wrote at the end of the worst year of my life
30.12.22, please enjoy <333 
MMXX

im in pain everyday no i cannot escape
and my mind feels insane can it give me a break
i cant move its too late im in my own way
i cant name a single thing that makes me feel okay
everywhere i go i just dont feel like i belong
needa vent spill my guts when i write a song
they say life is a trip well the ride is long
i dont know if ill live i know ill be gone

i wish i didnt have to stay
saying that they need me but they leave me in pain
use me for a week and then throw me away
you know im easily disposable i know i cant change
fuck a mixer im drinking from the bottle
i can feel my thoughts start to fade every swallow
i been slowly drowning everyday in my sorrow
but if they see me then they clowning and you wonder why im hollow
now im stuck alone, gather all my thoughts and pick up my phone
tears down my face, pacing through my home
put the mask back on, no one knows what im on
told my friends i was tired
thats a fucking lie
wanna throw up all the time havent eaten in a while
you dont know me you only know my disguise
woulda thought theyd realise
i really am surprised whoa

i really am surprised oh
really am surprised oh
really am surprised oh


im in pain everyday no i cannot escape
and my mind feels insane can it give me a break
i cant move its too late im in my own way
i cant name a single thing that makes me feel okay
everywhere i go i just dont feel like i belong
needa vent spill my guts when i write a song
they say life is a trip well the ride is long
i dont know if ill live i know ill be gone

ill be gone
i know ill be gone
i know ill be gone

everyday [lucidbeatz]

AXTHER