volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

prod, me & @leftquiet

- lyrics -
things have gone off
you saw it breaking in two 
theres something more you knew
you kept it secret
now im glad that i never told
what it wrote

my vision's 20/20 i can see through the line
darling 2020 was the worst of my life
bleeding through my iris what a wonderful time
breaking through the window tried to keep a disguise

so what you're hiding
i can't let go
i know a sighting
when you done
just wanna hold your hand
but i know you find me bland

so im holding by a threat
thats thiner than a web
countin days seekin for help on meds
drowning in the liquor by my bed
blowing up inside my head with led

so look to left and right 
you see the toxins linger all around your room
is he your perfect type
cause all you want are things you crave when your confused
don't trust you feel corrupt
cause what he said or did jsut never was enough
so bleed straight from your core
its something you wish that you never adored

so let it take away my breath
evning come and i turn into a mess
i wanna wait but i to be the bad guy
simulate my time and then im gone
whats the point of living when nobody's home
you wanna cry but you stuck inside your dome
jsut like you i wanna cry when im alone
fuck i hate when im stuck inside alone
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

vision

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

It’s all about you 
Love it’s all about you
I hold my head in my hands 
Babe it’s what I’m bound to
Thinking of you
I can’t stop I’ve tried to
I’d let you do most anything, you felt you had to
Treat me however you wanted
Lay down my body, on mountains of rubbish
I broke my arm for you to hold it
Gave you a gun, point it right at your target

Oh it wasn’t worth it all
Watch it fade to black 
I could give my life to you, and still you’d want it back
When there’s nothing left to offer I could split in half
Give you the other part of me, the one I’ve never had

You can devour me, leave me with holes
Eat all my flaws away, rip from bones
Take what you want, just to leave me alone
If it’ll make you love me 

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

God, I’m restless 
You could take it easy now 
You’ve taken people that I love and you’ve left me with nowt 
So you can take the credit when I go to your house
This is not a joke
Please do not test me now

It must be funny walking round and everybody hates me
And I can’t shake that feeling, it’s how you made me
Is that amusing?
Is that your humour?
I find you stupid
I find you’re useless 
And when I see you
Oh if I ever do
And you compare me
To those infront of you
I’ll make it easy
Oh I’ll decide for you
When you can tell me 
What I was supposed to do

fermented

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Soundcloud: @proddeadtired
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Lyrics
==================
I ain't the one
I'll be the same
I'll be another that came and went
Keep me away
I'm used to the shade 
I'll wear the smile they think is best
Trust me when I say don't trust me
Push me and and pull me
Just the way I'd want you to
Love me but don't really love me
I need you to want me
Not the things I'd put you through

Blame myself
It's only right
You should take your anger out
So I can't talk about mine
I've seen my hell
Froze over ice
I'd say I panic about it
But I wouldn't wanna make you cry

It's legible what you're feeling
Are you still dreaming
You better wake up
Terrified Imma say I don't mean it
It ain't leaving
I'm just tryna stay young
We're all the same
Always looking for a meaning
But I could never give you one
It can't change
You won't like the reasons
And I'll tell you when you've had enough

I ain't the one
I'll be the same
I'll be another that came and went
Keep me away
I'm used to the shade 
I'll wear the smile they think is best
Trust me when I say don't trust me
Push me and and pull me
Just the way I'd want you to
Love me but don't really love me
I need you to want me
Not the things I'd put you through

Trust Me When I Say Don't Trust Me [Prod. Dead Tired]

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

Mona Lisa with @kanashisadface and @b_murph

Mona Lisa (prod. In Bloom)

prod decayinganyways

// intro
she got that bloody red
she got me dead
hatchets on her mind
think I’m unalived

// pre-chorus
decay: ohh on my mind it's like a cycle
geist: ooh and her touch she's like a psycho
decay: she grabs her hatchet, her matches
geist: my baby burn me to ashes
decay: i say it's not on mind
geist: we turned the lovely in 2 tragic

// chorus- decay and geist
we’re fucking live
oh baby you and I
she’s plotting all the time
oh that’s just my type
just my type
she’s a dime I’m gonna make her mine
no silver lining ties
it’s only for the night, for the night

this dance floors dead
is it us instead
taking shots of lead
I want that instead

she grabs her hatchet her matches
my baby burn me to ashes
i say it's not on mind
we turned the lovely 2 tragic
we’re fucking live

// decay verse
just ride me right, ride me right just like how you do
i want your body my shawty just tell me what to do
i know it’s something on your mind, tell me what the fuck I’ll find, every step we take right now always going out of line
i, no you, you
you want me like i want you

// geist
and i just can’t seem to contain my state of mind
oh how you ruined everything with all your lies
yeah it’s all fun until you make somebody die
it’s all fun until she

she throws her hatchet, light matches
and lays right down on the mattress
but says she’s sick of the acting
yet curves her spine like an actress
and i don’t trust her i’ve had it
i know she can’t break her habits
so i’ll keep dodging her hatchets
can’t spill my blood on the fabric

spotify

hatchet w/ decayinganyways

I wrote this in the quiet.
For anyone still trying to hold it together
"Bleed Like a God"
everywhere

IG: @frvrlol

Lyrics:
[Intro]
yeah yeah
yeah yeah

took a detour, in a labyrinth
paint the canvas, twist the frame of myth
i was walking, slipped in the abyss
i don't wanna die, i don't even wanna live

even wanna live

[Hook]
this dread is always in my cup
pouring till it floods
the furnace is my crucible
i bleed like a god

existence eraser
you beg for a saviour
it's bloody, it's fatal
i still bleed like a god

[Bridge]
the silence never stopped
will i ever be enough
will i ever be enough
i held it in, too long, fuck

[Verse 2]
light years have passed, and i still see you in the night dear
i gave up too much to live in blind fear

nightmares where i'm running down a corridor
closed doors, but i leave myself cracked wide open

10 floors, i push myself forward
i reach for the light but my fate feels frozen

mirror to my face, can't even look away
broken shards, i saw it fragment as the dream decayed


Bleed Like a God

lyrics:
when i draw my blood, is it good enough
i used to drink my pain, all thats left is dust
castle in the hill, i keep the doors locked shut
the moonlight kissed my wounds, the shadows had my trust

i slept for centuries, froze behind my stare
til she found me in the garden where the roses choke on air
she saw the cracks beneath my smile, and said i hope you know i care
for a moment i believed that love could live inside despair

so bury my in velvet, stake the roses through my chest
she whispers to the casket, now her lips are firmly pressed
now i rot with all her love inside my heart but its a mess
now she's married to a coffin, way i walk im living dead

dont know if you still see me, dressed in hope and quiet grace
but the mirror in the hallway still refused to show my face
the shadows called in whispers, soft as lace against my throat
they spoke in tongues of endings that i always somehow wrote

so bury my in velvet, stake the roses through my chest
she whispers to the casket, now her lips are firmly pressed
now i rot with all her love inside my heart but its a mess
now she's married to a coffin, way i walk im living dead

the way i walk, im living dead

Living Dead

everything reproduced by me
original song credits towards my dear friend jude (@sleepywater)


i miss you so much bro; love you, forever.

sleepwater - tomorrow (cover)

prod valentine ghost
guitar @iissaame
instrumental mix/master @prod-oc

oh keep the words inside your mouth 
you always sound like such a fool 
you’re reaching now 
oh all the shit you’d do 
like such a clown 
should’ve know that you were cruel 
it’s been like that  

now when i hear your name 
it’s like knives in my veins 
it’s such a hard pill to swallow when 
all i feel is shame
for you
don’t you feel the same?

and now i won’t take the blame 
couldn’t be clearer than day 
all the poison seeping slowly 
as it’s rotting my brain 
don’t you
feel the same?

PLEASE 
CAN YOU LEAVE
I JUST WANT TO BE HERE ALL ALONE 
SICK OF YOU RUNING EVERY HOME
PLEASE 
SET ME FREE
CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE
YOU RUINED EVERY PART OF ME 
THAT HOPED

valentine...?

and i want to see all of you down on your knees
begging me for attention
your man in my dms he’s wishing he could be me
the fucking delusion
and i do not know you
so don’t act like you know me 
i’m burning the past and i’m leaving you there 
so keep me out your mentions

clown

𝔐𝔢𝔪𝔟𝔢𝔯 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 "𝔇𝔦𝔢 𝔜𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔤" 𝔠𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢

https://soundcloud.com/die-young-die-young

I want you to break me
Break me
Like nobody breaks me
Love me
Love me
Like nobody loves me

Trust Me When I Say Don't Trust Me [Prod. Dead Tired]

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