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Art by Idleglance (sempai)

LYRICS
I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it
I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it

good thing I look like this
good thing I look like this
cause I don't give no fucks
and I don’t take no shit
my girl see me amok
gave me her final kiss
she knew something was up
but she still want my kids

I roll a blunt to get away just for a starry night
I roll a joint to get away just for a moments time
I smoke the bong to get away from this so boring life
I smoke a dab so I can pass out and just fucking die

I need a Lyft
like Uber quick
or else I’m pissed
I got a mission that I must finish
I got a feelin' that there’s something out there that I missed
but I’m not worried, lines are blurry on the life I live
good thing I look like this
good thing I keep control
good thing I flick my wrist
good thing I rest my soul
good thing I finally got the break I need
I risked it all
I kept my patience
didn’t say shit
now I’m boutta ball

I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it
I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it

Lay down like this baby lemme fuck that face
turn up like this baby lemme fuck that waist
and when I leave you baby
I’ll be gone no trace
and when I leave you baby
I’ll be gone no place

good thing I look like this
good thing I look like this
cause I don't give no fucks
and I don’t take no shit
my girl see me amok
gave me her final kiss
she knew something was up
but she still want my kids

I roll a blunt to get away just for a starry night
I roll a joint to get away just for a moments time
I smoke the bong to get away from this so boring life
I smoke a dab so I can pass out and just fucking die

Ego Death (prod. puhf)

THE HEART BREAKS BONELESS (prod. ndot & Travis Barker)

Thank You For Everything

How do I relive a life again
I dont know if I'll redeem my sins
We lasted like diamonds in the rough
Dark days, nearly lost my head
Hey you have begun to escape this
Pain thats seeping through
With no eyes at my witness
I could end it too

What if I begin to lose
And I'm slowly giving up
When I know its not enough

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

I'm losing it all for you
I've never felt so consumed
The life that we had secure
Was our chance
To be so much more
Hey baby I don't feel so good
Keep saying gave it all I could
If 10 years is before I die
I'd still give you all my time

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

Days Gone ft. Riverkinn

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

I feel your jaws start to wrap around my neck
so disgusted with how I left
I feel the anguish in my bones, watch them snap I turn to stone
try to ignore the pain

I see the flesh around my heart rotted with hate
this wooden home, it screams my name
no grand design above the sky 
skin is burning with the lie watch me embrace the void

im a waste, im a vermin, a piece of shit, hurting
doesn't matter if I stay I’m always just lurking
the ghost between us, the floorboards and concrete
it doesn't matter now when you don't amount to something

To people that you thought just really cared
but they leave you on the ground when you’re choking, not coping
And now you're embraced by the emptiness you never loved
and you’re watching as he consumes everything you came to trust

down the alleys where you grew up and you never understood
what it means to just care, what it means to just stare
with the blank eyes when someone’s just falling
to suicidal tendencies, they always get the best of me

so tell me why you’re never fucking calling
never checking on me until you need something to waste your time
just leave me the fuck alone
cus id rather be dead to you than something

Yeah depression hits me up, says he loves who you are now
I want nothing to do with you
invade my dreams and give me nothing, no I couldn't see you bluffing
find a lover, feel disgusted from you


feel my consciousness hit my stomach, weighs a ton it's dragging me down
I got nothing to give to you
you took the best then left me stranded, filled with hate then reprimanded
come tomorrow empty-handed from you


so bury me out the back where I can't hear a thing
I don’t want to be something more than a dream
but you know that’s not fair how you're always in mine
always plaguing my thoughts waking up and your gone

my friends say that it doesn't get better than this
is being tormented just some form of a bliss
these glass walls that I construct just seem to crack
and like a puppet I just always come back

yeah so it always turns this way when your friends turn fake
and you don’t have a lover to remember your name
so you crumble at the fear when you don't know yourself
pills from a psychiatrist, yeah it sucks they couldn't help  

with the constant torment knowing that you never will belong
with the piercing stares from family where they love to prove you wrong
like what you do for work yeah your looking half alive
yeah I swear I have been on repeat since I nearly died

say you wanna understand but you can't, I never said I wanna be alive long
it feels like im not living in my body
like who am I to you, am I just a joke of someone that I used to be
use me, abuse me until you leave again, im sick of living like I want to kill myself

Visionary

Lyrics:

Perfect fantasy
Lead you by deceit
Sat down by the stream
Fish swam by our feet
Took you by surprise
This isn’t my first time
Look me in my eyes
Said speak what’s on your mind...

Let your demons out to me
I’ll make them feel at home
Speak to life your fantasy
Reflect your mind like Chrome
This home I’ve built means much to me
Too much to call my own
‘Cos everyone and everything are yours
And yours alone

Perfect fantasy
This time by the trees
Sweat drips down my neck
Sun beams through the leaves
I whisper my intent
You shiver to the breeze
Death wish to be content
It’s just my disease...

Let your demons out to me
I’ll make them feel at home
Speak to life your fantasy
Reflect your mind like Chrome
This home I’ve built means much to me
Too much to call my own
‘Cos everyone and everything are yours
And yours alone

Perfect fantasy
She was number three
Forever topped my list
But I never felt her breathe
Watched you through the window
You couldn’t see my face
Kept myself secluded
Still lacking in faith...

Let your demons out to me
I’ll make them feel at home
Speak to life your fantasy
Reflect your mind like Chrome
This home I’ve built means much to me
Too much to call my own

Perfect fantasy
Perfect fantasy
Perfect fantasy
Perfect fantasy

-end-

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⚬ RAZEGOD ✝︎ PERFECT FANTASY (PROD. RAZEGOD)

LYRICS:

Black eye, burnt skin
I know the pain comes within
With shattered bones in my wrist
We watch the self-hate begin

A picture frame of a friend
Who wanted it just to end
purple stain on his throat
Show that wounds never mend

Silence then whispers all around
I feel them calling out for me
With reflections coming from the stained glass
I feel like I'm just a freak

When I saw his heavy hands hold onto you I knocked him off his feet
Then popped his teeth like pills until the arms around me made me weak
It was you, it was you always watching from the side
Yeah for you I did things that made me wish I would just die

Knocked to the concrete again, you said that you'd be there, no, 
I got beaten to a pulp, you’re never here you never care 

And I, 
I only have myself to blame
I bottle up yeah all the hate
My nervous system is betrayed

And I,
I feel the fatigue in my veins
I lay in stasis just decayed
Never awake just sleep for days

Feel this emptiness just burn in my stomach
I haven't eaten in days but still feels like I will vomit
Im in this constant state of nervousness and panic attacks
I try to be there for you but that's just something I lack.

I can't stand the public eye, with judgment from the sides
Feel like I'm just not enough yeah I know something’s caught their eyes
Is it empathy or pity? I couldn't tell.
It's like they are waiting for the fall then they'll come for the kill.

Left, right, I see their faces all in front of me
The ones I used to love the pain it brings i see them on their knees
Searching for apparitions that never seem to appear
They're praying to a deity that makes them cower in fear

So what's the point in that, explain it to me, I wanna know
Do you feel something as you kick your son yeah out of a home
Can you look upon your child and see the scars on his hands
He just wants someone to be proud of him, he thought you’d understand

And I, 
I only have myself to blame
I bottle up yeah all the hate
My nervous system is betrayed

And I,
I feel the fatigue in my veins
I lay in stasis just decayed
Never awake just sleep for days

Watch Me Sink

LYRICS:

Put a collar on my neck for me to explode
You don't trust a single thing I say so I hold
Hands over ears just to block out the noise
My world is fucking painted red, triple vision watch the time go

Feel my fucking bones start to stretch out my skin
A fucking loner he can't communicate from within
So he's awkward and shy, doesn't have any friends
Until they fucking see him suffer feel so sorry for him and pretend

That  everything is alright, no you will be just fine
Fucking sick of hearing words of delusion it's like you’re in my mind
The world that I love floating straight up above
I'm watching hells jaw under as you give me a shove

And I fall, it didn't take long just to hit the bottom
Of the bottle on the side a cigarette to chase the lie
So nicotine a day keeps the hunger at bay
So I'll just starve myself alone in the anguish I'll fade

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

Yeah, Yeah

Watch the world around me swallow me whole
The sky cracks open blood tears flood the empty hall
Screams of a lover as she’s sucked in the void
Panic attacks take over when I'm stuck with a choice

Do I stay here or swim
I guess I'll never know 
Life’s a fucking joke when wake up and you just suffer
Getting jealous of another whose normal, so wounds we cover 

So the world doesn't see confusion comes from a lover
Who knows your not fine you're breaking, you struggle to get up
And you just smother out any tiny bit of her doubt
She hasn't got the strength to help so you just wait all this out

Until you make friends with the person down in your chest
They try to make you feel so better but they know you cave to stress
So a little bit of hate comes again with the waves
You starve your own body out just to block out the pain

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

It's Inside

Let It Pass Demo Prod CRCL

DRAGGING OPPS

ANARCHY X GOD MVKER - DRAGGING OPPS

CASKET TAKER (Prod. Zyller)

——- LYRICS ———

VERSE i
Lock my soul up in a room 
Leave it till it fuckin renders 
Until my body cool
Listen to the rumors of the dead
Pull me through 
I see the vision infinite doom
Body of the horse men 
where’s yo head? In my room
Yeah pull me through 
I see the vision infinite doom
1 2 Who is you? 
3 4 Kicking down the door
5 6 Fuck a bitch 
7 8 Heaven’s gate 
9 10 Until we meet again 
Bitch you think I’m broke now
Yeah I’m breaking the spell 
Write it down like bomb shell

VERSE ii
Look at this world it’s sick 
Ripe time let’s pick 
Minimal style like Im slick 
Fucking with my minds eye 
Illusions filters flutters like broken flick 
Didn’t I already say this shit? 
Many have tried 
But they ain’t never gonna be Fiend 
Represent like mean team 
This ain’t no dream team 
Yeah fuck a mainstream 
That path I been on
Taught me a thing or two 
Knocking me down to ground
Yeah Black and blue 
I saw the light 
at the end of the tunnel once a few 
Stay falling down but I’ll stay around 
Bet you knew 
I’m on my cloud 
Yeah I’m screaming loud
Now I’m heavens hope 
I bet you knew

LOCK MY SOUL UP BEHIND HEAVEN’S GATE (prod. $ummer$)

WARFANGS

PRODUCED BY sketchmyname

Lyrics:

I thought of this earth, the way I see it it's getting much worse.
I wasn't really ever assured of it, walk through the night and I know what my purpose is,

I hope that you know the same, I'm with the stars and I'm playing this game, 

one out of billion trillions, focused on making my millions,
my emotions I'm not feeling em.





Float in the cosmos, and I've got no one to follow.

I'm lost in everything I know,and it feels like my center is hollow.



The sky is for boys, the clouds are for men, 
High on the planes, I soar through the mist,
lost in my thoughts, I hope this is it.
leaving my past, i focus within.



Darkness settles in the night, drunk as fuck i hit a light, 
walk this route like 20 times, hit the streets forget my life, 
all this time ive spent alive, ask myself what can i find?
walk this road so dead inside, please just dont forget i tried.   x2 



I know this isn't the place, no one wanna see my face
All of the people they try to come tell me that I gotta change, 

But I know that I'm not the same.

You don't wanna come and start us, everyone wanna depart us,
I know that everyone not us, I know I've gotta do what I gotta.



I've gained back my faith, now I'm losing my touch,
This is a feeling I cant get enough,
Now I'm 50 stories up high in the skies, see rainy days all up in the clouds

Look at my view, I'm lost in my mind, 
Shibuya block while I smoke out my lungs,
Now I'm dosing right off with my bro on my right,
Now it's the night-time, so I know I might, 



Darkness settles in the night, drunk as fuck i hit a light, 
walk this route like 20 times, hit the streets forget my life, 
all this time ive spent alive, ask myself what can i find?
walk this road so dead inside, please just dont forget i tried.   x2

tøkyø. (prod. sketchmyname)

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LYRICS

RIVILIN:

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop
Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood
What’s it like when you lose touch
Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek, 
I don’t want this I don’t want
Cutting me down so deep
I feel like im just not enough

lip tremble eyes struggle just to focus now
weighing on my conscious I just feel like im about to drown
covering my ears, the water rises
your voice still blocks the horizon

I see your ghost in my dreams
explaining why you just leave
depression got too much
and you just had to block out the noise


$LOTHBOI:

Drown in pain
Drown in hate

I feel the pain
All in me

Shallow breaths
Steal my life lately
Tight my chest the
Panic hates me

Panicked thoughts all in my head yeah
Memories replaying dread man
How can I be expected
To live this life, shit this aint it

2nd verse

Manic depression
My body be trembling

Tight in my chest
I ain’t think I’mma make it

Gasping for breath
Cuz these demons gun take it

Fighting for life
But I’m breaking to pieces

Cry through my days
Why do I hate me

I’m not okay
My mind is crazy

What can I say
I’m feeling hazy

Why do I hate me
I’m tryna save me

Burning my skin just to forget the pain
Seeded in memories inside my brain
Tryna forget my collection of bad days
Inside my head the trauma did some damage

Sloth ain’t the same he’s been changed from the pain
and bet Rivilin’s trauma still haunting his days
We fight past our memories living in pain
but we’re Void of the happiness we lost that day

Not Enough (Ft. $LOTHBOI)

https://soundcloud.com/prod5head

Lyrics

I was turning into someone else
I was turning into someone else

Black fit with a reason bleeding
SLOTHBOI you a demon speaking
Train tracks and I’m on it geeking
Wet hands cuz the paint b leaking

Fuck I aint sleeping for dozens of reasons
Got PTSD from the bodies they seizing
The evil be creeping the light losing meaning
And poison will spread thru my dreams till I’m leaking

I aint got no one to save me
Drown in my lonely with demons I’m craving bitch
Fuck all the reasons I hate me
All of these talks in my head got me shaking yuh

Shit you be fucking me baby
But I cant nut cuz I’m off of some eighties
Shit I be blacking out lately
30 Missed calls from a bitch tryna save me

I’m sorry I’m no good I know it
Trigger words haunt me the bodies they showing
Panic be brewing in motion
Speech won’t come out just a stutter I’m slowing

Shit I been drinking and falling
Further and further I can’t hear the calling
All these demons be talking
SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE I BEG YOU IM SOBBING

SLOTHBOI you got this
Fuck me right up while I pop these on god
Shit you gun fuck me
Bitch I ain’t even know what the fuck is going on

Bitch I been distraught
From tha blind shot
That you fired right into my heart

Now I got black on
Fuck a bitch cop
I got paint on my clothes Ima run

The nonsense in my head
Keeps tryna a make sense of itself
I’d rather leave there instead
Of turning into someone else

The nonsense in my head
Keeps tryna a make sense of itself
I’d rather leave there instead
Of turning into someone else

Else oh
Else oh

Rise to the front of this
Dont run on back
Don’t run to the back no

I’m bored as fuck so I found bliss
Cut me the slack
It’s all bout the slacking off

Rise to the front of this
Dont run on back
Don’t run to the back no

I’m bored as fuck so I found bliss
Cut me the slack
It’s all bout the slacking off

Tho my brain keeps

Ticking and ticking
And ticking and ticking
And ticking and ticking
And ticking and ticking
And ticking and ticking
And ticking and ticking

Black fit with a reason bleeding
SLOTHBOI you a demon speaking
Train tracks and I’m on it geeking
Wet hands cuz the paint b leaking

Fuck I aint sleeping for dozens of reasons
Got PTSD from the bodies they seizing
The evil be creeping the light losing meaning
And poison will spread thru my dreams till I’m leaking

I was turning into someone else
I was turning into someone else

The Sin of Sloth

Distraught

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Distraught w/ SEPHA. (5head)

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

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