARNIVAL- YE (ew) X TELL ME WHERE- DINO SHADIX

WHERE THEM GIRLS AT X CARNIVAL X TELL ME WHERE

ALL MY LIFE SEEKING YOU

//

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Lyrics:

Softly, your words would fill the air
Yet I can hardly breathe when you're not there
It seems like lately you're nowhere
When I call ya, call ya, call ya

And I just need to know the truth
Is this the end of me and you?
I don't think I can take much more
I've never felt this way before
(Seeking You)

I'm fading away if i'm not yours
I can't bare to stay in this place anymore

Hold me close (don't say goodbye)
I need another day (or a lifetime)
Theres nothing (I wouldn't do)
Cause I spent all my life seeking you.

All my life, seeking you
(All my life, seeking you)

DossyX, Infowler & Kites - Seeking You

nothing special.
a beautiful, yet hurtful life.
musician + doctor

1/2 of @codenameniocell + @ghostkidclub
contact: mgmt@revenantmusic.net

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at the end of time

Revenant

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