MyLifeAMovie! (feat. Riley Krantz) (prod. Ayeseanmadeit)

A raw recording of a piece, inspired by Noora's set at Akimbo 2, as well as Common's "It's Your World"

[Verse 1]
I ask myself what makes a man - refuse to say another
Too many times I've seen them unmake
I prayed for, while they preyed on
Women, never have I met one who was unscathed

Ironically my scars when I trace
It leads me to them, and many words I wish to unsay
Like the times I said sorry, but only meant sorry
As a way to say that I regret ever feeling safe

To see my flaws chipped away like a blade of obsidian
To cut out a heart I've already given, mistakes
Were made, when I forgave, continued to play
Clinging to what I thought I deserved, or what I thought I was worth

I always wanted to serve, it wasn't seen as manly
My mother tells me of people that I don't see as family
The chisel renders them their sentencing, decisions
To continue down a path that brings closer what they're sprinting from


A vicious cycle with a stick in the spokes
And I would turn them all to stone just by picking a bone
Put simply: you don't understand what you never had to know
When you're hoping that I land where you never had to go

I used to hold you in these arms
I used to hold you in regard
Then I used to hold you in contempt, not even
I hold with all my strength, the feeling of not needing revenge

Aware of my wrongs, when I need to repent
She disappeared without a trace, never leaving a scent
The secrets she kept, the reason I wept
The freedom she always had, just to see me as a threat

To a safety that she sought behind a mask, so envisioned
The feeling of hating your captor in your own prison
Inflection in your tone when you say "nothing's wrong"
Has me hoping it's the last time I put you in poems, for real


The spiritual advisors all decreed in unison
"Finally you see this through to the end"
I'm in my room, where the mood's on a swing
All the truth's in this pen, all the proof in the end

Is found in the room where the rumors begin
Surrounded by true friends, and those that never knew him
Ghosts that never haunted him, foes who never cornered him
Shows he never showed up to, though he promised them

The false life tainted me, jobs have been draining me
Bottles have been staining me, I've always been afraid of me
Giving it all to an art that ain't sustaining me
Or standing tall in a society that's shaming me

So many days it feels my very best just ain't in me
You see strength but it ain't what it seems
It's merely 30 years of practice of painting a scene
While being convinced that the love I lack just ain't for me

It's a lot to undo, but at least to my credit
I'm no longer under the impression it's impossible
To conclude: what makes a man is irrelevant
Cause I am proud to be what another man has never been

Me, and yet better without better than
Never say never, but never again
All my life I've had to be in this corner
I still wanna see Barcelona, but this is my world
It's my world


[Hook]
It's just the place that I'm headed
They tell me look 'fore you leap
I got good feet when I'm landing
And all I need's to believe in myself
I got good feet when I'm landing
They tell me look 'fore you leap
But, it ain't the place that I'm headed

It's not the place that I'm headed...

Words After Noora (2023)

WORTH IT (OFFSET/DONTOLIVER) BUT ITS PL PL PL PLUGGG

#dontoliver #offset #worthit

WORTH IT (OFFSET/DONTOLIVER) BUT ITS PLUGGG

From a city with no one, 7 rises to shine the brightest light through the darkest sky. The hiatus has come to an end....

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