out on all plats
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3E6yQkIDGNAIPpNBS1e38u?si=8e6e166a5bed45fe
p: @shadeaway

lyrics:
I see your eyes around the corner
I splash my face into some water
Yeah, paranoia, and disorders
It's not safe, I tried to warn her

She didn't listen 
yeah she was fuckin' gone in an instant
I start to lose cognition
It's gone along with my vision

It's hard to see, it's hard to breathe
I feel the shivers in my teeth
I think I'm dying, I start to grieve
My thoughts all kill me silently

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

I lead my mind into a ditch 
think I might pop my fucking lid
They tell me I'll go far and I'm just a kid
I know, but I don't really want to exist

It's so damn hard to stay awake
Bad thoughts, and all of these headaches
My minds a glass, about to break
Overthink about every step I take

It's hard to see, it's hard to breathe
I feel the shivers in my teeth
I think I'm dying, I start to grieve
My thoughts all kill me silently

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

I've been trying to find a way 
but some things don't ever fucking change
I try to suppress these memories
but they come back on full display

haunted

spotify: https://spotify.link/jRGmXUfTgJb
prod: grayskies

lyrics:
Stressed out, yeah I'm feeling anguished
You turned all the lights out, darkness is a blanket
I don't wanna talk now, can you really blame me
She don't know a thing about me, don't know my language

and I
Haven't felt good in awhile
But I don't think I wanna die
But I don't wanna be around

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

Silence fills my head but it ain't peaceful
Used to feeling mislead, you're all deceitful
Constantly I bleed, it's getting lethal
The way that I'm perceived, yeah I'm not needful

Cover up my ears, don't wanna hear what they're saying
It's never been clear, but I don't wanna say it
Time's up for us my dear, I'm slowly fading
and I can't seer the things that you're portraying

and I
Haven't felt good in awhile
But I don't think I wanna die
But I don't wanna be around

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

It all feels the same
Never take accountability, can't handle the blame
Optimism is a mask and it's so hard to maintain
You ask what the problem is, but I can't explain
There's something wrong with my brain

anguish

WALK STOP DROP

--- lyrics ---
(So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone)

Love from a distance, I've been losing my mind
I can't fix it, vision starts to go blind
Don't solicit, blacked out no time
Lost cognition, I should've listened
I did so much to preserve our love
I don't understand where we went wrong
Vision blurry I'm starting to fall
Seems like you never cared all along

All the effort I would put in, you threw away so our love it is disputed
You treat me like I should've understood and I don't, I won't

So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone
So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone

Seems like our love is misconstrued
I think it's time to conclude
The only reason we're apart is your attitude
I don't have the time to follow through
I'm so tired of the misconceptions
Using my words as a lethal weapon
I feel so stripped down can somebody step in
Consequence you can only threaten

And I'm so sick and tired of the games, I thought I told you that I don't wanna play
You say you're different but I see you're the same, again

So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone
So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone

cross

--- lyrics ---
watch me bleed from the edge of your counter
contemplate I've been sitting here for hours
dust on my hands I'm still waiting for my flowers
fifteen years and I still don't have no power
never thought it would be me to blame
guess that I'm that type of person to be thrown to flame
"hear they're calling out for help but I don't know their name"
and you say you're falling down I hate to say the same

but I'm thankful, for the words that you left me
it ain't my fault that you don't impress me
for a minute there I thought you would accept me
you tore my heart out now I'm feeling empty

fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that, hope I stay
fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that

say it in my head, I don't wanna lose myself
i'm in my bed, thinking to myself am I being mislead
when I'm older will I be okay and not be dead
cause the way this world is going I think
there's gonna be a choice, It's either one or two
can you hear my voice, and I'm just screaming out
can you hear the noise, I think the present's
in the past, baby lets rejoice

fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that, hope I stay
fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that

fifteen

sidelines

apartment

SCREAMING ALONE

--- lyrics ---

Watch it all fall down, together
Late night walks when we're together
Feel that I'm in love, but we aren't tethered
Flatlined hearts hope we're forever
We're sat up on the coastline, we feel the breeze on our neck
On a decline, If I'm dying baby will you be my lifeline
Hope we can go somewhere, not just online, these thoughts up in my head

Wanna go, far away, I can't even think for another day
Cause I'm stuck up on the thought thinking will you stay
I have something to confess something to just say

Yeah I think that I'm in love with you
And you don't know it don't know how to get it through
It's only been one day no I can't wait two
Overthink about the things, that I shouldn't do
Yeah I think that I'm in love with you
And you don't know it don't know how to get it through
Girl we're only fifteen so you should've knew
Going manic cause I don't know what to do

Or say
My mental isn't taking control It's a mayday
Addicted to the dopamine in my brain
And now I've lost my train of thought cause you're healing my pain

Can't think, of all the things I'd do if you were by my side
Girl I don't wanna choose cause I'm too blank 
Cause my minds in two different places
When I'm sat beside you
You know I've never felt real love, I guess I'm writing this before we were in love
Guess I'm attracted to the thought of being your dove
I guess thinkin' bout the future where we're above, the world

Why am I writing this in my bed, by myself
Think that you should be here instead
Dreams of you up on my chest, laying your head
Maybe one day it'll be true, I think ahead

Yeah I think that I'm in love with you
And you don't know it don't know how to get it through
It's only been one day no I can't wait two
Overthink about the things, that I shouldn't do
Yeah I think that I'm in love with you
And you don't know it don't know how to get it through
Girl we're only fifteen so you should've knew
Going manic cause I don't know what to do

I wrote this before you severed my heart, thought we were forever but now we're apart
Only used me so you could move on, I'll act like nothing ever happened and I support

lifeline

--- lyrics ---

I can't help, but fall apart, I can't believe we've got this far
I run and run I see the stars, my true feels hidden, cause I'm scarred
I hate my mind It's in a ditch, she told me I can't get it fixed
Can't solve my problems or dismiss, I can't help but just reminisce about

All the things we did in our pass time, say you love me then you leave me behind
I wanna leave this world but I keep crying, can't help myself cause I'm stuck dying

I fall apart into my own abyss keep dying
I know better than this, but I keep digging my hole deeper and
I can't fix, all the little things the little issues
I dismiss, I can't let it go can't let it go anymore

It's getting to my brain, the dopamine drives me inside
Narcissistic personality traits, I hate you we will never talk again

You, ignore your friends when they're on your phone
Egotistical prick, because I'm taking your throne
Oh well "Got it all to myself, to myself" that's what you wanted in the first place (Took an L)
"Guess what I don't care at all" (Obviously you care enough)

Honestly I take it as an honor that you wrote that stuff (About me)
Honestly you're just obsessed, acting like you never cared but I know that you're really stressed 

I fall apart into my own abyss keep dying
I know better than this, but I keep digging my hole deeper and
I can't fix, all the little things the little issues
I dismiss, I can't let it go can't let it go anymore

apartment

rl

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