Don't Know Where I Am (Now on Spotify)

Oxygen

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@heavyballs

running through my mind
can't even unwind 
all I see darkness
sanity can't harness
can't see it I'm blind
dunno what find 
gonna slit my wrist
why do I exist
crawling through the mud
soaked up in my blood
looking for directions 
feel like an infection
ain't felt shit it years
can't even cry tears
dunno what I fear
the voices all I hear

running through my mind
can't even unwind 
all I see darkness
sanity can't harness
can't see it I'm blind
dunno what find 
gonna slit my wrist
why do I exist
crawling through the mud
soaked up in my blood
looking for directions 
feel like an infection
ain't felt shit it years
can't even cry tears
dunno what I fear
the voices all I hear

Exist (Now on Spotify)

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@heavyballs

don't hit up my phone
all i wanna do is stay at home
don't hit up my phone
all i wanna do is stay at home
don't hit up my phone
all i wanna do is stay at home
don't hit up my phone
all i wanna do is

donthitupmyphone (Now on Spotify)

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@heavyballs

you know I think of you in some kind of special way
meant be home but my trip is delayed
and now I'm stuck screaming out your name

eyes bloody red
remember what you said
stuck inside my head
held on by thread

you know I think of you in some kind of special way
meant be home but my trip is delayed
and now I'm stuck screaming out your name
you know I think of you in some kind of special way
meant be home but my trip is delayed
and now I'm stuck screaming out your name

I know you think of me in some kind of special way
but you never came to show it and you know that it's too late

Special (Now on Spotify)

prod me x varsity beats
feat: @elsea98

@heavyballs

(HB Deakin)
1:45 ur calling my phone
n I ask u what u want
u want me to come home
one forty five ur calling my phone
n I ask u what u want
u want me to come home
late night hour you're reaching out to me
pick up the phone n ask u what u need
tell me what do you desire tonight
do you want me by your side holding you tight

(Elsea)
Million different questions
Have you got the answers
Always felt out of sight out of mind
Now I  wanna know , do you want me
Call my line, call my line
out of touch, out of mind 
I don’t wanna waste my time 
I don’t wanna sit around if all we are gonna do is fight 
I don’t wanna be there if thats only when you call
Do you wanna be here If that’s all we’re  good for?

(HB Deakin)
1:45 ur calling my phone
n I ask u what u want
u want me to come home
one forty five ur calling my phone
n I ask u what u want
u want me to come home
late night hour you're reaching out to me
pick up the phone n ask u what u need
tell me what do you desire tonight
do you want me by your side holding you tight

(Elsea)
I don’t wanna go round in circles 
Did you get my flowers they were purple
Cupid shot his arrows and I’ve fallen
Now I wanna know are you all in 
Cupid shot his arrows and I’ve fallen
Love potions where my antidote
Breathing tight feel like im gonna choke
If you want this meet me where the flowers grow

1:45 (Feat. ELSEA)

@heavyballs

prod. me

hold me
don't let me go
I just wanna feel something magical
bleeding 
all out my nose
hear a symphony make it classical

don't let me go 
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me
don't let me go 
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me

don't feel things no more
the eyes stare in galore
I feel used feel a whore
when I talk feel like a bore

so

hold me
don't let me go
I just wanna feel something magical
bleeding 
all out my nose
hear a symphony make it classical

dont let me go (Now on Spotify)

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@heavyballs

I can tell she got secrets by the stains on her sleeve
I can tell by her face all she wanna do is leave
I can tell by her eyes she no longer believes
she no longer believes 

cuts on her wrist will the pain ever end
blocking out the world she keeps losing all her friends
stoned in her room and she dunno what to do
stoned in her room with her head all full of doom

fighting demons stuck inside her head
feeling all alone thinking ways to end up dead
cut down to the bone
she got no one to call home
cut down to the bone
leave a message at the tone

Secrets

|| Heavy Balls Artist & Producer ||

i make experimental digicore hyperpop breakcore something something music and blame the shitty mixes on the experimental part

- dm on insta to collab -

HB Deakin

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