I'm so tired, thank you for continuing to create art.

videotape (ft. Leah Clark)

Cyclops Ft. CXRPSE, nAvvvi, JAMES GORCZYCA, Saint Sleep (Prod. by Red Rxxm)

I been good today
Ghosted on my family name
Thoughts sit out the fuckin way
These pavements where my panic lay
I could keep the soul in
Would they notice that he didn't wake
No one wanna feel the same
Smile put the pain away
I put too much on stackin up
When it's just not enough
If I'm really what you trust
Than baby that's enough for us
I been in my troubles stuck
Put it with the rest and such
Never fuss
Lungs get frozen cold just like it's camel crush
Mash it up, rollin on the phone
Fuckas mask it up
Hollow been the simple tone
Years is gettin taxed for what
All they see is cash and stuff
Until to them It's not enough 
But why I gotta be the one that stuck fixing the fuck ups
Until to them It's not enough 
But why I gotta be the one that stuck fixing the fuck ups

See what they cop
But they doin the most
Why you goin act like we always been close 
Know that my past keep me stuck in the code
Giving you space, but don't let it go
See what they cop
But they doin the most
Why you goin act like we always been close 
Know that my past keep me stuck in the code
Giving you space, but don't let it go

I been good today
Ghosted on my family name
Thoughts sit out the fuckin way
These pavements where my panic lay
I could keep the soul in
Would they notice that he didn't wake
No one wanna feel the same
Smile put the pain away


family name

I see, I see, that the problem is me 
Just please, just please, won't I let myself be free? 
I see, I see, that the problem is me 
Just please, just please, won't I let myself be?

Do I take my chances while I'm looking down the barrel again? 
Or do I take that mistaken step just to make the concrete my friend? 
'Cause I’m blooming with suicide, overflowing just to feel alive 
Most days I can’t take the emotion that’s just trapped in my head

So you’re coughing up what's left of me just to spit it out; I’m not your thing 
If it’s seen as an accident, will my mother still cry in the end? 
'Cause she’s the one who still blames herself for the way things turned out with my health 
Screaming out for some sort of release, but the answer's been expelled

So I tell you to make the incision—open me wide, that’s my decision 
Put your two hands in my gut and please just take out what I don't need 
'Cause I don’t want to be in this skin; this person’s not me, it’s just him 
The liar who controls me when he finds I’ve given up on myself

Hands on throat, I can't stop shaking—murder me, you're all partaking 
In some sort of wish I had when suicide seemed like escaping 
Breaking down, my head is aching; lure me with words, I’m waiting 
All alone inside my head, and through the pain, I’m still remaining

Open Me Up

The Gloomy Tapes, Vol. 3

Robot

When It Rains It Pours (MIX D).mp3

You don’t wanna see what I’m holding 
It’s alot on my mind kill the growth 
I can’t say that my thoughts aren’t wandering 
I try to not be me anymore  
I feel low cuz what I want gonna hurt me 
I wanna be free a little more 
I tied myself to the tracks young 
 Then Wonder why I get aches as I get old

I’m out growing 16 year old me Ion feel right 
I can’t move my arms or my wants, thoughts I’m shur tite 
 This ain’t what I want and I love you but my mood trife 
When I feel my heart beat wanna chase it but i won’t right 
Mmm
Yeah 
Yeah I won’t ight
Even tho my body want it more than sum air right ?
Even tho just seeing it make my heart skip and I get hype 
I know I’m a piece of shit and it don’t feel right  

You don’t wanna see what I’m holding 
It’s alot on my mind kill the growth 
I can’t say that my thoughts aren’t wandering 
I try to not be me anymore  
I feel low cuz what I want gonna hurt me 
I wanna be free a little more 
I tied myself to the tracks young 
 Then Wonder why I get aches as I get old

Sick and tired and ion wanna grow outta me, retire
Jaded since I was 15, in that spiral 
Remember got my phone taken and I wanted to die hoe
Right after being pulled right outta school
I had no connection to my friends 
I felt so rude
But then I stole my grandmas phone logged in and my eyes rose
With hella tears when I saw it was no notifs 
For me
Never had no friends to be honest always been just me 
Kay
Shoutout Carter for this beat

kill the growth (prod. Cxrter x Jolst)

Slit Wrist w/ Cheyenne Died

AS ABOVE SO BELOW

/ exit

edit: sat on this since 2023 just updated mix/master was just v scared to post

edit 2: everything sucks without you

.sledgehammer | nothing,nowhere. acoustic guitar cover.

Biv - Tea Kettle

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

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