my absolute favourite from you, btw. Wish I commented this sooner.

I like seeing this have more likes everytime I come back. It had 3-4 first I listened

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Lyrics
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I've been feeling sad and I think I'm kinda lonely
Late night chilling I'm kicking it with the homies
I've been thinking 'bout you and I'm wishing you could hold me
And sure I got by but I did it so coldly
Smile for my friends cause they bet that they know me
I don't wanna let 'em know I'm feeling so lowly
Got you in my head again I wish you could've told me
I'm falling for my best friend oh so slowly

And it's hard, it's hard to be myself
But when I'm with you I can dance like there's nobody else
With your body on mine you move so well, well
And everybody gotta know, I cannot tell
But if I keep it on the low, it'll keep me as well
I'm just sorry that I lied, all these feelings in side
That come out in the nighttime I cannot quell
I cannot quell, yeah
ay

All he ever want is a little more
All he ever want is a little more
Just one kiss and I'm out the door
Just one kiss and I want some more
More
More
All I ever want is a little more
All I ever want is a little more
Just one kiss and I'm on your floor
Just one kiss and I want some more
More
More

All he ever want is a little more
All he ever want is a little more
Just one kiss and I'm out the door
Just one kiss and I want some more
More
More

I want some more
More
More

Best Friend [Prod. Kami]

prod. ocin
guitars: cymatics

I don’t really find much sleep 
Need a potion 
With you baby I’m complete 
Watch me while I plant my seeds 
Need a potion 
Something that will help me see 
And everybody knows, everybody knows 
Why does everybody know where they gotta go 
If I’m only living once, I don’t wanna know 
Why you why you gotta hate, don’t let me know 

I can’t shut my eyes 
nah 
It breaks 
Me every night 
Somebody come and set me free 
I need something to believe 
Come and rule my memories 
Girl don’t make me leave 

I don’t really find much sleep 
Need a potion 
With you baby I’m complete 
Watch me while I plant my seeds 
Need a potion 
Something that will help me see 
And everybody knows, everybody knows 
Why does everybody know where they gotta go 
If I’m only living once, I don’t wanna know 
Why you why you gotta hate, don’t let me know

everybody knows

prod. ocin
loops: lmgmadeit

You are not your thoughts 
Girl you don’t need them right now 
You will be just fine 
Girl you will be just fine 

Observe your mind and count the stars tonight 
You deserve the world, don’t listen to the lies 
I’m begging you, don’t let them get too close 
I’m here for you, I’m just a thought away 

Run from the mindless 
They’re making you cry 
Don’t leave my side girl 
For you I will die 
For you I won’t stop babe 
I feel it inside 
I need you around babe 
I’ll see you tonight 

Observe your mind and count the stars tonight 
You deserve the world, don’t listen to the lies 
I’m begging you, don’t let them get too close 
I’m here for you, I’m just a thought away 

You are not your thoughts 
Girl you don’t need them right now 
You will be just fine 
Girl You will be just fine

mindless

Music & Lyrics: Ryan Moore. Produced, Arranged & Mixed by Ryan Moore. Vocals, Analog Synthesizers & Drum Programming: Ryan Moore. Recorded & Mixed at Ryan Moore Studios, Pacific Northwest. Mix Consultant: John Sawoski. Mastered by Rainer Gembalczyk at Sienna Digital, Half Moon Bay, California.

Repeat

I’m here contemplating, am I worth saving,
no, I don’t think so
Your stuck here debating, if your gonna ask me 
what I’ve really been through

the past few years I’ve almost died 4 times
look into my eyes, say that you’re gonna be just fine
it’s not like I don’t believe you
I’ve just been here a few times; I hope I don’t deceive you

I know you listen to this song
I know you feel my pain yeah; it’s fucking all wrong
Cus Your cutting me in two cutting me in three
Let the doctors come and take all a part of me

Cus your gonna be the death of me
I know your watching crawling here slowly
I couldn’t get out, I tried to leave
But you keep coming back yeah you fucking haunt me

Hang me by the noose, let me fucking fall
I’m dangling by my legs yeah, I don’t care at all
One day I’m not gonna be that strong 
Let the noose take my breath and end my last song

I’m here contemplating, am I worth saving,
no, I don’t think so
Your stuck here debating, if your gonna ask me 
what I’ve really been through


I’m here contemplating, am I worth saving,
no, I don’t think so
yeah, I’m stuck here debating 
I don’t know if I hate you, but I think where through

I think I’m going insane lately,
Ups and down make me go crazy
I don’t know how to control me
Sinking into self-pity

Again, again, it’s always just me
Fighting on two sides never really winning
I’m trying to figure out who I am
Generic fucking story, yeah, I don’t really care

I’m just doing me Try to understand man
Cus no one really understands what you’re going through
Except you
you listen to these songs hoping you’ll be saved to

alone

blessed with stress, am I’m doing fine,
won’t you say that  your here for me
won’t you say you'll always be mine

thinking you will leave me this time
it’s not that I just don’t trust you
it’s more that I have my own issues to

obsessed with not coping, 
cus I feel like I’m just hoping
that you will message me again
say that we’re all fine in the end

but you won’t, cus I’m drowning on every word that I’ve tried to say
pushing them back and forth, everything is making my brain go insane
shaking on the daily, breaking down everything's just changing
don’t feel much lately anymore because  you have my fucking soul

and I’m  sick of this, constant back and forth between this
emotion that ins my chest, it’s hardening, I feel like I’m just crumbling
but I don’t feel like I have a choice, 
cus I’m justing fading in the background everything around me is making to much noise

I just need to to find some space,  
I just need to change the pace
of everything
cus its moves to fast 

at this point, I don’t ill ever grow up,
I think I’ve passed the point of no return
waking up everything hurts

so ill just stay alone again in my room
cus I don’t feel like I need to leave, I don’t think I should talk to you

23;anxiety

you break again, you lose control
your friends they’re fake, they’ll take you whole
this feeling will never end
I feel like I’ve lost again

you break again, you lose control
your friends they’re fake, they just want your soul
it’s not like I can’t pretend
won’t you just break me again

this depression comes in separate stages
feeling manic, your losing patience 
of me and this situation again 
it’s just all inside my head

thinking you have died
thinking I’m alright
but I’m losing to circumstances again
crashed my car, I’ve gone unfed

losing weight like no tomorrow
I’m that skeleton you borrow
staying high to deal with sorrow
what’s the point of this?

between you and me?
I guess I don’t want to feel a thing

this depression comes in separate stages
feeling manic, your losing patience 
of me and this situation again 
it’s just all inside my head

thinking, your alive,
thinking we’re alright
but we’re not,
cus you only ever visit me inside my dreams

surrounded by four walls, 
everything is just moving and breathing
you don’t care anymore
my worst enemy is myself

cus I need to leave,
to change up again
won’t you just 
let me rest my head

Stages

your fingers down my throat,
ripping out whatever was left
of just this tension in-between
freaking out you need to leave
Every day I wake up just a vermin
wondering how I can live I’m disgusting
look at me say I’m perfect, say I’m lovely
I just think depressions trying to snuff me out
everything I do just ends up breaking
lingering again I hate myself
won’t you just come and destroy me
hang me up and say I’m here to sell
turning back and forth everything is in-between
I don’t feel much anymore now you got me
I’m hanging by a thread like I’m gonna fall, I’m gonna fall,
knowing that I won’t make it up this time at all

Destroyme

I Can See Why You're Sad
All The Fights That We Had

I Kept Tearing You Apart
I Know I Broke Your Heart

Looking Back At The Start
I Wasn't Ready At All

Didn't Plan For This To Happend But I Tore You Apart

But Atleast I'm Gone From Your Life
If I Could Take It Back I'd Make It Right
I'd Stay Away From You This Time
I Wouldn't Hurt You Again, I Wouldn't Hurt You Again

I Can See Why You're Sad
All The Fights That We Had

I Kept Tearing You Apart
I Know I Broke Your Heart

Looking Back At The Start
I Wasn't Ready At All
Didn't Plan For This To Happend But I Tore You Apart

Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh

But Atleast I'm Gone From Your Life
If I Could Take It Back I'd Make It Right
I'd Stay Away From You This Time
I Wouldn't Hurt You Again, I Wouldn't Hurt You Again

Don't Wanna Hurt You Again 
Already Did It Once
I Wouldn't Do It Again

Now You're Fighting On Your Own
I'm Not There For You
And You're Not There For Me
That's How It's Supposed To Be

But Atleast I'm Gone From Your Life
If I Could Take It Back I'd Make It Right
I'd Stay Away From You This Time
I Wouldn't Hurt You Again, I Wouldn't Hurt You Again

But Atleast I'm Gone From Your Life
If I Could Take It Back I'd Make It Right
I'd Stay Away From You This Time
I Wouldn't Hurt You Again, I Wouldn't Hurt You Again

My Spotify

On Your Own (Prod.Jody)

lost in work on Monday
feel like my heads just swaying in the breeze all again
daydream till I’m ok
everyone has bad days yeah it will be fine

just screaming out your name
wondering when you’ll come back yeah your no friend of mine
just lost on a Friday
walking down the streets yeah everyone just passes me by

watching all this time just change yeah I feel like my heads just lost its way
tryna find peace in my dreams but everything is just causing me pain
switching up, switching down, waking up to find everything never really worked out
just back in my old ways, skinny prescription ghost yeah lingering fiend

I’m dancing with my own tongue most days I don’t know what to say
I’m cutting down who we were, you leave me burning and frayed
I haven’t eaten in days, you know I’m wasting away
just skin and bones left now, you just stare me down with disgust

lost in work on Monday
feel like my heads just swaying in the breeze all again
daydream till I’m ok
everyone has bad days yeah it will be fine

just screaming out your name
wondering when you’ll come back yeah your no friend of mine
just lost on a Friday
walking down the streets yeah everyone just passes me by

try to get better every day, 
this pain it swells and decays
back and forth between good times yeah 
best friends look at me like I’ve just lost my mind

if I could help you resurface you know that I would, 
just pay all your bills let your dreams come true
yeah that’s the issue right now, everyone’s stuck in doubt
just wondering if they can pay

to make it to the next day, 
hoping rent doesn’t just change your perception of where you wanna be
you’re stuck in a dead-end job, 
don’t wanna be here, you wanna be free

all my idols grind till they get there,
that’s what I gotta do, gotta believe
cus nothing comes for free
if you want it, take it and leave

lost in work on Monday
feel like my heads just swaying in the breeze all again
daydream till I’m ok
everyone has bad days yeah it will be fine

just screaming out your name
wondering when you’ll come back yeah your no friend of mine
just lost on a Friday
walking down the streets yeah everyone just passes me by

BAD DAYS

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals


Rivilin

results of mistakes always end this way
yeah always coming back at me
im not gonna just turn up to be fake
take a piece of my soul yeah it’s free

should i just flake and walk away
cus its obvious the problem is me
pushing through the crowd ye calling my name
im gonna walk away and just fucking leave

Ripthepetals

I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk to me

I don’t really fuck with you no more, we were living our life just like a sweet teen movie
Fucking in your parent’s bed, no one else had a king-sized in your crib
Playing with my chest hair, it’s 3 am and there's sweat all on the bed
I see you still like my songs when I check on my Soundcloud

I hope that you still sing along, knowing that there about you

And how I fucking despise you

Rivilin

yeah like the Truman show is my life faked
cus everyone’s like an actor
yeah so predictable they’re just gonna take
yeah take everything from me

always tried and tested guess it didn’t work out
said I wasn’t gonna pass school and I should just leave
so I packed my bags headed on my way
found someone who I thought meant something to me

no, no I guess it’s just me overthinking 
drinking until I know my liver is  sinking
it feels like I am switching rooms everything im blinking
take me to a time where I am listening to Linkin park

when I was 9 years old 
yeah imagining im on the stage with them when I saw them live
yeah a kids fantasy were always so blissful
can I turn back time

PAINT ME OUT FT. RIPTHEPETALS

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

Destroyme

Rivilin

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