Everything about this song is just me jesus. . I guess that's why I'm thinking of her..

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mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

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Baby, are you feeling alright
It's the wrong time Baby it's the wrong time for us
Is it still okay for me to
Save her, when I'm losing my mind
It's the wrong time to be on the wrong side of love
We're reaching new horizons

I've been cast out
For the way I be now
I've been long gone
All is fine
I need to know
If I'm dying out
Do you think
You'd ever forget me

Baby, are you feeling alright
It's the wrong time Baby it's the wrong time for us
Is it still okay for me to
Save her, when I'm losing my mind
It's the wrong time to be on the wrong side of love
We're reaching new horizons

Will we ever meet again
Your beauty is mine
With the weight of my soul
I know that it's not over
It's not over yet
In this moment
The pain of my days begin to bleed over
I can't hide the fact I'm not sober
I'm distracted by the same ghosts

Sorry for the things that I have done
Save me from the things that I've become 

It's the wrong time to be on the wrong side of love
We're reaching new horizons

Black Lotus (prod. vici)

My album Melancholy is officially stream-able on all music platforms. Thank you to everyone who was involved in the creative process of this album.
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i fell in love

is there anyone home?

lyrics

[mæsk]

i cant listen to to u speak, gone and not coming back
she’s the one that fucked me up 
now she wanna blame her past now
feeling sloshed baby so u wanna talk now
i just needa stop 4 ur pushing me around

i should not
but now she in my arms
the face that look like heaven but behind 
its a ahhhhh
she calls my name like a saint
she fucked me up
but when in arms we can run it back

im running back on my own, dirt shoes
but she right on my neck to pay her dues
she said “i just hate it, i dont wanna make it if im not with you”
know ur on ur own on this one
but i can make it fun
my angel speaks, i wont listen
i think the horns have won

[flesh]
you can say you're sorry all you want know you dont mean it
you just wanted someone you could fuck and share your weed with
never really gave a shit about how i was feeling
im a hollow body to you none of it had meaning

hollow bodies w/ flesh golem (flesh x nihil空)

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lyric video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPIvvAMBfkg&ab_channel=CHRISRAIN


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SPOTIFY

MY FRIEND

love song 4 the ghost i see in my room sometimes 

original beat by killedmyself (chopped and pitched)
additional violin by my good friend Mohini 

its not somethin else
its exactly whats the most obvious
its so easy to tell
and im no good at hiding it
its rly not that hard to figure out
the obsessions not mutual 
i know u like me but not as much
i wanna be what you think about
i cant help but fall in one sided love 

and im stuck in it  
i get so dumb in it 
there might be something
to make me feel more whole 
somehow 
your touch that feels like home 
but then u cast me off and i end up more alone
strung up
im just a puppet
u can make me dance 
im happy to perform 
in ur bed
im nestled up and warm
hoping 
the night can last more long 

ive been numbed up i dont feel it 
i dont feel the touch im too hollow
can u help me get more human 
maybe some emotions to borrow 
i think im the worlds best escapist 
back then i just didnt wanna exist
so i buried my head in the sand
look at all the time i wasted

. . . . .

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

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lyric video: https://youtu.be/v9UvNVrnQKg

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it’s the sedatives just an alternative, 
just a market price inside my soul when did it become so competitive
now I’m hesitant,  
to let the ones I know I should love in but being backstabbed is so repetitive


know I’ve been here all before, drugged up passed out on the floor
I’ve seen those messages from him taunting you that you should leave
you know you should, cus I’m no good, I’m no good
I understand that I’m fucked up

dealing with questions from a psychiatrist doesn’t understand what I’ve been through
dealing with questions from my own family, build me up like a statue
it’s so hard to look at your eyes, filled with judgment
the pills just got too much for me I couldn’t cope

sinking down into the abyss where I never rose again
see my bones splattered on the walls deep down in my own hell
like a bliss-filled with alcohol and suicide
fucked in my own way, fucked together fucked apart

still, don’t remember how it got that bad back then thought I was better by myself
got the slothboi guarding my back climbing up and reaching the end
my mother just wants to see me smile, 
ill stare back with a blank face cus its the

holding no sentiment
I see you crying on the ground yeah mind is filling up with adrenaline
you’re argumentative
blaming me because you stuck down in a hole and you cant dig your way out

$LOTHBOI

Repetitive
These thoughts in my head they’ve been shaking me
Till the end ive been thinking of the negative
The thoughts in my head, yeah, yeah

Adrenaline
The panic from the thoughts and the memories
They’ve been overwhelming me and all my better days 
I’m hesitant to question my own fucking happiness 

The memories be trapping me
I’m stuck and it’s 
Repetitive
I need medicine
Im an alcoholic piece of shit a negative

I got some problems with
My fucking memories
The trauma from my fucking past can get the best of me
I’m staggering

Now Rivilin
Let’s climb up on their corpses
Let’s get rid of them

I be tired of the liars I been sitting with
Shit I’m fucking sick of it
I’m a piece of shit but I bet I’m still the better man
They faking it

Control Ft $LOTHBOI

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LYRICS

RIVILIN:

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop
Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood
What’s it like when you lose touch
Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek, 
I don’t want this I don’t want
Cutting me down so deep
I feel like im just not enough

lip tremble eyes struggle just to focus now
weighing on my conscious I just feel like im about to drown
covering my ears, the water rises
your voice still blocks the horizon

I see your ghost in my dreams
explaining why you just leave
depression got too much
and you just had to block out the noise


$LOTHBOI:

Drown in pain
Drown in hate

I feel the pain
All in me

Shallow breaths
Steal my life lately
Tight my chest the
Panic hates me

Panicked thoughts all in my head yeah
Memories replaying dread man
How can I be expected
To live this life, shit this aint it

2nd verse

Manic depression
My body be trembling

Tight in my chest
I ain’t think I’mma make it

Gasping for breath
Cuz these demons gun take it

Fighting for life
But I’m breaking to pieces

Cry through my days
Why do I hate me

I’m not okay
My mind is crazy

What can I say
I’m feeling hazy

Why do I hate me
I’m tryna save me

Burning my skin just to forget the pain
Seeded in memories inside my brain
Tryna forget my collection of bad days
Inside my head the trauma did some damage

Sloth ain’t the same he’s been changed from the pain
and bet Rivilin’s trauma still haunting his days
We fight past our memories living in pain
but we’re Void of the happiness we lost that day

Not Enough (Ft. $LOTHBOI)

Into Misery:

going 90 on the highway
i can’t feel a thing
no pain, no fear
you’ll remember my name

just a lost boy
always tryna find my way
just a sad boy
don’t think i remember a thing


baby i got everything that
you could ever want
i pull up to the show
yeah i ain’t even tryna stunt
i got racks up on me
but i’m still lookin for love
i tell my baby call my phone
she thinkin i’m enough

no sense, i can’t fix
what’s up in my head
paranoia stress
always filling me with dread
i can’t get no rest at night 
i guess i’ll sleep when i’m dead
i can’t get no rest at night
i guess i’ll sleep when i’m dead

$LOTHBOI:

Save
My fate
From 
Hateful Games
Like
I can taste it 
Iron in blood ye
Red drops like eyeballs
At midnight we faded
Fuck all your hatred
Fuck all your games yeah
Tears down my face while the smiles starts breaking
Sloth ain’t no pussy
I’ll fuck on a bitch
With a blade on my hip
Finna slit all yo wrists
Depression come in 
Im the voice in your head
I see teardrops on faces of some of my friends
Like
I got killers on deck
And some of em dead
Trippin cuz I miss my brother he left

What am I finna do now
With this hole in myself 
Hit the ground with a bounce

Lost Boy (feat. $LOTHBOI) prod. CRCL

• Produced by APT. 102 - @apt-102
• Mixed by me
• Mastered by Sebastian Metzner
• Cover art design by me, photo by William Tran

• lyrics:

with the microphone as my medicine, 
all this sad shit as my epithet 
in a big room with the elephant, 
is my flow still fuckin’ relevant?

..

i’ll still do it for the hell of it, 
yeah, 
newsflash I’m still gettin it,
it’s a tuesday, I’m still gettin lit,
grip that paper like a paperclip...

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
got too much on my mind, i’m hittin' licks,
got too much goin on to give a fuck about a bitch, yeah...

real quick, that’s a lesson, 
you take that L,
it’s a blessing, 
you won’t learn shit with that flexing,
you won’t earn shit till you messin’ up, 
bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts
then i get buck,
don’t give a fuck

(bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts,
then i...)

i can’t buy more time,
i bite my tongue and wait...
i can’t make make you mine 
until you think you hate me...

imma shine but not before you break me...
that’s what I said back then, 
won’t you call me back?

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
girl i got you on my mind, so i get lit, yeah
you’ll be the last thing i see before i slip...

x

epithet (prod. APT. 102)

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

Control Ft $LOTHBOI

Rivilin

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