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Produced by Xtravulous; Dominik
Wirsching p/k/a Young Taylor (Collaborator)
Mixed and Mastered Input
Ft. DPM


Verse 1:
For now forget love cause it leaves your heart rusted,
Now it’s ice cold ain’t changing like the thermostat is busted,
Tell me are your shoes worn from runnin thru my mind,
Because my soul (sole) is gone and I got laced up in your lies,
Feelin empty though I shouldn’t,
Tried to fix things but I couldn’t,
Didn’t fall I lost my footin,
Gave it all for a woman now a hollow shell is all that’s left
Constantly stressed anxiety pressin down on my chest
Nothing worse then being at a loss for words,
Sittin blank faces while this hurt inside of you occurs (inside of you occurs X2)
Now as I age and watch the days float away,
Reliving mistakes like I’m in open water and my face,
Is sinking below the surface gasp for air but it’s too late,
Slowly sink in that abyss thinkin bout the chances that I wasted,
Should treat the rap game like a noose and tie it up whatever,
As soon as my necks on the line I snap under the pressure,
Under the impression this endeavor would help me feel better,
It’s my displeasure to admit that it is my depressor,

Chorus:
Now I’m lookin back on better days,
Old arguments would’ve handled them in better ways,
Been stronger and not let you just walk away,
Now in my book of life my regrets are gonna fill your page, (X2)

Verse 2:
Wonder how many lies have been told about me,
Paint me out as the villain to get some sympathy,
When simply you can’t admit what you did to me,
Was play with my heart now you tarnished all the memories,
It’s pretty petty to pin your problems on another person,
To rework my wording I internalize start feelin worthless,
Hurting nervous perplexed how I would as worser version,
Bet to you it was a piece of cake to leave me deserted,
I used to let my anger anchor me,
Would flip in a moment with no reasonin,
Then you can along my moods stopped teetering,
Then left opening up is agitating to me,
I’m not perfect yeah I’m far from it,
Fake friends fake smiles why we always frontin,
Followers all that matters makes me sick to my stomach,
But you know the sayin you judge something you’ll become it,
And I now that we’re done for good,
Maybe it is for the best,
I would do it all again if I could,
I just had to get that off my chest,

Chorus
Now I’m lookin back on better days,
Old arguments would’ve handled them in better ways,
Been stronger and not let you just walk away,
Now in my book of life my regrets are gonna fill your page, (X2)

Better Days

I wrote this a few years ago in a darker place in my life. I'm doing much better now & feel comfortable reflecting on the past with you all. For anyone going through a struggle right now, you're not alone. This is a deeper look into my thoughts through music. I always find writing to be my best therapy. I hope you all enjoy. Any feedback is appreciated!

Am I Okay

Produced by llouis x KXVI
Mixing and Mastering by Input
Ft DPM

Verse 1:

Im the secret weapon that they holding on to,
I’m the main the reason that your bitch won’t call you,
I know I’m the cause why you losin sleep,
Cause you can’t compete and it really haunts you,
I’ve been smooth makin moves for the whole summer now,
Bank account lookin great tell em all chime down,
Nobody wanna hear it,
Your sob stories not endearing,
My bedroom lookin like the 50 shades of grey set,
Crazy all this progress my hair don’t have any greys yet,
Every night she come thru lookin for some great sex,
Swore she was loyal then saw the imprint in the grey sweats, gracious,
Treatin everyday like it’s a workday, yeah
And every work day we bout work late, yeah
So hungry go for seconds with a full plate, yeah
Life’s short for their dreams only fools wait, yeah
I’m the only one who can tell me that it is over,
My foundation like a rock so your criticin makes me bolder, (boulder)
Allowed myself to get closer to others it made me colder,
That’s why I show no emotions like we in a game of poker,
Life is bi polar better yet a roller coaster,
Get it together for a second your cart lowers,
One minute you got a lover and all these feeling you show her,
Next you put ya D on (DEON) a girl and don’t even know her, sheesh
I don’t even know what my limit is,
Kinda like having Bradley cooper in a movie, uh 
my appeal (pill) is limitless, ha
And a star is born you get to witness this,
Seat leaned back in a car that I leased,
Going far above the speed that’s enforced by police,
With my girl for the night told her she the one of my dreams,
But after I fuck the dream ends suddenly,

Chorus:

Sheesh,
I been keepin secrets from some friends
From some friends,
They been wondering where I fuckin been,
Where I been,
They been askin if I changed that depends,
That depends,
If they go against the mission then they just some loose ends, (X2)

Verse 2: 

I hate to go there they’re forcing my hand,
Before it’d be different when I had no drive   No fire inside a different man,
Never can know people motives,
So gotta keep family close,
Before they see you comin straight for your throat,
Then arrive with a smile initiate a toast,
Its expected,
Insecure people use words as a weapon,
Taking your praises they try to deafen,
No loyalty’s a crime my shit list you just fell in (felon), yeah yeah,
Holding myself in the highest regards,
People’s opinion flip like reciprocals,
so I’m just ignoring remarks, 
some responses are harsh, 
some are just hateful cuts trynna leave scars,
But look at (all the stars),
That’s what I’m shooting for I’ll scissor (sza) kick the whole fuckin lot of you, this ain’t like the lottery there is no luck involved, there will be (good days)and bad, only (20 something) if I fall I have time to bounce back, yeah

Better Days

Rj Deon