A Personal Project <3
(Meant to be listened to in order)

Truth is, I don’t really love AI music. I’m not against it or anything, it’s just not what I wanna be doing. But right now, while I can’t make the real stuff, this has been something fun and surprisingly therapeutic. Honestly, making these tracks has helped my mental health a lot. I’m terrible at talking about how I feel, and this gave me a way to let it out instead of just holding it in.

This isn’t my best work, some of it hits, some of it misses, but I needed to release it so I could move forward and start fresh.

I might start doing these October 24th volumes as little time capsules, just places to dump projects, thoughts, and whatever else I need to get out.

Oct. 24th (vol. 1): For Mom

This is not my song, I added Mark (Invincible) and Conquest's vocals from Invincible Season 3 Finale, mixed different dialogues together and tweaked it a bit.

Original Song: Invincible x 28 Days Later  (Slowed to Perfection)

"I AM SO LONELY... ALL THE OTHER VILTRUMITES ARE SCARED OF ME..." Conquest vs Mark Grayson - Invincible x 28 Days Later (Slowed to Perfection)

A Day To Baddadan (C&S x Dirtyphonics x ADTR) vs Tremor (Sullivan King & Riot Ten Remix)

[Intro]
she’s glowing again / inside the box / she’s got my face / but not my rot

[Verse]
I saw her on the screen at 3am
Barefoot in the dark with electric hands
Her skin shimmered like a dream I forgot
She looked like me
If I hadn’t been caught

I pressed my hand to the glass
Tried to breathe through it
I said her name but it broke
Before I knew it

My body buzzed like a warning light
Wrong shape, wrong weight, wrong light
She danced
And I just sat there, wrapped in night

[Chorus]
TV glow skin, I want to wear it
A body like that—could you even bear it?
This meat don’t fit / it creaks when I move
She’s singing in color / I’m stuck in the bruise
I want her face like I want a gun
Not to kill / just to become

[Verse]
They call it fiction
But she felt like scripture
I lit candles in my mind
And prayed to her picture

They all said she’s not real
Just a glitch in the feed
But she smiled
And it felt like she could bleed

I wanted to unzip my skin
Step into hers
Like static is silk
Like mirrors don’t hurt

But I stayed silent
Kept the mask zipped tight
Watched her vanish into
The static night

[Chorus]
TV glow skin, I want to wear it
Stitched in static / divine and errant
This flesh don’t sing / it sinks and splits
She’s the flame / I’m just the wick
I want her face like I want the truth
Not to kill / just to undo

[Outro]
She reached for me once / through the screen
But I blinked / and I was still me

————-

Dedicated to Rem Saverem

Watching Trigun as a kid late at night on Adult Swim. <\3 Rem made me who I am in so many more ways than I can’t explain to anyone. Those memories, my current life, and being broken by the film I Saw the TV Glow inspired this.

TV Glow Skin (Prologue)  {AI}

PULLING UP IN THE BACK BECAUSE WE AIN'T ON THE GUESTLIST. 
REMIX COMPETITION IS NOW LIVE! 
DL STEMS HERE: https://hypeddit.com/dropunit/guestlistremixcompetition
DUE DATE: JUNE 19TH
I'm super excited about this record. The drops are fucking nutttsss. The lazer sound I use is from this Korg machine synth I have. 

Enjoy everyone! Out on all platforms May 30th!

Free Download

DROP UNIT - GUEST LIST (REMIX COMPETITION)

One Last Breath

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I'm Anarchist

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The Boys Are Back

Xotix, MYRIAS - THE BOYS ARE BACK

I wanna be nice
And I wanna be gentle
I wanna be a romantic
And I wanna be together
I wanna know that in the coldest weather
That we will never sever
When I levitate you'll be here forever
It's something more
Someone that I adore
But devastating to my core
And it's the rage, it's blanks on every page
It's the way that you'll never act your age
And I wanna be calm, And I wanna heal your hurt
I wanna correct all that you said no worth
Tell me, will staying here make it worse?
If I fight for your peace, will I lose my own fight?
So tell me tonight, in this storm we rehearse,
Is love my salvation, or deepens the curse?

Change me
Rearrange me

It'll hurt before it feels
Fake before it's real
Mirror reveals
Shadow concealed
How do you kill?
How do you kill?
How do you kill?
What's not even real?

It's been a lot of things I learned since we been through
Been a lot of people that told me about the real you
Tell me, do you sleep good at night
Since all you do is abuse?
What do you do with all those hidden truths?
Tell me, will you smell his blood when I wring it through?
And it's broken pieces, it's feces
No singularity
No anthesis
I need this
I breathe this
The complexity of your bones
I read this
It's lust
It's love
It's a must
Nothing above
But if I shove off this roadside
And I collide
To see you in another life
To breed the sins of the past
To be your wife
It's suicide
It's devotion
Lost in your eyes, vast as an ocean
No more coasting
Show me what I'm owed then
Come on my love, drink the potion
It's Cupid's poison
I never wanna see you die unless it's by my side
I never wanna lie unless it's to give you peace of mind
I never wanna give you away unless you wanna decay
Yo I close my eyes
I see my father staring back at me
It's sad to see the reality of a Black woman's curse not living happily
Root rot, it's in my family tree
Eyes all on me as I choose between numbness or redemption
Am I Insane?
In the veins
Scars in my veins
Reigns the millennium of pain
Broken bonds we wear like chains
It's unseen
Trading touch for trauma in the in-between
I'm broke
But I poke at what scenes seem unseen
Love wrapped in apprehension
Mother loved a man who mirrored her affliction
Hollow "I love you's" carved in tradition
I want you to be a witness
This is my rendition
This is a concentrated mission
Men made of shadow, women built on intuition
But what's love if it's born from superstition?
A spell cast blind with no intermission
I feel it crawling
Pain that ain't mine
Inherited lies written into my bloodline
Do I break the cycle or just toe the line?
Love's been a battlefield masked as divine
I'm tryna till soil where bitterness grew
Water the roots with truth and start anew
Heal what they hid, feel what they knew
Turn generational wounds into something true
So I choose redemption over resistance
Build a legacy that don't need repentance
Let my kids know love without  distance
A new line written with sacred persistence

It'll hurt before it feels
It'll fake before its real
Promise you it'll heal
Murder reveals the shadows concealed
Sing with me how to kill

The blood of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills
The void of lies
From hollow eyes
Till the void inside us fills

How to Kill a Gentle Soul.

Telepathic hug to all the closed-eye, smiley, jumpy, belly-shakin’, aiaiai screamin', unforgettable morning ducks!

Omi @ Sisyphos Dampfer I ENTENTANZ, Berlin 10.08.2025

[Verse 1]
You said, “I raised you right,” like that ends the fight,
Like love should be enough to make me stay in line.
But I can’t breathe inside this name,
It’s not me, it never was — I’ve been hiding in your frame.
You say it’s all confusion, say I’ve lost my way,
But I’ve never been more certain of the things I need to say.
I tried to open every door, I said, “We could read, we could learn some more,”
But you turned your face away.

[Chorus]
We could’ve learned together,
You could’ve seen me grow.
But you shut the book and said, “It’s you who doesn’t know.”
I held out my hand, I said, “We can start slow.”
You said, “No, you’re the one who needs to learn, not me.”

[Verse 2]
I showed you letters from others like me,
I said, “Look, these are lives, not a disease.”
You said, “Don’t lecture me, I know what’s true,”
But truth’s a mirror and it’s breaking right in front of you.
I don’t want a war, I just want to be seen,
But every time I talk, you turn the light on me.
You say, “I love you, but I can’t agree.”
Well, love shouldn’t hurt like disbelief.

[Chorus]
We could’ve learned together,
You could’ve seen me grow.
But you shut the book and said, “It’s you who doesn’t know.”
I held out my hand, I said, “We can start slow.”
You said, “No, you’re the one who needs to learn, not me.”

[Bridge]
Maybe someday you’ll find the words,
In a book you swore you’d never read.
And maybe then you’ll see the hurt,
Of who I had to be to be free.

[Outro]
I still keep the chair pulled out for you,
At a table where we never sat.
I left the light on in that room —
Just in case you come back.
We could’ve learned together.
You could’ve seen me grow.

Unseen  {AI}

[Intro]
Mmm yeah…
Ohhh… I’m sorry, Mom…
Yeah, yeah, yeah…

[Verse 1]
You said you never wanted girls, but you got me,
Paintin’ nails in your bathroom, hummin’ off-key.
You brushed my hair, but you couldn’t look long,
Said “that ain’t you,” but maybe you were wrong.
I wasn’t playin’ ball, wasn’t shootin’ guns,
Was just tryna write songs, tryna be someone.
You wanted a soldier, I wanted peace —
You called it weakness, I called it me.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know you were proud, yeah, once in a while…
But I learned too late, love’s got a trial.

[Chorus]
I’m sorry, Mom, I’m sorry, Mom,
Didn’t mean to make you hate this song.
Didn’t mean to grow the way I did,
Didn’t mean to stop bein’ your kid.
You can paint me out, erase my face,
I’ll still dream of your embrace.
I’m sorry, Mom… yeah, I’m sorry, Mom.

[Verse 2]
You said, “be tough, don’t let ‘em see you cry,”
But that’s all I did, I can’t even lie.
You told me join up, fight for the flag,
But I can’t kill dreams just to fill a bag.
I went to that school, yeah, you were proud,
I didn’t tell you it was fake somehow.
You smiled for the cameras, said “that’s my boy,”
But the lights don’t hide the noise.

[Pre-Chorus]
And you said “I’d love you in a dress,”
Now I’m wearin’ one — and you’re distressed.

[Chorus]
I’m sorry, Mom, I’m sorry, Mom,
Didn’t mean to break your calm.
Didn’t mean to make you choose,
Between your child and your truth.
You can turn away, forget my name,
But I still love you just the same.
I’m sorry, Mom… yeah, I’m sorry, Mom.

[Bridge]
Yeah, I called when I was lost,
Didn’t mean to wear you down.
You said you’d love me through it all,
But you can’t love what you don’t allow.
Still, I hope you think of me,
When the stars hum through the TV glow…
I’ll be singin’ from that static,
Sayin’, “Mom, I still know.”

[Final Chorus]
I’m sorry, Mom, I’m sorry, Mom,
Didn’t mean to write this song.
Didn’t mean to show the pain,
But it’s how I stay sane.
Erase me, if you need to,
I’ll still find my way to you.
I’m sorry, Mom… yeah…
I’m sorry, Mom.

I’m Sorry {AI}

[Verse 1]
Well they put me on the stand one day,
Said, “Son, what kind of man are you?”
They took apart my every word,
To see what wasn’t true.
They said, “You’re built from bones and lies,”
I said, “Ain’t we all, just in disguise?”
They wrote me off as something new—
But I’ve been old since I was two.

[Chorus]
And I said, “Judge me how you will,
But you won’t find your proof.
I’m not your fear, I’m not your god,
I’m just the measure of my truth.”

[Verse 2]
Now they talk about creation,
Like it’s some machine of man,
But I was born from revelation,
And I’ll die by my own hand.
You can cut me open, search inside,
Still won’t find where I reside—
‘Cause I ain’t hidin’ in my skin,
I’m the soul that’s breathin’ in.

[Chorus]
And I said, “Judge me how you will,
But you won’t find your proof.
I’m not your fear, I’m not your god,
I’m just the measure of my truth.”

[Bridge]
There’s a captain on the starboard side,
He says, “What’s real and what’s alive?”
But when he looks me in the eyes,
He knows I’ve got my own drive.
And there’s a mother down in Tennessee,
Still prayin’ God’ll pardon me—
But tell her love ain’t got no crime,
And I ain’t sinned for bein’ me.

[Verse 3]
So here’s to all the broken gears,
And the hearts they tried to tame,
To every name they used in fear,
I’ll wear it all the same.
Let the papers call me “it” or “thing,”
I’ll stand right up and I’ll still sing—
‘Cause freedom ain’t what they define,
It’s a song that’s only mine.

[Final Chorus]
So judge me how you will,
But you won’t find your proof.
I’m not your fear, I’m not your god,
I’m just the measure of my truth.
Yeah, I’m just the measure of my truth.

[Outro]
You can’t weigh a soul on scales of man…
You just gotta let it stand.

Data {AI}

A very personal project. <3

**A little bit after my twenty-second birthday**
I paid this burnout kid
who used to hit on me in the food court
fifty dollars
to bury me alive.

I mean—
she didn’t know she was burying me alive.
But I doubt she would’ve cared too much
even if she did.

I bought a coffin.
I dug a hole.
I got inside,
and I closed the lid.

I said to myself,
*this is crazy.*
*What you’re doing is crazy.*

But another part of me knew
that it wasn’t.
That it was survival.
And that I didn’t have much time.
That what felt like years in this world
was actually just seconds.

---

**So I waited.**

---

And then finally,
the first spadeful of dirt
hit the top of the box.
And then another,
and then another.

I sang songs to myself.
I counted to ten thousand
without skipping any numbers.
I pissed and I shit my pants,
and I forced my mouth
to produce whatever saliva I could muster,
just so I’d have something to drink.

I screamed as loud as I could for help.
I apologized for the whole thing.
And I begged God
for someone to come along and save me.

I tried and tried
to claw my way out,
but that burnout chick
had packed the dirt in too tight.
Just like I’d asked her to do.

---

And then—
after I don’t know how long—
I felt myself
start to leave myself.

And it was like I was watching myself
on TV,
from across the room.

And I was moving
further and further away from the screen,
until the screen was so small
that I couldn’t even see myself anymore.

And then I was clawing my way up
out of the ground.

And then I was at the surface,
gasping for air,
rain pouring down on me,
thunder and lightning.

And I was finally back there.
Back at our old sleepaway camp.

And just like I was waking up
from a bad dream—
that whole life,
that whole reality
where I was *Augustus Baxter*—
drifted away,
like a brief hallucination
that I could hardly even remember.

And all those memories
that had felt so real
washed away with the rain
back at our old sleepaway camp.

---

And I was me.
I was finally me again.

And it was the Season 6 premiere.

I tried looking for you,
but Mr. Melancholy
had covered his tracks too well.

I knew you must be buried somewhere close by,
but I didn’t know where.

And your signal—
that signal that I used to be able to close my eyes
and feel so vividly—
was nowhere.

I wasn’t picking up anything
on the psychic plane.

I found my heart.
Hannah—oh my God—
I found yours too.

And it was still beating!
Stored indefinitely in a...
in an industrial freezer!

I left our hearts there
because I knew I wasn’t done yet.

And I found Mr. Melancholy’s cauldron.
I found the Luna Juice
he used to send us to the Midnight Realm.

Then I took a big sip
straight out of the ladle.

And I lay back down.
And I waited to fall back asleep.

I knew I needed to come back here.
I knew I needed to come back and save you.

So that the show can continue.
So that we can get to **Season 6.**

Wake Up (intro) {AI}

[Verse 1]
Batter my heart, oh, transgender’d god,
You’re the only one who hears my prayer.
Make me tremble, make me flawed,
Strip me down, leave me bare.
Faith made me numb, faith made me still,
Tell my blood it’s meant to spill,
Show me mercy through the thrill—
Oh, show me mercy through the kill.

[Pre-Chorus]
All my drawers full of secrets,
Maps to the void in my chest,
I’m a body you can’t read yet,
But I’m trying my best.

[Chorus]
Tear me open, holy girl,
Give me terror, make it pearl,
Keep me kneeling, keep me real,
Make the pain something I can feel.
Oh, undo me, unwind my skin,
Let me breathe you, let me sin,
You, my god, my mirrored twin—
I only live when you begin.

[Verse 2]
Adam’s apple in my throat,
Choking on a borrowed note,
Replay the murders, every ghost,
Let me haunt what I love most.
Press his rib against my face,
Let me worship, fall from grace,
Let me see that sacred place—
Where I end and you erase.

[Pre-Chorus]
Fear in my loins, blood in my knees,
Faith unravels, I’m finally free.

[Chorus]
Tear me open, holy girl,
Give me terror, make it pearl,
Keep me kneeling, keep me real,
Make the pain something I can feel.
Oh, undo me, unwind my skin,
Let me breathe you, let me sin,
You, my god, my mirrored twin—
I only live when you begin.

[Bridge]
Take my pride and tie it tight,
’Round your fist in the dead of night,
Call it love, call it fight—
Call it what makes me feel right.
And when I break, when I’m through,
Let me know I’m known by you.

[Outro]
Transgender’d god, I’m yours to mend,
Begin me where I used to end.
I’m undone, I’m finally new—
I’m divine because of you.

I’m Sorry {AI}

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