Dolce Dreams

🍫🍫🍫 finally finished this 2 year old track

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CHOCOLATE 🍫

i want to sleep on a pink cloud in the sky

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infinity

4 am

I wrote this song about being sexually assaulted

you told me that I wanted it
that it was what I was made for
I did not fucking want it, but I could not say no
because I already did. and that didn't stop you

I panic
you say "nice resistance"
while you worm your way in to my head
now I'm not safe here anymore

please kill me
oh god I wanna die
i don't want to live anymore
please fucking kill me (please)

get the fuck out of my head
i can't be alone with myself or anyone else
they all remind me of you

it didn't make me stronger
it just fucking made me fall apart
and I didn't even
realize that it was because of you
oh I started cutting without realizing why

I can't get out of bed because of you
stuck in my head
even if i try to distract myself
at any moment i could get caught up in the memory
i don't want to go on any more
i don't wanna do this an mo-

-i don't want to live anymore
please fucking kill me (please)


when I look through my camera roll
at who i was before you
oh I wish I could be her
i wish I could go back to who i was before you
I started processing my childhood trauma
just for you to tear apart what was left

get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you

TW:SA I wish I could forget the taste of your violence

You have to have a heart for it to be broken
and I'm thinking of getting rid of mine
at least then I could maybe mean something to someone

without second guessing all the time
wondering when they're gon' get tired of me

but I don't wanna go back to watching my life
from the back of my eyes
the view is nice from a distance but I know it doesn't compare

I guess I'm getting why people stay away
a haunted house is no home until you've fixed me
it's in my bones. I'm rotten to my core

you'll never separate me from my trauma
just want someone to not care but also care

the odds of dying in a plane crash are higher than the odds of me being loved by someone I love

but I won't let that stop me. I've spent my whole life alone I won't let this break me no

it sure fucking sucks though

and all I do is suffer and all I want is peace
just want a sense of stability

just want to know what it's like to
have the ability to sleep

without staying up all day and night
just waking up in 3 hours
can't get back to sleep

A Haunted House Is No Home

i sat by the ocean and thought about how cool it'd be to take a Glock out and shoot at the water, instead I wrote this song :)

Dylan that guys from knivsout help me make this tehe <3

today I saw what appeared to be the world.

3nd 0f 4n 3rr0r (P. Knivsout)

codingJam-6

It's been a long time since I've posted anything on here, let alone finish a track. Times have been interestingly busy. Hope ya'll dig this track and groove to it.
Maybe i'll keep posting frequently again.

Love ya'll
M

#SCFIRST

On Wax

hi guys im rly sad because of everything goin on in my life :/ life is so complicated and there are so many struggles that you have to overcome, otherwise, you're going to feel even worse... let's stay happy together :)

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