Hard.

LSD with Dante X

Shoutout to my homie https://soundcloud.com/broadus972 for jumping on the track.

Rivilin -

im not wanted yeah were toxic, fair
im stuck down here no eyes to see the sun
cus you don't care, the devil stares
well that's just me, he breaks free when im shy

this love is dead, you know it yeah
my wrist they bleed black ink to block the light
the darkness stares it beckons yeah
to end my life so I can touch the sky

im not wanted im not needed
I know that's the truth when you block out my sight
I don't get it, so just say it
that you found love in someone else’s eyes

im disgusting, yeah believe it
that once im gone yeah I am gone for good
cus im stunted, i don't want it
the love you gave to me makes me alone

Broadus:

It was never love you gave to me, your options open
take advantage, treat me like I caused the damage, hold on
I can never, see the light out, you eclipsed me from who I could become
then you consumed, every moment, then you turned to run you’re a loaded gun

Not Wanted Ft. Broadus

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

the way you stare it burns
what's left of me I never learn
hells jaws below consume
the way you smile makes me return

yeah call me a waste of space
Yeah say im not worth your time
yeah hiding behind a lie
watch my mental state decline

yeah watch as I withdraw
tell me how do I repair a broken core
I try to explain but you ignore
I fall further than before

yeah crumbling on myself
thought I could trust someone again
no, it's a lie yeah you were right
suicide will fix my head

no im not fine take some more drugs
didnt think id be alone
inside are breaking everything is shaking
everyone I loved is gone

saying you care, but you just share all your moments yeah with him
breaking apart, wish on a star didnt think I’d lose a friend
you want to go behind my back and break my trust again and again
didnt think I’d lose my hope in  being alive but now I wish for death

isn't it crazy how you can put everything into someone you love
but you know that you're never enough, numbing the pain out with the drugs
watch the skin start to peel and flake, the person I love is the one I hate
I should of crossed off I shouldn't let you in, I know that was just a mistake

Tired

LYRICS:

Didn't wanna get it, didn't wanna face it, yeah, a family’s torn apart
Two kids in the middle I was only 13  when I knew that I was stuck
Swear I was hearing voices coming from the walls, my father freaked out and just stopped
Forced to talk to a psychiatrist who medicated me till I was cut

Tried to understand but I couldn't, Zyprexa just made me fall asleep
What did you expect from a kid who didn't have a stomach just to eat
So I made friends with the stars, they said that I wouldn't get far
But I found comfort in always being alone and trapped in my own

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

A few years later nothing changes just a kid stuck in a rut
Putting on a facade for family just so they won't bother me a lot
Been twelve years since I was diagnosed with depression thought there was a cure
But the SSRIs numbed me out until I felt like I was worse

I want to explain it but I've realized no one cares for who you care
No one is special, no one is gifted, mental trauma that makes a star 
When there's nothing left I'll probably kill myself to let go of this pain
Cus I'm always tormented by myself when I forget my own name.

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

Stuck

After releasing his mesmerizing track "Anka" on BKHSVA003, VATO is back on the label with his EP "Aurora." The EP features three tracks filled with rumbling low-end. "Bixom" features a crunchy lead line and classic hypnotizing bleeps. "Lust" plays with the rhythmical interaction of textured atmospheres, a repetitive percussive lead, and snappy hats. "Nebula" pulls you into a different world with its subtle, mystic pads. The EP is rounded off by a bouncier yet just as detailed remix of "Lust" by Absolet.

VATO - Bixom

Tribe

Buy Link:
• https://wapmrecords.bandcamp.com/album/guedes-become-time-ep-incl-sonoma-mx-jack-cheler-remixes-wapmep036

Follow the Artist:
• https://www.beatport.com/artist/guedes/297183
• https://soundcloud.com/juan-guedes
• https://www.facebook.com/juan.c.guedes

Follow the Label:
• https://wapmrecords.bandcamp.com
• https://www.instagram.com/wapmrecords/
• https://www.youtube.com/c/WeArePlayMusic
• https://soundcloud.com/weareplaymusic2020
• https://www.facebook.com/WAPMRecords

Contact: afteerrave@gmail.com

Listen on Youtube: https://youtu.be/pbd4gAdRPuo

PREMIERE: Guedes - No Matter What [WAPMEP036]

Urshanabi EP (MRT007)

The One You Feed ft Kidcrub

bandcamp

The Boatman - The One You Feed ft Kidcrub

3 6 5 DAYS
SINCE I GOT SLEEP
KNOCK A MOTHAFUCKAS TOOTH OUT
LIKE ITS HOCKEY
WALK ROUND ALL DAY
LIKE A ZOMBIE
NEEDA FUCKIN WAKE UP CALL
GET A COFFEE

I SEE YOU TRYNA TAP IN WITH MY ENEMIES
UNFOLLOW ME WITH ALL YOUR TWO FACED ENERGY
I DONT SEE HOW YOU EXPECT TO PLAY BUTTKISS
TRYNA KEEP TIES WITH A PORN ADDICTED ANARCHIST

OH
BUT THIS AINT ABOUT A FUCKIN ARSONIST
FIGHTIN LIKE A FUCKIN GLADIATOR
FEEL LIKE SPARTACUS
OH
SMELL SUM FOWL
NO ARTEMIS
GOT A MOTHAFUCKA STRUNG UP
CUT HIS CARTILAGE

GET THE FUCK BACK
DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND
THE WORDS I SAY
KEEP MY BUCKS STACKED
IM THE KNIFEHAVER
YOUR LIFE ENDS TODAY

CHOP CHOP CHOP CHOP
MOTHAFUCKAS WANNA PLAY
OOGA BOOGA IM THE KNIFEHAVER
WHATCHU NEED TODAY
CHOP CHOP CHOP CHOP
MOTHAFUCKAS WANNA PLAY
OOGA BOOGA IM THE KNIFEHAVER
WHATCHU NEED TODAY

WHO IS THE KNIFEHAVER
WHY IS HE STALKING ME
ARROW FACED CREEP IN MY WINDOW
LOOKING AT ME
JUGGALO HOMIES IM CALLING UP FOR BACKUP
WE'VE ALL GOT SOME HATCHETS
YOU BOUTTA GET HACKED UP
ITS HEKA ARMADA AND ROTTEN AUX REPPIN
DEMONIAS ON MY FEET MY SHIRT SAY DEJECTION
IM UP!!!
WHERE THERE IS ZERO DETECTION
YOU CANNOT SEE ME IM JOHN CENA
IM WRESTLIN

OH
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON
AM I GOING INSANE?
I MUST BE AKATSUKI
YOU WILL NEVER KNOW MY PAIN
WHAT DO YOU WANT
IMMA NEED YOU THE FUCK UP OUT MY FACE
THE KNIFEHAVERS MAIN GOAL IS TO IRRADICATE THE HUMAN RACE

CHOP SHOP! (PROD. KNIFEHAVER) (ART BY @ghxst.autumn ON IG)

I dance with the ghost as a child drawn out
screaming in my dreams I doubt
that anyone can hear me now
with a voice that's scraped with a razor, I'm just a stargazer
 
who wanted to reach heights that no one saw,
the thing about that once you fall you’re gone
hang me out with the noose that's made of your lies
meeting you makes me wish I wasn't alive.
 
cus, I don't wanna hear it when it’s just all about you
now you're flicking out your razor saying that you wanna cut through
 
yeah, you're putting pressure on my mind, and it makes me wanna die
yeah, I’m scared of the public, I think I’ll stay inside
cus, I don't wanna hear it when it’s just all about you
 
Wake up, cold feet, get out of bed to yesterday’s static
pass out, don't think, scratched out eyes of the photo that you just
don't want to keep, will I find a place to mend but I just can’t
get on my feet, so I’ll just stay in the house where I am high
 
Hey, that's me, by the tree line of the cul-de-sac where I grew up
hands over ears, don't want to hear an argument from my father
years pass in a blink, still end up crying to my mother
a fuck up, that's me, so what if I take drugs to cope.

Hey, that's me

A slow, crushing anthem about tearing down kings and systems. Power meets precision. The crown cracks — and falls.

Crownbreaker

Lost Soul

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ke84PZSt6_c




Shout out to everyone involved my lazy ass took forever
https://soundcloud.com/kamaara
https://soundcloud.com/rottingroots
https://soundcloud.com/jonlemonsucks
https://soundcloud.com/trashgawd
https://soundcloud.com/renob
https://soundcloud.com/endoindigo
https://soundcloud.com/freshtwofresh

DEAD LIKE THE REST FEAT. KAMAARA AND JON LEMON PROD. INDIGOENDO

(second album, 'Alien and connected' - out soon)
Written/Performed by SEPHA.
Produced by SEPHA. & CH!O
cover art by nikita ono
mix/master w/ CH!O 
_________
Videos - www.youtube.com/channel/UCMiKze_9jKL9DpS0dXmxK3Q
Spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/094ug46k28Q0tdaGPm3WNA
AppleMusic/iTunes - itunes.apple.com/gb/artist/sepha/1243252989
_________
Social -
IG - www.instagram.com/sepha.a/
Twitter - twitter.com/_SEPHA 
_________
Lyrics - 

a love thats built on lust
a love thats built on trust
and passion
its all the same
its all hard

when life keeps teaching you
how to be alone
they say don't know yourself
know what you want 
its all what you want

i'm all alone
when im together with all my friends
we're still alone 
we're all alone
when we're together with all our friends
we're alien 
and im alien
when im connected to all the world 
im alien
and im all alone
when im together with all my friends 
im still alone 

they always place things in steps
and they always place things in parts
they always place ends and starts
they always have the last laugh

"so please get a job - one thats built on trust,
a work that tests your guts.."
...its all the same
its all endless paths

i'm all alone
when im together with all my friends
i'm still alone &
we're all alone
when we're together with all our friends
we're still alone
and im alien
and im connected to all the world 
im alien
and we're alien
and we're connected to all the world
we're alien

i'm all alone
though im together with all my friends im still alone
x 4
i'm still alone
x 8

STREAM // DOWNLOAD

Alien & Connected

Toxic memories
Following me
Can't get rid of them
Stuck inside my dreams
I got a thousand thoughts
No answers appear to be
What it seems
What it seems
Push the seam, what could it be?

Toxic memories
Following me
Can't get rid of them
Stuck inside my dreams
I got a thousand thoughts
No answers appear to be
What it seems
What it seems
Push the seam, what could it be?

Question -
Everything I'm seeing, is it all apart of me?
Something calling me, it's tearing all the paths for me
I don't know whether to go for it
Tighten my throat and I'm choking it
Stop me from falling to early
I feel like its lurking
The shadows surrounding me
Saying that nothing is worth it, no

Let me fall
Rip my soul
Cut the noose
Just let me go
To another world
Lonely
I'm in the cold
Dug the hole
Take it deeper
I'm all alone
I'm all alone
Why do I feel like I make these mistakes
Wake up in daylight end up in pain
Take all these meds and you'll just feel okay
Try to hide it, It resides in
Toxic memories

Yeah, Still it follows me
Like a shadow in the street
Can't get up, I'm dragging feet
It's all in my head
Can't get out of bed
Another day I fear
Close my eyes, in despair
What's the motive
To be here
Where's the moment
To be here
What's the hopeless that I feel
I don't wanna take it early
But is recently it appeared
Go through phases, I can take it
Till the day It wins me over
Sorry to the people that I let down
I don't want to hurt them now

Toxic memories
Following me
Can't get rid of them
Stuck inside my dreams
I got a thousand thoughts
No answers appear to be
What it seems
What it seems
Push the seam, what could it be?

Toxic memories [prod. doski]

• Produced by APT. 102 - @apt-102
• Mixed by me
• Mastered by Sebastian Metzner
• Cover art design by me, photo by William Tran

• lyrics:

with the microphone as my medicine, 
all this sad shit as my epithet 
in a big room with the elephant, 
is my flow still fuckin’ relevant?

..

i’ll still do it for the hell of it, 
yeah, 
newsflash I’m still gettin it,
it’s a tuesday, I’m still gettin lit,
grip that paper like a paperclip...

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
got too much on my mind, i’m hittin' licks,
got too much goin on to give a fuck about a bitch, yeah...

real quick, that’s a lesson, 
you take that L,
it’s a blessing, 
you won’t learn shit with that flexing,
you won’t earn shit till you messin’ up, 
bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts
then i get buck,
don’t give a fuck

(bounce back, 
smoke that ounce up, 
every time you pick that pen up, 
get dark thoughts,
then i...)

i can’t buy more time,
i bite my tongue and wait...
i can’t make make you mine 
until you think you hate me...

imma shine but not before you break me...
that’s what I said back then, 
won’t you call me back?

i might come by for a while before i dip, yeah
but If it ain’t bout a check i’ll call it quits, yeah
girl i got you on my mind, so i get lit, yeah
you’ll be the last thing i see before i slip...

x

epithet (prod. APT. 102)

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

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Rivilin

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