Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cares when I say it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
Aren’t I stupid ? 

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid 

Eyes glued to my screen all night
Fall asleep without my high
You don’t get it and nor do I
I swear I only use it to pass my time
But what time is it now ?
I’m starting to feel better can you slow it down
I’ll stay awake till I go outside
And pretend it’s not ruined my life

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

stupid

prod, me & @leftquiet

- lyrics -
things have gone off
you saw it breaking in two 
theres something more you knew
you kept it secret
now im glad that i never told
what it wrote

my vision's 20/20 i can see through the line
darling 2020 was the worst of my life
bleeding through my iris what a wonderful time
breaking through the window tried to keep a disguise

so what you're hiding
i can't let go
i know a sighting
when you done
just wanna hold your hand
but i know you find me bland

so im holding by a threat
thats thiner than a web
countin days seekin for help on meds
drowning in the liquor by my bed
blowing up inside my head with led

so look to left and right 
you see the toxins linger all around your room
is he your perfect type
cause all you want are things you crave when your confused
don't trust you feel corrupt
cause what he said or did jsut never was enough
so bleed straight from your core
its something you wish that you never adored

so let it take away my breath
evning come and i turn into a mess
i wanna wait but i to be the bad guy
simulate my time and then im gone
whats the point of living when nobody's home
you wanna cry but you stuck inside your dome
jsut like you i wanna cry when im alone
fuck i hate when im stuck inside alone
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flower petals ✾

vision

// written and recorded in 2023
and there’s more than a million words 
buried round the corners of my mind but none of them feel right now 
but there i said that i love you first
and i meant every word in every moment, not a lie to be found :/

doesn’t matter what you say 
your words mean nothing to me…
felt it as my heart decayed 
your words mean nothing to me 

i’ll keep walking further with my head down 
feels like my hearts constantly in pain now  
staring at the ceiling till i go numb 
i had all the love to last a lifetime but you threw it all out 

oh
valentine? 

// 2/8/2025 
and i hate the way everything has changed
i’ve got reasons to believe that we will never be the same 
but i don’t know who i am without you 
my heart aches when im here without you   

and i can’t talk about my feelings, im ashamed…
i let you into my life so many times so im to blame :/
and i don’t know who i am without you 
cross my heart i’m dead here without you

and i hate the way that ive grown self-conscious 
you ruined me down to the carcass :(
baby don’t you dare call this love  
i tried again and you let me down…
and i hate the way i wake and you’re not here 
weighs against my brain and it’s not fair 
baby don’t you dare give up now 
wait on you till i’m in the ground

i don't know who i am without you [michael harrison x fxckyeahako]

SAVE YOURSELF

i could pour this wok up, but im never gettin out
i been runnin plays and now they wonder what im bout
got some demons in the crib and i cant even kick them out
put my pain in every verse but now my heart been buggin out

i been coping with the cart, its only thing i really love
but if we tryna get real dark i still like seeing my own blood
got the pressure in my heart but still i treat it like a drug
so if im finally feeling something then i really need the plug

i cant even cope, man i just want be numb
im still gon get my paper, i wont tell you where its from
i just play it cold cause way i feel, it weigh a ton
might just cop the whip, in all black tint and do the run

i been moving silent they dont see the things i done
cut off all the leaches i aint saving anyone
said id never make it now i do this shit for fun
cut everyone out so like what really have i won

i been chasing for the bag but still the emptiness dont fade
spent a lifetime in the dark and now theres demons in my brain
pour the heartache in a cup and watch it drown out all the pain
every single soul i lost i pray i see them all one day

if i fall into the flames ill be the only one to blame
and even if i do i guess ill join them all the same
i might go straight to hell but im just coping its okay
im just a product of the times i swear this shit be too insane

tried to tell them all im cold but they aint never understand
now they see me on the rise but they dont never know the plan
i been steady playing chess while they stalking on the gram
you was sleeping on the kid but now im shining in the sand

too bad

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Lyrics
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I ain't the one
I'll be the same
I'll be another that came and went
Keep me away
I'm used to the shade 
I'll wear the smile they think is best
Trust me when I say don't trust me
Push me and and pull me
Just the way I'd want you to
Love me but don't really love me
I need you to want me
Not the things I'd put you through

Blame myself
It's only right
You should take your anger out
So I can't talk about mine
I've seen my hell
Froze over ice
I'd say I panic about it
But I wouldn't wanna make you cry

It's legible what you're feeling
Are you still dreaming
You better wake up
Terrified Imma say I don't mean it
It ain't leaving
I'm just tryna stay young
We're all the same
Always looking for a meaning
But I could never give you one
It can't change
You won't like the reasons
And I'll tell you when you've had enough

I ain't the one
I'll be the same
I'll be another that came and went
Keep me away
I'm used to the shade 
I'll wear the smile they think is best
Trust me when I say don't trust me
Push me and and pull me
Just the way I'd want you to
Love me but don't really love me
I need you to want me
Not the things I'd put you through

Trust Me When I Say Don't Trust Me [Prod. Dead Tired]

nobody likes when youre fucked, but i swear im just stuck
nobody likes when youre frozen and just cant get up
nobody likes when you say that youre trying your hardest
but still cling to vices, know its not the smartest

but what do you do when you give it your all
and its still not enough to just stand without falling
i drained my whole self and gave up on my calling
but everyone thinks im just out here stalling

nobody likes when youre broken with too much to fix
now im sick of the lies and i wont fall for tricks
so im paranoid daily from 9 until 6
and then thats when i breakdown and just start to switch

and everything goes numb, i lose my whole self
i dont know who i am to begin with, its hell
im trapped in my body, a permanent cell
i wish i could get away, run from myself

Nobody Likes When…

prod dash 

sample from whiplash
lyrics ⬇️
theres not a future thought in my head oh well
well i could tell you what i want next 
but you would yell
yell at me for my best
for secrets that i had kept
then wonder why i aint slept
oh well
think this is something i cant repeat
keep stoopin low
you gonna find me out in a ditch
i dont want you to know
i dont think i dont think i can be seen like this
id rather you go tell everyone im just in an abyss
stuck out in the snow
way too cold so i couldnt flinch oo

think my lil brodie jus hit em a clip
360 y y hit on yo miss
and he doin damage so that you cant stitch
all of the stuff that you wish he aint did
act like my wifi aint runnin so i could just possibly find me some rest
act like this wachu been wantin
honestly please come be my guest

white paint on my whip
all of my vices green
i dont want you to trip
but i dont wanna you to cling
like what do u mean

well its pretty easy if you would just listen just for a minute 
i could tell u how i really have been 
like walkin to finland
thats how the distance feels between us when you get tempted
if i had wishlist you wont get it
ill throw that lil promise over the hedge

hits like a comet covered in ship
if we woulda saw it it would be sick
hints like a comment you wont forget
but we had a problem thats what we missed
covered in star dust under the mist
woulda been harder not to be hit

barley had started when you had dipped
hate you departed think we had skipped
my head been clouded hate to admit
i hope these feelings diminish they cant replenish
you act like a skit but this now a show
like where did u go
if i had a blick then i woulda blown
like you didnt know

and i cant explain how im feelin alone
every night i feel like theres not a phone
no where to reach
nowhere to be
part of me feel like im left out to bleed

finland (dash)

salty </3
.
.
.

Hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
Yeah you hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
If you see it
Can you find me
Do you think you're out of my league
I don't think you ever liked me
These other hoes just as sweet
Tell my dawgs that I'm reloaded
One pill will help me focus
First my heart
Now what's broken
That bitch just kill me slowly

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
Yeah you hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

.

.

<3

-emo fruits aka mr pretty derby

SALTY (prod. cxrter x jolst)

Sequel to my 2020 album "Wicked". This album explores my addiction recovery and mental health battles through the lens of an apocalyptic wasteland. I hope you like<333

FREAK. (FT. PINK CIG) [Prod. Young Elya]

bitch ich bin ein swagger

u can steal my swag but it doesnt matter

every day bitch i get better

bands

hella

bitch das new era

bitch i run it up

this bitch got stamina

bitch i got muny now

mein brudda kann nich raus

bitch er is locked im kopf

rapper reden was von glocks

bitch deine glock is tropf

bitch verzeih mir

will nicht das du  lachst will das du weinst hier

du bist in mein traum bitch du erscheinst mir

nicht als die richtige lil bitch ich bin ganz allein hier lesgo

bitch ich run mein bread up

new planet so wie redda

bitch its me n my setup lesgo

bitch i do it better

pockets getting fatter bitch i got inside data lesgo

inside data

𝔐𝔢𝔪𝔟𝔢𝔯 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 "𝔇𝔦𝔢 𝔜𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔤" 𝔠𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢

https://soundcloud.com/die-young-die-young

I want you to break me
Break me
Like nobody breaks me
Love me
Love me
Like nobody loves me

Trust Me When I Say Don't Trust Me [Prod. Dead Tired]

Robstar